Starting to panic

whiteroses05

So last night I had the worst dream ever! I think it's do to the anxiety I have been feeling lately. As many of you know my dh and I lost our first little one to bladder obstruction and low fluid at 21 weeks. Well that was my dream last night was reliving it but with this little one. I am 26w and 5 days today and I just can't wrap my head around that things are probably ok. I have conveniced myself that Riley has slowed down his movements. Also made the mistake of weighing myself this morning to which I weighed 2-4 lbs lighter. I don't know if part of this is due to the fact I am starting to see the end of 2nd trimester, which is something I didn't think I would see, or the fact of all the talk about showers and baby thing things in my house. I also have my glucose test Thursday. I just really want to see my little boy make it to my arms
healthy. Thank you ladies for listening!

JessicaG220

Oh hun, I feel exactly the same way.  Now that I have passed my loss milestone, I thought I would relax a bit and enjoy the rest of my pregnancy.  But I feel like I've convinced myself that I'm doomed and it's only a matter of time until we lose this baby, too.  It's SO freaking hard.  You are in my thoughts and I hope you find ways to cope and make it to 40 weeks!

rox825

I'm sorry that you're still feeling a lot of anxiety.  I thought that I would calm down once I made it past my A/S, and I'm definitely significantly better than I was leading up to it, but I still find new things to worry about everyday.  Preterm labor, cord accident, a whole mess of other issues that I shouldn't be thinking about.  I hope that you can find positives to focus on for the last trimester!

dianeg1017

Sorry to hear you are feeling so nervous. If you anatomy scan was good just breath and stay positive. After passing my loss milestone I did feel a little better after the scan a little better than that. Still with every kick and movement I get the biggest smile and think to myself as if I were a little kid "again again!" Lol. Stay positive at this point that is the most us momma's can do.

peggels24

((hugs)) I'm sorry that you are experiencing such anxiety.  However, congrats on making it so far!!!!  Everything is going to be great!

Bigboneded

((((Big Hugs)))) did u call your OB, mine is willing to set my mind at ease. He offered dopplers and when he couldnt differentiate 2hb's he offered a viability scan.... maybe they could just check you for peace of mind ?

doglover31

(((hugs))) sorry you are going through that. I hope the anxiety eases soon!

luciddreamer106

I'm sorry that you're feeling so anxious. ((Hugs)) congrats on making it this far! Try to repeat the mantras to stay calm. Remember that this pregnancy is not your last pregnancy.

lindsayanne14

So sorry you are feeling like this! I think it's a feeling most PGALers can relate to!  Dreams can really mess with you, it's crazy how real they can seem and how much they involve real fears in our lives.  Hang in there and trust that everything is ok!

whiteroses05

aragosta said:

I'm really sorry. ((Hugs))

One thing I try and tell myself when I have nightmares is that clearly they don't predict the future because otherwise I would fly and be on reality TV I know it's silly but just trying to help!

Thank you for this it really made me laugh! Lol You are right though and I am trying to remind myself the same thing. These dreams are just so vivid and it's hard to shake or remember they were just a dream.

whiteroses05

Thank you ladies! Riley has been trying to reassure me by moving his little body around and kicking like crazy.
I do have a Doppler at home that I used this morning and got a strong heartbeat. So that's a plus right?!?
Also my appointment is Thursday for my glucose test. If I can just get to that appointment over with I think I will be fine. Just one day at a time right?!?

chicagojackie

Hang in there. The anxiety is hard to deal with. One minute, one hour, one day at a time
HUGS!!!

haleyusf

((hugs)) One day at a time

asglover514

You are allowed to freak out. PgAL is hard and as PP said, just take it one day at a time.