We went in for our nt scan today. I should have been 12 weeks. It looks like the baby stopped growing at 8 weeks. They scheduled my D & C for Thursday.
I think I'm going to bow out for a while, perhaps for good. I haven't felt as comfortable posting here since the whole "catfish" thing. I'm not upset with anyone and I'm not saying that to make anyone feel bad, so please don't. I just feel disconnected and sad. I'll probably lurk every now and then because I really do care about you ladies.
All the best to you all.
Re: Loss
Married: 5/21/05 **~** Emery Aylin 6/30/12
BFP#1-11/5/10- Surgery for ectopic pregnancy 11/15/10 BFP#2-11/1/11 Due 7/8/12 Born 6/30/12
Oops we did it again... BFP 03/23/14 Due 12/6/14 Nora Born 11/23/14
I didn't want to leave with you feeling bad. I really, honest to God, understand why things went down the way they did. I'm not upset with anyone, especially not you. You seem very sweet.
This board was my rock and my solace through a lot of hard times. I'm not forgetting that, and I feel so much love for everyone here. I tried really hard to laugh the catfish thing off. But right now I'm hurting really badly, and it hasn't been that long since the whole fiasco. I can't share that kind of pain with someone who thinks I'm lying...and many people still do.
I'm an over-sharing person by nature, and it was so easy to vent about my struggles here without filtering (ah, the ease of the internet) or considering what people might think. I have no one to blame but myself. Like I said, if I wasn't living it, I sure as hell wouldn't believe it. I wish I didn't have to live it.
Anyway, that got longer than I intended. I just wanted to say that you had every right to be confused/concerned. I don't hold it against you or any of the others. I wish every single one of you nothing but the best. I'll try to check in and see how everyone is doing from time to time.