PgAL check in 8/8

ikrystal

Good Morning ladies and happy Friday!

I hope everyone has been doing well this week!  Every week that passes is a wonderful milestone. Feel free to post any questions you may have.

How far along are you?

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

ikrystal

How far along are you? 10 weeks

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? Will probably see my OB next week for symptoms of another infection.  Seriously, this will be the THIRD one in 10 weeks. I can't calm myself down, especially after losing the twins to an infection. 

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? I can eat dairy again!  So no aversions, but I am still a bit nauseous. 

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety? Besides calling my nurses every other day.... nope.  I've tried to do things to help myself stay calm (comedy movies, mani/pedis, etc.) but nothing really works.  I'm constantly getting phone calls that I need to be put on another antibiotic so I guess that is not helping. 

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I was starting to think everything would be okay (ish), but then I got a call that I had a bladder infection and right after that I started showing symptoms for BV again.  I know these are common during pregnancy, but still... enough with the infections already.  I just want to protect this baby from everything. 

luckyclover0922

Do you mind if I join you ladies? I just found out I was pregnant two days ago

I have introduced here in March but to refresh you ladies... I have been pregnant twice but have yet to have a take home child. My first little peanut I miscarried at 8.5 weeks (a little over a year ago) and my son I lost at 28 weeks (this past March). My son Christopher was diagnosed at 22 weeks with bilateral renal agenesis (which means no kidneys - he also did not have ureters or a bladder) and subsequently died due to not having any amniotic fluid to develop his lungs. I really hope this is my rainbow.... not sure if I can handle losing another child. 

How far along are you? 3 weeks 4 days

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? I go in today for a beta and progesterone level and then I should be seeing my MFM and OB in the next 2 weeks.

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? No symptoms or cravings at all yet (which was why I was very surprised to get a positive).. minus a little bit of gas and pinching on/off in my uterus.

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety? So far nothing... not sure how I am going to be with this pregnancy. Biggest worry I have is that I will not want to bond with the baby until after the anatomy ULT and I know they are healthy.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? How many times do I really want to POAS??!?!

@ikrystal - fingers crossed that there is no more infection Sorry to hear that you have been going through this for quite sometime now.

ikrystal

luckyclover0922 Congratulations!  I know this must be so overwhelming after your losses, but we are all here to support you so please feel free to vent as needed.  Also, I pee on four sticks in two days and I think that is just part of the excitement/disbelief.  PEE ON EVERYTHING! It is normal to distance yourself from a pregnancy, and I know I do it all the time.  We can't help it.  FX that this baby is healthy.  Good luck at your upcoming OB and MFM appointments.

shandorfml2

hi ladies, mind if I join?
:-h so happy to be on this check in now!

How far along are you?  3weeks 6 days lol

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? I will be seeing the nurse at my OB for my initially intake on Sept 18th and my OB on Sept 25th ..long wait...

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Just a little tingle in my nipples on occasion. The LACK of symptoms was actually a cue to me that I might be KU

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety? I bought the book "Pregnancy After Loss" which has been helpful (they have different sections, pre-pregnancy then divided by trimesters). Any other helpful books out there? I am continuing therapy. I actually had therapy yesterday after getting my BFP which was helpful because I was a basketcase!

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  holy crap I'm KTFU!!

VyD81

@shandorfml2, congrats, so happy you're joining PgAL.

luckyclover0922, congrats.

jess123456

Huge congrats to the new BFP's!!!!!


How far along? 26 weeks 5 days

Appointments/milestones: Passed my glucose test this week! Entering third trimester on Sunday!

Symptoms: Movement is getting more frequent which is so amazing. Feeling the heaviness in my body and have sciatic pain but I'll take it.

QOTW: I've been keeping busy which helps keep my mind off the pregnancy all the time. I also have been taking hour long walks in the woods with my dog this summer which has been so peaceful and helpful.

Open topic: Our crib arrived today and it's all becoming more and more real. Obviously I know there are no guarantees but it's so fun to actually participate in normal pregnancy stuff for once. I just want November to get here soon.

stefuge

@luckyclover0922‌ - congratulations!

