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AW: Started estrace...and crying at work

MSU_Girl1202MSU_Girl1202 member
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Hey ladies!
Just had to vent and let it out for a minute and you are my 'people' that I feel okay being a total basket case around.
After a super tumultuous IVF cycle full of OHSS and taps and getting admitted to the hospital, we waited a cycle to start our FET cycle.
So, AF came yesterday and I was super excited to start taking the Estrace and get my embryo transfer scheduled (September 20th if all goes well), but by 2pm today, after 5 doses of the fun blue pill, I was literally sitting at work bawling my eyes out. One of my co workers basically said "you work hard, but you're doing everything wrong" to me, to which I started crying...so then he says "why are you so depressed?"...to which I start bawling...
I'm so embarrassed I don't even know how I'm going to go to work on Monday.
Now, I had read on the infertility board that extracellular can turn people into an "emotionally unstable raccoon" , but I really didn't think it would happen so quickly. Please keep me sane ladies! I'm not totally nuts for getting upset right?
I'm so excited about being reunited with my frosties, but I just hope I can stay semi normal until then!
Also, just wanted to give a shout out and ((hugs)) to @O2girl‌ who's also starting her FET cycle today. Keeping my fingers crossed for you lady!!
Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d  
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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Re: AW: Started estrace...and crying at work

  • Km380Km380 member
    Oh I'm so sorry! I was hoping this was just smurf vag complaint (we should trademark that) maybe it's just worse from the initial surge of hormones and you'll adjust this weekend? (((Hugs))) sweetie.

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    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

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  • Poppy715Poppy715 member
    I'm sure you are overwhelmed. Try and cry it out in the bathroom if you have to. So sorry you are a ball of emotions. ((Hugs))

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  • katib77katib77 member
    I'm so sorry. I don't remember my FET cycle and the estrace making me super emotional. I was also on estroge patches (vivelle) and think that I didn't add estrace until about 10 days prior to transfer. Remember it can just be emotional going through IVF and FET without all the hormones (from what I've heard from those that have done natural IVF), add the hormones and we're going to be off.
    Do your coworkers know you're dealing with a medical issue right now (not IVF specifically but at least know something is up?) i think a simple - I'm just a little overwhelmed with my health right now is an option if you want to attempt to explain. But then again, I really think there is no need to explain unless a supervisor asks more questions. Just a random coworker, I say screw them and their opinion.

    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
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    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
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  • MSU_Girl1202MSU_Girl1202 member
    edited September 2014

    katib77 said:
    I'm so sorry. I don't remember my FET cycle and the estrace making me super emotional. I was also on estroge patches (vivelle) and think that I didn't add estrace until about 10 days prior to transfer. Remember it can just be emotional going through IVF and FET without all the hormones (from what I've heard from those that have done natural IVF), add the hormones and we're going to be off. Do your coworkers know you're dealing with a medical issue right now (not IVF specifically but at least know something is up?) i think a simple - I'm just a little overwhelmed with my health right now is an option if you want to attempt to explain. But then again, I really think there is no need to explain unless a supervisor asks more questions. Just a random coworker, I say screw them and their nopinion.
    No, I just started a new job a couple months ago and haven't told anyone a thing. When i had my ER and OHSS, I told them that I had my "wisdom teeth out" and then had complications from that. I hate lying to them, but it would just be too awkward for me to tell strangers about the whole infertility thing right off the bat. This guy isn't my supervisor, but is definitely more senior to me. He's been kind of a jerk to me ever since I got here...kind of like a superiority complex thing, but it's really never gotten to me until today :-/
    Also, I'm SUPER sensitive to meds...my OHSS happened after minimal doses of injectables...go figure. I tend to get every side effect under the sun...guess I'm just lucky like that.
    Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
    08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
    10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
    04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
    05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
    03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
    4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
    5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
    7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
    9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d      
    10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
    2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
    3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
    6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
    2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
    3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
    6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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  • rslh10rslh10 member
    Oh lady, so many hugs! <33
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    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    I don't have good advice but sending hugs.  I hope chilling over the weekend helps things even out.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
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  • eliidaeliida member
    ((hugs))
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  • stinybeanstinybean member
    I agree with @katib77‌ you have been through a lot and adding on hormone supplements is probably not helping. Take it easy this weekend. Many ((HUGS))
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  • jjbmstincojjbmstinco member
    ((hugs))

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    BFP #2-11/13/14  EDD: 7/26/14  Beta #1: 11/14/13 (135 progesterone: 19.5)   Beta #2" 11/17/14 (733 ) 
    Hoping for good news!

