I've been doing okay this week. Really I have. But I just got a text message from one of my best friends who got married in February. She is pregnant. I feel like I've been punched in the stomach. It took everything in me not to start bawling on the train home from work. And of course there are three pregnant women in my train car because why not.
So that's her, girl on my team in my office, girl on my team in a different office, and my best friend. All pregnant at the same time. What the actual Fuck? DH swears we're being tested by the universe and thinks we should become comic book villains...we have enough pain for a good backstory.
So yeah, I really need all your love tits and snark and Internet Hugs right now because I just can't today.
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Me: 31| DH: 36
TTC #1 Since 07/2010
DX: Unexplained Infertility
TX:
IUI #1 on 7/3/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (44 million sperm, 1 dominant follie) = BFN
IUI #2: on 7/28/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (23 million sperm, 2 dominant follies) = BFN
IUI #3 on 8/22/2014 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (53 million sperm, 2 dominant follies)= BFP MMC @ 7weeks
Re: Requesting Creepy Internet Hugs ***pregnancy mentioned, not mine
child briefly mentioned***
I have a friend who got married after us and already has a baby. I feel like she "passed" us in some way since they weren't married as long and got pregnant right away. Anyway, I know how you feel!
Sending you lots of hugs! I hope you can relax tonight with some drinks!
TTC since 08/2012
DX: DOR
2008: HSG (normal), couple rounds of clomid through gyno
2008 - 2010: dragging my feet out of fear and procrastination
October 2010: first consultation with RE, dx PCOS and fibroids (DH slightly low count/motility)
Oct. 2010 - Dec. 2012: In DENIAL! avoided the issue because I was scared of surgery
January 2013: returned to RE, fibroids grew significantly
February 2013: second HSG, fibroids pushed on tubes which blocked them somewhat
March 2013: MRI to determine what type of surgery may be necessary
July 29, 2013: fibroids (5) removed via robotic laparascopy
August 2013 - Nov 2013 : benched due to recent surgery
IUI #3, Feb. 25, 2014 BFN
IUI #4 canceled due to lack of response to letrozole
IUI #4.1 April 28, 2014, BFN
May 16, 2014: wtf consult, start prepping for IVF in June and add injects for one last IUI in the meantime
IUI #5 started letrozole and bravelle but canceled after HSG led to new diagnosis
May 21, 2014: third HSG, tubes blocked, one at the beginning, one hydrosalpinx??
IVF #1 August 8, 2014 - 3dt of 2 embryos, BFN
September 17, 2014 - 4th HSG, the right tube is very patent (open!!) dye went straight through this time. Weird!
October 2, 2014 - started metformin treatment
November 14, 2014 - blood work, brought A1C down from 5.8 to 5.5
November 26, 2014 - RE finally back from vaca and reviewed my chart, no more IVFs for rest of calendar year
December 1, 2014 - Right after Thanksgiving, I called a new clinic and got in right away! Plan for IVF
December 17, 2014 - ER! 29 retrieved (!!), 16 mature, all 16 fertilized (ICSI)
IVF #2 December 20, 2014 - 3dt of 3 embryos, BFN
We are done with treatment unsuccessfully.
Me 33, DH 37 -- TTC since Jan'12 -- Low AMH (0.78) & endo, SA w/ low motility
IUI's 1-3 = BFN, IVF converted to IUI 4/13 = BFN
IVF 1.2: 8R 6M 4F -- 2 blastocysts frozen, FET 8/15 = BFP!!
Beta #s = 445;1,098; 9,545 -- EDD 5/2 -- Team Pink!
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
Edit: forgot a word
Me (29) DH (37)
Married 7/11
Actively TTC 3/12
DX: PCOS
Current treatment: Break from IUIs until after the holidays
-----All Welcome----
~~~January 3T Siggy Challenge: New Year's Resolutions~~~
(I don't do resolutions...so I stole T-Rex's)
****Loss in Sig****
3T Sig Challenge: New Year's Resolutions
"Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less."
March 2014 - HSG left tube blocked, right tube partially blocked bilaterial partial obstruction; onward to the RE in April
May 1, 2014 - Lap surgery and chromopertubation; Dr removed a bit of endo, but everything looks healthy & tubes are clear!
