~*~*~ August Angels Check-In 8/18/14 ~*~*~

mara005

August Mommas

This check-in is for mommas who lost a baby due in the month of August (any year), and any late loss mommas who gave birth and lost their precious angel in August.

New to the check in: Welcome. I'm so sorry you find yourself here but hope you find the love and support you need from the amazing women on TTCAL. Tell us a bit about yourself, where you are in the TTCAL process, and don't forget to include your August EDD or birth date.

Current members: Let me know if you have any updates to the information below, or if you get a BFP please send me a PM with along with your EDD!

For everyone: How are you lovely ladies doing this week? Where are you in the TTCAL process this week? Any appointments coming up?

If you don't have a special message below, it just means you weren't able to check in last week or haven't checked in for a while. So, let us know what's up with you TTC and otherwise so I can include it next week!

The List:

LiaMadi1: EDD 8/3/13 and 8/7/14

sfazar: EDD 8/4/14

Lundlebean: EDD 8/5/14

katib77: EDD 8/7/14

NoeliaV: EDD 8/23/14  

Dawnstar898: EDD 8/25/14

Mara005: EDD 8/27/14

@LiaMadi1: Hello Lovely, I hope work is setting down a bit.

@katib77: How are you?

@NoeliaV: Have you O'd? Is your FW over?

@sfazar: How was your dog's test on Saturday? 1 Month (and 1 day) until your appointment!

@lundlebean: I'm so sorry the FET didn't work, major ((hugs)) for all that you're going through. Do you have a plan for next cycle?

@Dawnstar898: 4 dpo! How is the 2ww treating you?

QOTW: Instead of a question, how about everyone finds an inspirational quote to share with us? I think we could all use some words of wisdom.

mara005

Hello Ladies!

I talked to a Doc today at my office and he suggested we try and clear the tube (or basically just see if it really is blocked) by having a procedure done during my next cycle. So basically I need to make an appointment on CD 1 at the local hospital for this thing.
But he did say that I have had an ectopic and that my remaining tube may just be crappy anyway, so be prepared for the possibility of another ectopic or to just have to go right into IVF.
So I'm still feeling a bit crappy, and trying to decided what we might do. If we should switch insurance plans (pay more a month) and use that for the 1 IVF go they will cover or move to adoption because DH's work will help cover up to $10,000 of that process and basically know we will eventually get a baby. So many things going on in my mind!!!

Sorry that was so long


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dawnstar898

Hi @mara005!  Thank you for the check in.  Big (((hugs))) to you as I know you are facing some tough decisions. 

AFM:  I think at this point I've definitely ovulated but that positive OPK on my chart is probably not accurate.  I didn't get a chance to POAS again to see if the line was getting darker because some family issues arrived that distracted me from that so I just gave FF my best guess just to get CHs.  Either way I think our timing was pretty good, so time to just wait!

QOTW:
Ok, I know this is cheesy, but for some reason during this whole process of TTC this always runs through my head!  Can't help it


Also, edited to say tomorrow is DH's and mine 3rd wedding anniversary!  woo hoo!

mara005

@dawnstar898 I hope you have a wonderful anniversary! Glad you had good timing, and hope this 2ww flies by!

sfazar

Hello lovely August ladies,

@mara005--thank you for the check-in.  Big hug to you--this has been a tough week, I know. I bet you will have more peace once you and your DH have set your heart on a path.  Whichever you choose will be the right one.

@dawnstar898--fingers crossed for this cycle--sounds like things are lined up very nicely!!

I have allowed my heart to lift up a little this weekend.  My husband had both Saturday and Sunday off (rare for a doctor!), and he helped me finish the subway tile backsplash in our kitchen--it looks so pretty!  I picked a hydrangea stem and a bunch of wildflowers from my garden and put them in small vases on my counter.

As for my darling pup, she failed the therapy dog test miserably, but she enjoyed herself!  The test was very unfair--they had a child in a wheelchair offer her a hamburger--as if my "leave it" could prevent her from being airborne.  That was followed by a child in a walker who launched a "French fry bomb" meaning threw French fries at my dog.  How could she resist?

 She is so sweet and good natured, quite calm, too, but this was way too much.  The funniest part was when she saw herself in the full length mirror and started wagging her tail and leaping at it.  She honestly thought she had met another friend.

I had some good news today...as I was heading into a job, the RE called and asked if I could reschedule for August 28th.  I have the day totally free, so of course I said "yes!"  I am grateful for even a couple of weeks cut off of my wait.  Thank you @mara005 for keeping the countdown!  I think, strangely, that I am gearing up to O (or at least get my LH surge). My OPKs are almost dark, and this would be CD 14.  I am  not on Clomid this month, but is it possible that Clomid helps you regulate your cycle after you take it?

As for inspirational quotes, I have found the hymn "My Life Flows on in Endless Song" utterly comforting. I quote my favorite verses here:

My life flows on in endless song,
above earth’s lamentation.
I hear the clear, though far-off hymn
that hails a new creation.

Through all the tumult and the strife,
I hear that music ringing.
It finds an echo in my soul.
How can I keep from singing?

 

 

 

NoeliaV

@sfazar
I love your pup  :x Is that weird? lol What a good spirit she has, and mine would have failed worse with those challenges. Pfft. 

FF has been drunk again. This cycle it tried to put O on CD10, then eventually moved it to CD12, and now it's settled on CD14 which I actually agree with. We had DH's two nephews visiting during my FW so we hit O+1. Whoopie.

I'm sad, and I'm scared to say I'm sad. I'm sad that we're in our 6th cycle after the m/c, and that we're still TTC after loss. I'm sad that we should be exhausted from caring for a new baby (either now or soon-ish) and I'm still at work, still not pregnant, and not at all hopeful that I'll be pregnant soon. I'm sad that my 35th birthday is in November, and I'm not optimistic that I'll be pregnant then, either.

Sorry to be a big ol' wet blanket today. I'm having a lot of feelings. 

QOTW:
How about "Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can." by Arthur Ashe? 

sfazar

@NoeliaV

            Thank you for your kind words about my darling pup.  She brings us a world of joy.  I don't know how I would have gotten through the last 8 months without her!

              I'm sorry that FF has been messing with you. No advice there--I use mostly OPKs but I feel like they work well for me. I have a similar story--have had no success following the MC in 01/14, am going to be 35 too this April, and am feeling increasingly anxious.  This past Saturday my doc called to confirm the CP, and I asked him kind of pitifully "I know you can't predict the future, but do you think there is hope for us still?" And he was *totally* positive. It has made me feel a lot better to have an action plan; I see an RE next week. If you haven't already, you might want to express your concerns to your doc and ask whether there is something you can do now, rather than wait another 6 months.  Hugs! 

NoeliaV

Oh, @sfazar . Thank you for that. I've actually been toying with the idea of calling to talk with one of the nurses. At least if she told me to cool my heels, I would feel better that we're still post-loss and no pregnancy. 

Let's hug it out together.

>:D<