**Weekend Crazy Train**

BethKate2

This is a thread posted daily for any of us who need to get out our frustrations about waiting to O, the 2WW, or vent about our cycles. If you find yourself checking FF obsessively, MF is getting the best of you, or you just want to pee on all things, let it out here!

In order for the conductors to be better able to help you, please make sure you either have a FF chart link in your sig, or make sure you post a link. Don't chart? You should consider it, not only will it give you a lot more insight to your cycles, but conductors will be able to answer a lot of your questions just by looking at your chart! To learn more about charting, check out the charting course that FF offers:https://www.fertilityfriend.com/courses/

The CT is not the place to post a BFP. If you have a "squinter" or if you have a line that appeared after the time frame, please do not post about it here.  Take a step back from the board, test again with FMU, and good luck!

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Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO: 

Can I just ______ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms:

Explain your Crazy here: 

mpiemont

Crazy level from 1-10: 4

CD/DPO: 22/5

Can I just ______ already?!: Have some sort of steady-ish temperatures

Signs/Symptoms: Nothing more than yesterday- a few twinges down low.

Explain your Crazy here: My post O temps look like I'm trying to draw a crown or something. Up/down/up/down. Still overall they're up, but I'm obsessing over then not going up up up. 5DPO is a lame day- way to early to test or feel symptoms, so I guess I'm just looking for something to obsess over

And a big thank you to @mlal78 for telling me about the secondary estrogen surge around 4DPO. I had no idea it existed and found a lot of info on it in my Googling last night

BethKate2

@mpiemont, your post-O temps are a little funky, but they're still way above your coverline, so I wouldn't worry about it. "Pretty" charts don't mean anything, and neither do "ugly" ones.

daffodil428

Crazy level from 1-10: 1,000,000 CD/DPO: 17/? Can I just ___stop___ already?!: Signs/Symptoms: everything and nothing at once. Explain your Crazy here: this is cycle 1 that were allowed to ttc after our 2nd loss. I feel like a basket case. I am not a crier and I've cried 3 times today about how badly I want a take home baby. The first miscarriage was hard but it was at 10 weeks so still within a "normal" timeframe. The 2nd was at 17 weeks, not normal requiring a hospital stay. We have been through a lot this year. (Along with all of you lovely ladies). I just find myself emotionally overwhelmed. Being emotionally overwhelmed is out of the ordinary for me so my crazy begins to think illogical thoughts like am I pregnant again? Yet I know it's way to early to tell and the odds are not in our favor for conceiving so quick and I probably haven't even o'd yet. Ugh. Every time I ttc it gets more upsetting, not less. Thanks for listening.

BethKate2

@daffodil428 ((hugs))

daffodil428

@pickles4prez and @bethkate2 Thanks ladies  

Pickles, I'd love an on call masseuse! Let's get on that!

alleycat39

Crazy level: 8
CD:15
Can i just ___ovulate___ already!
Signs: O pain and EWCM

Explain: I am on a Letrozole medicated cycle right now, took it cd3-7. On CD12 I had a good looking 18mm follie and an 11mm follie. I've been testing twice a day and still no even remotely close to positive OPK. Last medicated cycle I had an OPk+ by cd14. Naturally I'm now freaked out that I haven't had a + yet. We originally decided not to do a trigger this cycle to keep OOP costs down, but now I'm wondering if I should call Monday am and see if I should do one. Maybe I'm just being crazy and impatient!

BethKate2

@alleycat39, I don't have any personal experience with medicated cycles, but CD 15 is still on the earlier side, so I probably wouldn't worry too much. If you haven't ovulated by Monday, though, it can't hurt to call your doctor.

MBJune

I need to punch a ticket this weekend! Im going BSC.

Crazy level from 1-10: 10+

CD/DPO: 23/9dpiui

Can I just ______ already?!: know if iui #3 worked!

Signs/Symptoms: Nothing! A few cramps here and there but nothing major

Explain your Crazy here: I did really good until today not thinking about it. I know it's too early to know as my lp is normally 14 days. I have one more iui with letrozole and trigger after this before we move on to injects. I won't test until 14 dpiui, the day of beta. Don't want bad news over the phone.

(((Hugs))) to the ladies that need them today!

BethKate2

@MBJune, good luck holding out for your beta, and best of luck this cycle!

MBJune

@BethKate2‌ Thanks!

Edit: wrong tag

jennadesigns

daffodil428 ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry you're have a rough time. It sucks that after all we've been through we can no longer TTC without worry and anxiety. I'm glad you've been cleared to try. You say you're on CD17 and you don't know if you O'd. Do you temp or do OPKs? They might give you a better idea of when you're ovulating. Just a thought.

alleycat39 I don't think it's totally abnormal to have not O'd yet. Keep testing multiple times a day and call your doctor Monday for some advice if you still haven't gotten a positive. FX you get a positive before then!

MBJune I have my FX for you that this cycle worked. Waiting is so hard!

Crazy level from 1-10: 5

CD/DPO: CD29/8DPO

Can I just ______ already?!: be closer to the end of my 2WW so I can pee on something.

Signs/Symptoms: nothing. the occassional twinge, but nothing out of the ordinary.

Explain your Crazy here:  I hate this limbo time where it's still too early to test ... waiting is the hardest part. I just want to know already if this worked. Our timing was not the greatest this cycle so I'm not holding out a ton of hope because I don't want to be disappointed.

BethKate2

@jennadesigns, limbo sucks. Hang in there!

alleycat39

BethKate2 said:

@alleycat39, I don't have any personal experience with medicated cycles, but CD 15 is still on the earlier side, so I probably wouldn't worry too much. If you haven't ovulated by Monday, though, it can't hurt to call your doctor.

Thank you! Just holding on to hope I'll wake up and have a OPK+ tomorrow am.

jjbmstinco

@daffodil428 ((hugs))

@MBJune-FX for you!!

tlc35

Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO: 29/11

Can I just ______ already?!: know already

Signs/Symptoms:  I am seriously on the crazy train with the phantom symptoms, feeling warm, hungry all the time, peeing all the time.

Explain your Crazy here:  I tested with my last wondfo yesterday and BFN.  I am trying to wait till tomorrow to test again but obsessing of course.  It looks like it will be a busy day today at work so hopefully that will keep my mind off it.  Our timing wasn't the best this cycle (-3 and -4) so I know I shouldn't get my hopes up but I have anyway.

BookishMomma

Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO: CD14, but really, who the F knows? See below. (We are TTA, BTW)

Can't MY BODY JUST COOPERATE already?!

Signs/Symptoms: bright red bleeding/spotting

Explain your Crazy here: I had been feeling pretty good thus far on my estrogen therapy (Premarin). But just now I had cramping so bad that I had to jump up from my chair. And, sure enough, when I went to the bathroom, there was bright red blood. So apparently I'm having some sort of break-through bleeding? WTF? I'll definitely be calling my RE's office when it opens tomorrow. I have no idea if this is normal or not. 

If I had not had my surgery to remove retained tissue (which my RE told me to count as CD1) and gone on the hormone pills to rebuild my lining, I would normally be expecting AF around this time. But I thought the hormones were supposed to, like, reset  my cycle? WTF? 

I'm supposed to start progesterone in 2 days to fake my body out for 10 days, and then I'm supposed to get a "withdrawal bleed" AF after that. But apparently my body is trying to have AF now.

BethKate2

@tlc35, FX for you, but try not to read into those "symptoms." Keep reminding yourself that any symptoms you've got now are likely being caused by progesterone whether you're pregnant or not.

@BookishMomma, Sorry your body is being confusing. Hopefully your RE will have some insight for you tomorrow.

BethKate2

@Amybunny30, Looking at your chart, I think it's possible you could've ovulated on CD 26, so that would put you at 10dpo today. Also, it's not abnormal to have some variation in your LP (mine has been 11-14 days over the last two years). You could just be having a slightly longer LP this cycle, which isn't a bad thing. FX things work out for you.

CreechMommy

Crazy level from 1-10: 9

CD/DPO: CD22/DPO8

Can I just ______ already?!: End this TWW!!!

Signs/Symptoms: Twinges, tender bbs, and really tired (but I have been really busy yet, so I don't think this one counts)

Explain your Crazy here:  I'm so crazy that I did a test today.  Of course BFN because 8 DPO is stupid early, I know.  I just couldn't help myself!  I have 3 more tests and I'm trying to hold out for 11 DPO.  I just want to know already!!

https://www.fertilityfriend.com/ttc/index.php

Edit: Added link to chart

BethKate2

@CreechMommy, step away from the tests! I can't lie, I've tested that early too. Good luck to you.

kittymeowbark

Crazy level from 1-10: 10++++

CD/DPO: 33/12

Can I just ______ already?!: Get KTFU

Signs/Symptoms: tired, cranky

Explain your Crazy here: Second test at 12DPO and BFN. I am totally feeling defeated, especially since temp is going down as well. I really had my hopes up this cycle. I just feel broken at this point. After seeing the BFN this morning, my entire day has been shit. This journey is just too much. Now I guess I am waiting for AF to show. FUCK!!!! 

BethKate2

@kittymeowbark, I'm sorry about the BFNs. TTC is no fun, and TTCAL is even worse. Seeing BFNs month after month really starts to weigh on you.

tlc35

Thanks @Bethkate2 the rational part of my brain knows this but the crazy train side is symptom spotting.  Stupid brain.

BethKate2

@medic7979, Hopefully you get a positive OPK soon!

beemaya83

@medic7979‌ how long were your cycles before your loss? I'm curious because mine have been anywhere from 30-35 days. My chart looks crazy too, I just started temping this month. Hang in there!

kittymeowbark

@Pickles4Prez  --- it really does. I have no idea how to move onto next cycle and just "start over"....again

Hugs to anyone who needs them today!!

beemaya83

@medic7979‌ I'm trying to figure out how the heck to link my chart on here...help!!!!

beemaya83

@medic7979‌ see my previous post. Also I just started charting this month so trying to get the hang of things and how to interpret the chart. I'm using a one decimal basal thermometer, I couldn't find a two decimal in my local stores. What brand do you use? Thank you!!

beemaya83

@medic7979 I think I got it! Sorry for all the posts. However, I notice the link shows calendar/chart

beemaya83

@medic7979‌ @Amybunny30‌ ok I think I got it this time! Thank you!!! I love both of your September siggys!!