May 2014- First medicated cycle, 2.5mg femara+TI; BFN
June 2014- 2.5mg femara + hCG + IUI on 6/18= BFP on 6/28!; C/P on 7/3
July 2014- 2.5mg femara + IUI #2 on 7/18. Starting progesterone 7/23, bfn
August 2014- 2.5mg femara + hCG + IUI # 3 on 8/15. BFN
Tx break
IVF #1 -
12/1 - TOT & SIS- RE found a polyp
12/15 - Hysterscopic surgery to remove the polyp; additional polyps found and removed
12/29- Good baseline u/s, 12 antral follies
12/30- Started stimming
1/10 - ER: 17 retrieved, 14 fertilized!
My Ovulation Chart - No data, just meds
TTC #1
Me: AMA, DH: MFI
Official DX - MFI due to Hemochromatosis
IVF #1 Nov. 2014 - ER 11/10 (10R 6M 6F) - ET 11/13
3DT of 3 embies - no frosties - CP = BFFN!!!!
****All Welcome****
Me 33, DH 37 -- TTC since Jan'12 -- Low AMH (0.78) & endo, SA w/ low motility
IUI's 1-3 = BFN, IVF converted to IUI 4/13 = BFN
IVF 1.2: 8R 6M 4F -- 2 blastocysts frozen, FET 8/15 = BFP!!
Beta #s = 445;1,098; 9,545 -- EDD 5/2 -- Team Pink!
-----------------------------------SIGGY WARNING-------------------------------------
Me: 31| DH: 36
TTC #1 Since 07/2010
DX: Unexplained Infertility
TX:
IUI #1 on 7/3/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (44 million sperm, 1 dominant follie) = BFN
IUI #2: on 7/28/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (23 million sperm, 2 dominant follies) = BFN
IUI #3 on 8/22/2014 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (53 million sperm, 2 dominant follies)= BFP MMC @ 7weeks
Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).
We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).
Me: 24 DH: 26
Sept 2012 - Married Love of My Life
AO, possible PCOS
TTC for 15 months - Success!!!
Due Date: May 6, 2015
DS induced April 27, 2015 - Hypertension
Thank you again everyone. I am feeling much better today. DH made me meatball subs and let me watch all the Doctor Who I wanted last night so everything is looking better. J
@catlover790 – DH and I have been married for 8 years so it’s really tough to keep getting “lapped” by everyone we know. In just the last 3 years we have been to 5 weddings and 4 of those 5 women are either currently pregnant or have had a baby since. It is maddening.
@BunnyBerry – I imagine I would be some weird Pied Piper type villain. Except instead of just running off with people’s kids (just the cute ones!) I would also take their dogs (all the dogs!) because dogs are awesome and I’d like to have an even child to dog ratio. And I also suppose the villainy would be centered around the taking of the kids. Once I had them we’d like hang out on a child/dog farm all day and make friendship bracelets and watch Disney movies and go to theme parks.
@LindseyM2012 – I totally hear you. FB is a fucking minefield for me right now. I want to take a FB vacation but DH and I use the chat feature while I am at work all day and he is far too stubborn to learn new technology (gchat is not that hard to use fella). See my response to BunnyBerry above for my villain scheme. I will have to really think on it. DH is an artist. Maybe I can get him to draw me a supervillain character to share. J
@rainbowbridge14 – BART was a shit show yesterday. By the time I walked by the last of the line of pregnant women I actually threw my hands up in the air like “WHAT THE SHIT!” But yeah, the traffic in this area is cray so it’s train or nothing.
@sugar4bri – Luckily I haven’t had them all come in on the same day but a couple of weeks ago is when I found out (within the same week) that 3 people were pregnant. Maybe there really is something to things coming in 3’s?
@angelina2404 – YES!!! Perfect super villain power. Love it.
@AlaskaDee23 – LOL, on one of the nomination threads earlier someone nominated you for most supportive and said they loved getting your “Awwww buddy” posts. Now I’ve got mine!
@gsancho – DH and I were walking in the park the other day and we saw a little old Russian lady hand feeding dog biscuits to a couple of raccoons. We died.
-----------------------------------SIGGY WARNING-------------------------------------
Me: 31| DH: 36
TTC #1 Since 07/2010
DX: Unexplained Infertility
TX:
IUI #1 on 7/3/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (44 million sperm, 1 dominant follie) = BFN
IUI #2: on 7/28/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (23 million sperm, 2 dominant follies) = BFN
IUI #3 on 8/22/2014 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (53 million sperm, 2 dominant follies)= BFP MMC @ 7weeks
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole