This weekend I discovered a new post-partum stretch mark (yes, I know, a bit late). It is over my pubic bone. WTH?! Seriously children - have you left no part of my body undamaged?
I am looking forward to being able to sleep in the middle of the bed this week while my H is out of town. I have wicked PMS, so there is a heating pad and body pillow with my name on it!!
"I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I"m still looking up." TTC #1 since August 2011 MFI Diagnosis - April 2012 IVF #1 - July 2012 - Stims start 7/2, ER 7/12, 20 retrieved, 16 mature, 13 fertilized! ET - 7/17 - 1 blast transferred. Beta - 7/26 273, Beta 2 7/30 - 1143. Beta 3 8/6 - 11,597 12/25 - Santa tells us "IT'S A GIRL!" EDD - April 4th
Our Little Easter Bunny has arrived!
Molly Mildred born 03/31/13
TTC A Sibling....... FET #1 11/14/14, Transferred one beautiful blast
Remaining four frosties arrested due to "embryologist error"
Plllllleasssee stick little icicle.....Beta 11/23...BFN
Starting ALL over with a fresh IVF cycle
Stims start 11/28/14, ER December 10th, 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature, only 4 fertilized
1 Blast Transferred on December 15th..... Beta Christmas Eve... Please Santa, bring me a baby!
Beta #1 345.....Beta #2....750/ First U/S 1/13/15/HB 131....EDD 9/2/2015
Not if you cheat I was in NOLA for work last week - between that and the 2 birthday parties and one baby shower over the weekend, I'm paying for it this week.
I woke up this morning feeling like I was going to have the baby before I even left for work. There was a big family gathering at my parents house (aka, death trap) yesterday, and all I did was chase James around to keep him from plunging to his death down the stairs, off the patio steps, get whacked in the head by a pool cue / ball, eat pool chalk, etc. Slept like shit and could not get comfortable and this morning baby just feels so LOW... like if I try to go poop, I"ll have a baby. Ugh. Not sure if I'll make it the next three weeks.
Submitted my FMLA paperwork today so my last day is officially 8/19 -- two glorious weeks prior to my c section (assuming all things go as planned). I am going to finish the nursery, go to Let's Dish and stock the freezer with awesome dinners, get my hair cut and colored, get a massage, get a pedicure, go to the pool at least one day, and go to a couple of movies. Two days, I"m going to keep James home from school and do the zoo and underwater world at MOA.
I had a fight with DH before work this morning and now I feel like I'm going to have an anxiety attack.
We texted more between then and now but he's decided to close the subject (nothing else to say about it) and I just feel like he's sweeping it under the rug instead of dealing with it.
Isn't that why were in the mess we're in?
TTC since May 2006. After 3 failed Clomid cycles, 2 failed Injectibles/IUIs, 2 failed IVFs and 1 failed FET, we moved on to adoption!
Last ditch FET resulted in BFP, and identical twin girls!
I went to see Beyonce for my birthday and I have to admit I am ridiculously infatuated with her, even more now. Also one of my boobs is uberD cup B cup) bigger than the other so I have to wear a chicken cutlet in the right side.
I had a fight with DH before work this morning and now I feel like I'm going to have an anxiety attack.
We texted more between then and now but he's decided to close the subject (nothing else to say about it) and I just feel like he's sweeping it under the rug instead of dealing with it.
DH was not home for dinner so I was just going to pull something out of the freezer. I ended up making mashed potatoes from scratch with sautéed spinach and ikea meatballs (aka horse meat). I guess I pulled something out of the freezer, but I went a little overboard. Then I was mad because I had to clean up the mess (DH usually cleans up after dinner).
Also, MH just bought us a weekend fly fishing tour/class/something at an auction. I am not very outdoorsy, but it should be fun.
J and I went to Target tonight and she dropped the bubbles I was buying her and they spilled all over. I felt so bad for the girl who had to clean them up, I bought the 1/2 spilled bottle. Cleaning up bubbles on that floor sounds like a nightmare.
