i have never been more insecure or felt more disgusting in my life:(

momof3andcounting

This is my 4th baby so I know you gain weight, feel like crap, and ride an emotional roller coaster but this is the worst I have felt in my life. I look at myself in the mirror and burst into tears. I have gained so much weight due in part to being in the BSN program and having to sit on my ass and study so much and in part to only being able to eat carbs and cheese without throwing them up in my 1st trimester. I am so depressed...no sex in at least 2 months...i am starting to think I am just unattractive and undesirable to my dh...i want him to just leave!!!! I hate this feeling...anybody else? I have never been a whiner or somebody who considers them self to need help but what is going on???

lovelynic220

Oh....I feel your pain.Not the sex or hubby part ( I am pregnant with my 4 the also.I am very visably pregnant and only14 weeks.Coworkers tell me daily how big I am.I feel exhausted and discusting.I can relate!

lovelynic220

It is very difficult to be a mommy to three children and care for yourself and a pregnancy also.I wish I had better advice but you are not alone.Hang in there.

jinnymb

I'm on my 4th too and feel just overall yuck. lol  I feel exhausted, beat down, not really excited, and pretty much over it.  I guess that is when you know for sure you are done having babies!  I was at  a shower with all first time pregnant girls and they were beaming and excited and really cute.  We put in our time and our bodies are done with it.  Just hang in there!! Once it is over at least for me I know I will have the family I dreamed of and can finally work on myself again and get new clothes, a nice hair cut, etc...

Also, we never have sex when I'm pregnant past like 3/4 months.  My DH is totally not into it and it really hurt the first pregnancy but our sex life always bounces right back!! I know it's hard now but it is really hard being pregnant and having 3 children.  You should be proud of yourself and once it's done you will be able to focus on you again : )

Amandabw82

I'm pregnant with my third but I feel the exact same way. I went from being in the best shape of my life to a bloated blob. And to top it off I have cellulite showing up all over my legs. I don't understand it. This didn't happen with my first two. I'm worried my legs will be ruined for life by the time I have our baby. I feel ridiculous ranting over this but it's nice to know I am not the only one feeling completely unattractive.

momof3andcounting

Glad to know I am not the only one...i see all of these posts about how "amazing" it is to be pregnant and how great everybody is feeling and oh I love this one..."I haven't gained any weight" puke! Lol I have back fat! I have never had back fat in my life and my thighs think they are best friends...I really believe that they have a plan to start a fire by rubbing against each other! Just so blahhhhh. #:-S

TehysKitaBug

Well I'm one of those "haven't gained any weight" people...but it came at the cost of being horrendously sick the first 15 weeks. But I have back fat and firestarting thighs to begin with >_<  I definitely do not think that pregnancy is amazing though. The miracle of what is happening maybe...but I am SO not one of those glowing "I love being" pregnant women. I already have body image issues and I am so worried that it will affect me more in the coming months. I'm in a relatively new relationship with the babys father so that makes things all the worse...maybe he'll just run off on me when I get to that beached whale stage! 

momof3andcounting

Ugghhh... I hope your morning sickness is over with:( that's definitely not what I meant...it is very hard to feel confident when you're pregnant. I have gone through it 3 other times without feeling so bad...this time I am just beside myself... Glad our babies are healthy ladies but this pregnancy can't go by fast enough for me!

kelsz12

I'm a FTM and while I don't hate being pregnant, I have learned that I definitely am not one of those ladies who loves pregnancy nor would I ever want to be pregnant all the time. It's not all butterflies and rainbows but it's also not the worst thing to have to ever endure. I guess before when I imagined pregnancy, I thought it would be more fun. 

The fact that I get exhausted so much more quickly than I used to, I feel basically out of control of my body and that there is a little human kicking me in my organs makes me feel out of sorts. Not like the normal 'me'. However I've accepted the fact that my old 'normal' will never be the same again. I'm more excited to be a mommy and meet our little dude and be done with pregnancy!

robsbabygirl08

I'm sorry you feel like this, but I'm glad you posted. I freaking hate my body right now. If I see myself in the mirror I just start crying. I don't know how I'm supposed to make it through these next 19 weeks without a total meltdown. I won't let my DH see me naked at all. We have a glass shower and I hang towels over the glass so he can't see me when I shower.

Bigboneded

I havent gained much... but I started out with back fat, I dont cry when I see myself in the mirror.... but it does make me a little sad thatI have belly with no bump at almost 18 weeks. My hubby goes weeks without asking for sex, I get that can be frustrating... but I think it's more him....
very real concern for antepartum depression. You have a LOT going on with three kids and a full time nursing student. Adding stress about leaving your hubby or kucking him out ?!?! Is there anyone you can talk to, and I mean professional counselor. Body image concerns are not unexpected, but you have so much more stress than that and pressure. Please take care of yourself, nurses tend to put themselves last and that temperament tends to gravitate to nursing.
From one (older FTM worrier) nurse to another.... (((hugs)))

allrightmeow

Damn I feel really bad for you all.  My legs were so swollen in the last few weeks but I still strutted around the house in my underwear like a preening peacock.  

momof3andcounting

I do see a psychiatrist. I want to scream most days honestly. This BSN program is worse than the ADN program and to make it worse we are the 1st cohort (only 5 of us there were 6 but one dropped) to go through this particular program. They have jerked us back and forth. I have 30 weeks of clinical starting 4 weeks after my baby boy arrives and they did not inform us of this until last month. I am a registered nurse...why are they sending us out for more clinicals??? I get the community clinical but I am an in home pediatric nurse. It is my job to be out in the community...you're right...it is too much:( I just want to get through this. I feel like I take all of the time away from my 3 dds but I am doing this to show them that they can be independent women when they grow up. I never want them to depend on a man and feel stuck... The weight gain and lack of sex just add to my list of things to be miserable about I guess ugghhh...i try to see the bright side of it all but some days are easier than others

Bigboneded

More hugs for you! You shouldn't have to be at"work" until 6 weeks out, can they accomodate that?
And idk what the reasoning would be for clinicals... RN is RN but I guess an accredited program needs to verify your skill set? Before graduating?
Best wishes, happy to hear the vents if it keeps you sane.... :-)

SheHulk723

I'm with you guys who are feeling awful about themselves =(  I actually haven't gained any weight yet, but that's only because I lost it in some places and it has migrated to my tummy.  My clothes are starting to get tight and too uncomfortable.  And then the last two nights DH hasn't been able to, well to be blunt, keep it up when we were trying to be intimate.  He swears it's not me and it's something wrong with him but I couldn't help but feel a million times worse about myself.  I was definitely in tears about it last night and then couldn't sleep for hours ='(

KMommytobe

This is my 3rd and definitely worst pregnancy so far. Felt horrible the entire first trimester. Once I hit 2nd tri I felt way better though so hopefully it's over! There are ups and downs throughout pregnancy I'd just try to enjoy the ups

mommy5point0

#5 here. My best advice: find ONE thing you like about yourself physically.... Lips, eyes, hair, nails, WHATEVER this is. Emphasize it. You'll give yourself a reason to pass the mirror and be like *wink wink* hey... I'm lookin cute today.

Be gentle with yourself.
\:D/

Amyou06

I feel disgusting too. It doesnt help that I have a MIL that is constantly bringing up my weight to me in these sublte, but not so subtle ways. I went thorugh IVF to get pregnant and the stress I've been under the last year has been terrible. I stress eat, so I definitely gained weight before starting IVF, not to mention the hormonal ride IVf takes you on.

 Now I'm 18 weeks pregnant and should be thrilled and glowing and my mother in law has made comments to me  like "yeah you probably wont show for a while because you have such wide hips".  Or the ol' "You should really start walking more to help keep the weight off becasue you could really get big".   Ya know, makes me feel even better about myself when I'm already a hormonal mess who has struggled with her weight her entire life.  FML

momof3andcounting

I'm sorry your MIL is acting that way...maybe you could say something like..."maybe it would be a good idea for you to walk with me

momof3andcounting

SheHulk723- this is one of my problems too! Don't tell me that all of the sudden you have erectile dysfunction! I want to punch him... I just hate men right now... I yelled at him the other day and said he gets to run around looking the same and I am blowing up and now I am sexless! He may regret this later!