So y'all know I was hoping for a VBAC, and after the version two weeks ago was cancelled when baby was head down, I was feeling good about things. Started feeling a lot of anxiety Wednesday and Thursday; not really about anything in particular, I could just feel it in my chest like I couldn't breathe. At Thursdays OB appointment I told her how bad I was feeling, and she prescribed me some anti-anxiety stuff to take the edge off. Also, she felt and the baby is NO LONGER HEAD DOWN. That little jerk flipped at some point in the last week, he's transverse again. So no more plans for a VBAC; assuming nothing else happens, I'm going to go in on Sunday for a "scheduled"- C (they don't actually schedule on Sundays, but that's when my OB is on so she said I need to come in first thing Sunday morning pretending to be in labor and then she'll do it

)). A little disappointed, but glad to be feeling better and have an end date on the calendar! I'm done at the office, maternity leave officially begins on Monday B-) Off to the mall today for a badly needed haircut!
Re: AW- Birth plan update
I get where you are coming from with the anxiety. I swore up and down I wanted a VBAC this go around but I have already chickened out (although, I am higher risk due to complications with my last birth). I seem to have found relief in the idea that I know exactly what to expect and my biggest fear was going through labor again and having another emergency C-s and dealing with the feelings of guilt and shame (completely irrational, fellow C-s moms!) yet again. I think I have finally come to terms with my decision not to risk it for a VBAC and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders!
So I am really sorry the little guy is being stubborn, but I'm glad to hear you have a plan set up and your anxiety is down. Good luck and I'll be praying for a quick recovery and healthy baby!!
Married: 5/21/05 **~** Emery Aylin 6/30/12
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