I posted to the 35+ board too, but don't really know which board I should be posting to. Historically, I've been a lurker, but today I got some news that made me want to reach out to people and seek some support. I will add some testing info to my signature soon... gotta figure that out.
We've been trying for about a year and started seeing a fertility specialist after about 9 months (since I'm 35). I have had a FemVue test (which is like the dye test), blood work, a couple of ultrasounds and my husband has done two semen tests. All of my tests came back in the normal range. His were low in volume, motility and morphology. They weren't SUPER low, except for the motility one which was pretty much our kiss of death for a natural pregnancy. I've been hanging in there pretty well, talking to one friend who has been through it all and been trying for 7 years. I've stayed optimistic, but today I got a call saying that I have high risk precancerous cells on my cervix and I need to have a LEEP procedure. This means we have to delay IVF and my chances of miscarriage go up, not to mention the cancer word just gives me chills.
Now, I'm negative. I'm so down. I found out on my way to work today and couldn't stop crying and just had to leave and come back home. I know so many women have been trying longer and don't know what is wrong and I shouldn't feel so bad for myself. I have been pretty good about keeping that perspective, but this cancer scare has just introduced me to my breaking point.
I've found it difficult to talk to anyone who isn't TTC. People asking me when I'm going to have kids makes me want to scratch their eyes out. I haven't even told my sister about my issues because it feels so awkward. For some reason, this just seems easier. Everyone here knows what it feels like and we can relate. At least, that's my hopes.
Thank you in advance for your support!
Married 7/2013 - been TTC ever since
Me: 35 - normal test results
Husband: 30 - Concentration:10.8 Million/ml, Motility: 16%, Progressive Motility: 9%, Morphology: 3%
First started talking to fertility specialist in 4/2014
11/13 - 19 retrieved, 18 ICSI, 15 fertilized.
Transfer 11/16 - 1 blastocyst transfered, 3 frosties
11/28 - Beta #1 BFP! 12dp5dt beta 1,699
11/30 - Beta #2 14dp5dt 3,400
12/8 - No signs of baby at first U/S (6 weeks)
12/15 - yolk sac, fetal pole and heartbeat all there! I'm still pregnant! One girl, due 8/4
All are welcome!