@Grace0609 - I'm sorry. I hope you have some friends or family who could come help and give you a break. Even just a quiet walk by yourself might help. Sending you hugs!!
@Kate_C Thank you. I am not sure how to get the help I need. I have talked to friends about everything going on, am friends with people from church on FB and have received no offers of help. I know people have their own struggles.
@mrandmrsk91011 Thank you. Yeah, not sure when we would ever talk as he is currently still in bed and I have been up with the kids for the past hour. When the baby cried he shut the door to his bedroom. I kinda hate him right now.
I don't blame you for being annoyed with your H. Ugh. And if you have someone you trust to handle the kids, I'd just ask them if they can come watch them on a specific night. People tend to be obtuse, but usually are helpful if given a specific opportunity to help! Hope the weather is nice for you at least so your little guys can blow off steam outdoors. I hate the days when we're stuck inside and the kids literally just run circles around our tiny house. It gives me twitches.
I agree with above! Sometimes people just need that window of opportunity to help. It sounds like you have a good network, there is no shame in asking for help- again, even if it is just for 30 minutes to collect your thoughts and take a breather. I find that when I'm being pulled in 47 different directions it helps to make check-lists, so I can really prioritize things, and not stress about things that can wait. Maybe it's just a mental exercise, but it seems to de-stress me a bit
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Warner, our early surprise, born March 12, 2013!
Watching You Grow Everyday, Right Before Our Eyes!
Ugh, so sorry Grace :-( I'll be sending some thoughts and prayers your way. If I lived nearby, I would help you out sometimes... you're not in NC, right??? But really... you're so strong and I hope you find the support you need.
Amanda
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Nov siggy challenge: animals eating Thanksgiving food
@Grace0609 I'm so sorry you're having to deal with all of this, on top of being super pregnant. I know I'm late, I just wanted to throw my two cents in there. I hope things get easier for you.
Re: Monday Randoms?
"I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I"m still looking up."
TTC #1 since August 2011 MFI Diagnosis - April 2012
IVF #1 - July 2012 - Stims start 7/2, ER 7/12, 20 retrieved, 16 mature, 13 fertilized!
ET - 7/17 - 1 blast transferred. Beta - 7/26 273, Beta 2 7/30 - 1143. Beta 3 8/6 - 11,597
12/25 - Santa tells us "IT'S A GIRL!" EDD - April 4th
Our Little Easter Bunny has arrived!
Molly Mildred born 03/31/13
TTC A Sibling....... FET #1 11/14/14, Transferred one beautiful blast
Remaining four frosties arrested due to "embryologist error"
Plllllleasssee stick little icicle.....Beta 11/23...BFN
Starting ALL over with a fresh IVF cycle
Stims start 11/28/14, ER December 10th, 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature, only 4 fertilized
1 Blast Transferred on December 15th..... Beta Christmas Eve... Please Santa, bring me a baby!
Beta #1 345.....Beta #2....750/ First U/S 1/13/15/HB 131....EDD 9/2/2015
BFP #2: 11-7-14, CP (BFN: 11-13-14)
BFP #3: 3/24/15 EDD: 12/5/15
I had a fight with DH before work this morning and now I feel like I'm going to have an anxiety attack.
We texted more between then and now but he's decided to close the subject (nothing else to say about it) and I just feel like he's sweeping it under the rug instead of dealing with it.
Isn't that why were in the mess we're in?
TTC since May 2006. After 3 failed Clomid cycles, 2 failed Injectibles/IUIs, 2 failed IVFs and 1 failed FET, we moved on to adoption!
Last ditch FET resulted in BFP, and identical twin girls!
We moved past TMI when knitfaced shoved a size 4 diapers in her pants while grocery shopping. Bwahaha still LOL with that one!
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Nov siggy challenge: animals eating Thanksgiving food
Rhys - born 04.17.2013
Harry - born 04.18.2016