Feeling guilty

mrssantos07

Hi ladies, I'm new to this board so here's a little background. DH and I have a really cool 9yo daughter decided to try for baby #2 two years ago and had mirena IUD removed. I found out I was pg in January 2013 but it ended up being a chemical pregnancy, pg again n March 2013 but it was ectopic that was treated with methotrexate, pregnant again in December 2013 but it was another ectopic also treated with methotrexate. We took a break, went with a new OB, who sent me for an hsg which showed blockage in my right tube instead of the left where both ectopics were found, she referred us to a reproductive endocrinologist who found a fibroid that he did not think was a problem but after all testing told us our best chance of getting pregnant would be IVF which will cost us $7,000 and we just can't do it, Here's where I'm hurting. Last night my husband and I hung out with 2'other couples we are very close with and know what we've gone through. One couple just had a baby in June and have asked us to be the godparents which I am estatic about (they also suffered a MC at the same time of our first ectopic), the other couple just started trying for their first last month and it came out last night that they are expecting. I am so happy for my friends, but I can't help but feel sad for us, we started trying again in June but nothing has happened. I think what made it harder was everyone saying to us "you're next", I know they mean well but it's like a punch in the gut every time someone says something like that or "when are you two gonna have another" "you better hurry up". On top of all that I feel so guilty to be thinking of ourselves when I should just be happy for our friends. I'm also thinking of seeing another reproductive specialist. Thank you so much for reading.