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  • LittleMrsWLittleMrsW member
    I'm so sorry. You have a lot going on right now. Even on a good day if someone told me I was doing everything wrong, it would hurt my feelings. Sending you ((hugs))!




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  • LizBlueLizBlue member
    Sending ((hugs)) Between the lupron headaches/fuzziness and the estrace blubbering, I've also been a huge mess this cycle.

    At my ET, the doctor said it's amazing what we go through and I basically burst into tears.

    It will be done soon lady- you hang in there.
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    37 years old, MH is 42
    TTC since 2010; Dx Unexplained Infertility; possible male factor 
    August 2012 through June 2013:  6 IUIs with clomid and trigger shot, all BFNs
    7/2013, Pregnant! Unmedicated--we were on a treatment break
    8/20/13 no heart beat; 8/23/13 d&c
    3/15/14 IVF #1:  Lupron/Follistim/Menopur; ER 3/10 resulting in four transfer grade blastocysts, transferred one pretty blast and froze the remaining three. BFN. 
    Natural FET in May cancelled because the universe hates me my hormones were not cooperating.
    6/24/14 FET #1: transferred two pretty embryos; BFN   
    8/28/14 FET #2: BFP, ended in Chemical pregnancy

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  • MrsPhD83MrsPhD83 member
    thinking of you. huge ((hugs))

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    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

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  • lyndz333lyndz333 member
    I don't know what you are going through but you shouldn't feel embarrassed.  That was a dick comment by your co-worker in the first place.  Have they ever heard of tact?!  ((((((((hugs)))))))))))
    BFP #1 - 12/7/2012 - EDD 8/14/2013 - DD born 8/17/2013
    BFP #2 - 3/31/2014 - EDD 12/6/2014 - Natural miscarriage on 4/28/2014
    BFP #3 - 8/4/2014 - EDD 4/12/2015 - Chemical Pregnancy discovered on 8/13/2014

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  • MSU_Girl1202MSU_Girl1202 member
    edited September 2014
    Thank you ladies for all the love! Having a bit of a rough night still but burying myself in a soft blanket while watching chick flicks on Netflix and waiting for DH to drive down for the weekend. It's so nice to know that I can count on you all for support when I'm seriously down(or just losing my mind) @LizBlue‌ : I hope your symptoms get better soon!! ((Hugs)) to you too and will keep my FX for you this cycle!
    Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
    08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
    10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
    04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
    05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
    03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
    4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
    5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
    7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
    9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d      
    10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
    2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
    3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
    6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
    2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
    3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
    6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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  • O2girlO2girl member
    <3. I'm so sorry you are having a hard time with the hormone fluctuations. I wonder if people would be so cavalier with what they say to someone if they knew from experience what someone was going through. I'm sorry you had to deal with your co-workers poor choice of words. Big (((((hugs))))) love!! >:D<
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    DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

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    MFI due to Testicular Cancer

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    FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
    Beta 1= 276
    Beta 2= 662
    4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
    5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
    5/3/14 ~ D&C
    FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
    October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
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  • stephy1221stephy1221 member
    Big hugs.Don't worry about work too much. Many people have had times of getting emotional at work and you just move past it. Plus if your office is anything like mine someone will start some chat worthy drama mid week and that will be the new focus. FX for you.
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  • ellebelle2384ellebelle2384 member
    ((hugs))  I have no personal experience but I have heard from others that estrace definitely has that effect.  Hope things get better soon!
    Me: 31     DH: 33
    Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
    BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
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    BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
    BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15
    BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
    IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
    IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
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  • alleycat39alleycat39 member
    Hugs lady. I don't have experience with Estrace, but pumping our bodies with hormones blows. We turn into these people that we don't even recognize. So sorry you had to go through that.
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    BFP #1: 10/24/2012  EDD 7/3/13, missed m/c @ 9 weeks, D&E 
    DX: Septate Uterus. Septum resection 6/4/13
    BFP #2: 12/20/2013  EDD 9/1/14, missed m/c @ 7weeks, D&E
    BFP #3: 5/26/2014 EDD 2/7/15, missed m/c @ 9 weeks, D&E- DX Trisomy22
    RPL, Karyotyping, and SHG: All Normal
    BFP #4: 9/6/14 EDD 5/16/15 Praying for our RAINBOW!
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  • alm288alm288 member
    Sending you lots of (((hugs))). Hope u r feeling better today.
    TTC: Since July 2013
    BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
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  • yellowcat10yellowcat10 member
    MSU_Girl1202 ((HUGS)) Hopefully you feel better soon, maybe you just need to adjust to the dose?  No matter what you are entitled to a little breakdown every now and again, this is stressful with our without the extra hormones.  I say milk this and get your H to do lots of extra nice things for you!

    @O2girl good luck!
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