Needed a Break

ambmama

Hi ladies,

So sorry for my absence the last few weeks - I've hit a bit of a rough patch and somewhat hid from life. I also travelled for work and had huge family drama, so that didn't help. I didn't meant to leave anyone hanging though, so for that I'm truly sorry! I didn't realize how much my first loss EDD coming up would affect me, but it's been so hard. A friend with a son the same age as mine just had her baby, and I completely lost it when I saw the pictures (damn you, Instagram). It brings back all of those same thoughts - why couldn't I have had this happy moment coming up? On top of it, we've almost completely lost our support system. My family is completely unreliable with childcare and DH's family isn't really in the picture, so now DH wants to wait even longer (talking years, here) before even talking about TTC. I think I am just SO frustrated that my picture of the near future is completely falling apart that I've become a bit of a recluse and didn't even want to talk online. I'm hoping sharing some of this will make me feel somewhat better. DH is also taking me to lunch - apparently he's noticed I haven't left the house, too. (I work from home so I have a good excuse, but the whole really needing a shower thing is a bit much).

Anyway, enough about me. I miss you ladies and I hope all is well. Excited to catch up on what I've missed!

nocompass

I'm so sorry. Welcome back and huge hugs!

tigerlynx31413

I'm sorry you're having a rough time! Huge hugs and enjoy your lunch date!

alm288

Welcome back. I'm sorry you've been having a rough time lately. I hope life is kinder to you. (((Hugs)))

ambmama

Thanks ladies.

uromys

Welcome back. (((hugs))) I'm sorry that you've been suffering alone lately. I'm looking forward to getting to know you. Hope you found time to shower and enjoy your lunch date

ambmama

Thanks @uromys! I did shower and I have to admit, it helped a lot And lunch was good, too.

uromys

I took my loss way harder then I ever imagined I would. After a week of barely wanting to shower and not leaving the house MH convinced me go to lunch with him. We ended up going to the shooting range and that helped release a lot of the built of stress. I guess I just needed to get out of my funk and regain a sense of normalcy. I hope you are feeling better!

ambmama

I seem to be having ups and downs. It's funny, today is actually one of the worst days I've had and yet I finally came back here AND left the house. Still not happy but feeling a little more upbeat.

meredithcarole

I'm sorry @ambmama‌. We have missed you on the October board. I think we are all a little sad at the fast approaching reminder. ((Hugs)).

stinybean

@ambmama‌ Sorry you're going through a tough time right now honey. (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

jjbmstinco

I am sorry that things are hard right now.  Welcome back!  I hope you find support here!