Intro

EJ83

Me - DH and I met when we were both 27.  We were married in May '13 and are turning 31 this year. We have 2 fur babies, beagle mixes. 

Details: I had have had 3 pregnancy losses since we decided to try for a baby.  The first two were natural miscarriages while the third has been more complicated. I was diagnosed with a missed miscarriage after a vitality ultrasound at 8 weeks and a beta test showed that the pregnancy was not viable.  I had a D&C the same week and samples were sent for chromosomal testing.  The results showed both a partial molar pregnancy as well as a balanced genetic translocation on a female sample. Both my DH and I were tested for the translocation and I also have the balanced translocation. My OB said that there was a possibility that I was carrying twins at the time and that it can't be ruled out, but it's more likely that the second sample came from me.  The treatment for the molar pregnancy is to monitor HCG levels for 6 months to make sure they remain normal.  We are on our last month now and my next cycle begins around the 15th and go time would be at the end of the month, if we decide we're ready to try again.  I'm very torn on this because due to the genetic translocation, our chances of having another miscarriage is higher than normal.  I'm really torn between wanting to have a baby and risking another loss.  I'm also unsure about how I'm going to make it through the next early pregnancy worrying that it will end without a baby.

Fun Stuff:  I enjoy spending time with my dogs and my hubby.  I'm an avid reader and I've also taken up wood burning (great for me, I can't draw but I'm great a tracing).  I also love hockey, summer, and I'm trying to love exercise again (heard it's good for you).

I'm glad to be part of the board and taking steps to make myself whole again.  

ctk181

Welcome and I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope you find support here to help you make the right decision for you and your husband. It is so tough! Sending t&p your way.

mrsjg2013

I'm so sorry for your losses.  Welcome to the board- I hope you find comfort and support here.  I'm also (hopefully) nearing the end of being on the bench and have three losses in the last year.  Repeated pregnancy loss definitely takes a toll on your body, your spirit, and your emotions.  Although I don't have any molar pregnancy experiences, I can empathize with the mixed feelings about trying again.  If you ever want to chat, please feel free to PM me. 

dawnstar898

Welcome, so sorry for your losses.

rslh10

I am so sorry for your losses. You will know what is the right choice for you. I think that we all can relate to the fear of becoming pregnant again. That probably won't ever go away. Big hugs to you Welcome to the board.

[Deleted User]

So sorry for your losses. I hope you find comfort here while navigating the next steps. Welcome to the board. ((Hugs))

rubysi

Welcome. I am sorry for your losses.

meredithcarole

Welcome. I am so sorry for your losses. If you would like to join the October Angel Mama's thread I generally post it on Tuesdays (several of us had October 2014 dates). Feel free to say "hi" to the group tomorrow (it will probably be evening when I post this week's update).

stinybean

I'm sorry for your losses. Welcome to the board. I hope you find the support you are looking for here.

Rachaeleigh

Sorry for your losses

alm288

I'm very sorry for your losses. I hope you can find the support you are looking for here. Welcome

rmpar29

I'm so sorry for your losses.  I have no advice, but you will know when the time is right.  When the desire to have a child outweighs your fear of another loss is when you are ready.  Big ((((HUGS)))

mkfish31

So sorry for all of your losses. Can't imagine what you are going through.

nursecmc

I'm sorry for your losses.  The waiting and in-between sucks.  Good luck to you as you continue on your journey.

aves0708

I am so very sorry for all you have  been through.  Good luck as you move forward. 

CreechMommy

So sorry for your losses.  Hopefully between you, YH, and your Dr. you can come up with a plan going forward and decide in TTC is something you are ready for.  ((HUGS))

MrsPhD83

I'm so sorry for your losses. I agree with PP, the lingering fear is something I think we all battle with a little bit. But others have told me that you'll know when you're ready when the desire to try again outweighs the fear. Welcome to the board.

Elliecat17

Welcome to the board. I am sorry for your losses and hope that this community will be a source of comfort for you as you heal.

eliida

I am so sorry for your losses. Welcome, I hope you find comfort here.

tlc35

I am sorry for you losses and for the diagnosis of a translocation.  Welcome to the board.

Cheetara2

So sorry for your losses. 

LilNugget19

Sorry for your losses, welcome.

EJ83

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I had an appointment with my ob today and she scheduled the last round of tests to make sure nothing else is going on. I'm glad I I decided to post here. I was trying to avoid the subject all together all summer but it's really time to get my head back in the game. Thanks again and you'll be seeing more of me around.