@shandorfml2‌ - congratulations!

ikrystal

aragosta so glad that the ultrasound went well.  I've been thinking about seeing a counselor as well so it helps to hear that others who are going like it.  **hugs** to you as you approach your little boy's birthday.  I know the milestones and anniversaries are just the worst.  I'm not sure if there is a "right" thing to do and I wish I had advice for you, but I hate giving advice when I haven't been in the same situation just yet (Conner and Ben's birthday won't be until January).  Just know I'll be thinking of you when the day comes!

shandorfml2 Congratulations!  So happy to see you over here. I'm going to be starting to read more books about PgAL and I will let you know if I find anything good.  Wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months!

jess123456 almost third trimester - what a wonderful milestone!  How wonderful! Novemeber will be here before you know it. The walks I take with my dog help me everyday as well - it gives me some quiet time to think. 

stefuge

@aragosta‌ - I personally don't think there is a "right" way to honor or celebrate our baby's birthdays. I think you have to do what is "right" for you. Colton's is in a couple weeks and I decided I wanted to have a birthday party, with bright happy colors and decorations and cupcakes. I figure I won't get to throw him any of the parties I would have had he lived, and that I wanted at least this one party. So we have invited pretty much anyone and everyone and have told everyone we don't want it to be a somber affair, but to be happy. Colton's death makes me sad, but his birth is still worth celebrating. For us this feels right, and you guys just need to figure out what that is for you.

jonahsma

Congrats to the preggos! it makes my heart happy to see you all here!

@ikrystal, Hope this is the last of those infections, Im sorry you have to deal with those.

@aragosta, Im sorry you're dealing with anxiety, it is so hard being PGAL.

How far along are you? 33 Weeks 3 days. 5 weeks 4 days to go! (even though I think it may be sooner)

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? Nst Mon, appt with OB Tues. N st Thurs or Fri. I will start weekly appointments with Ob the following week.

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? A LOT  of Braxton Hicks especially when walking. I am so so tired. My bp has been a little higher than usual. No new cravings or aversions. 

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety?

I Pray when I start to feel anxious. It seems that the closer I get to meeting our little one the more afraid I become. I am so paranoid Im so afraid something will happen between now and then. 

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I just want everything to be ok. I want the baby to be okay, I want to be okay mentally and physically. I am afraid that once the baby is here I will have a breakdown. I have been focusing so much on her that I kind of put my grief on hold, I haven't let myself cry as much and when I feel it coming on I try to occupy myself so that I don't become a mess. If that makes any sense.

ikrystal

jonahsma I hope all your upcoming doctor appointments go well!  I'm so sorry you are feeling so anxious/paranoid.  I'm nowhere near as close to term as you are, but I am scared that I will breakdown as well once my baby is here (if my baby gets here).  I'm glad you are praying, and I know that it must be a comfort to know that God is listening.  FX for a healthy rest of the pregnancy and a safe and healthy delivery!  

Mel&John2013

How far along are you? 6 weeks tomorrow

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? Not for over two weeks, the wait is giving me so much anxiety. I've been having some occasional external vaginal itching though, so I might see if I can go in early. It hasn't been as bad as a yeast infection or anything, but strange and I'd rather be safe than sorry.

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Just a little bit of nausea still, and moodiness. My moods were extremely mellow during my whole pregnancy with Lincoln, which was wonderful. Hopefully this moodiness doesn't last this whole pregnancy, poor husband will go crazy

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety? No, but I should. Just been focusing on work, which is at least keeping me a little distracted.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I had some anxiety yesterday, I suddenly panicked and thought that I didn't want another baby. I was overwhelmed with the feeling that if Lincoln can't be here then I don't want any baby. But then I looked through his scrapbook and sat in his room and cried and cried, which was hard but calmed me down. Once I was calm I remembered that I love this baby. And I'll love him/her even more once they're (hopefully) born.

ikrystal

Mel&John2013 I really hope that you dont have an infection!  But you are right, better safe than sorry.  I hope they take you early, at least seeing them sooner would make you feel better.  I know it must be so hard to not have Lincoln with you.  My aunt, who lost one of her babies, talked to me when I told her I didn't want to have any other babies.  She told me that I needed to look at it in a way that didn't take away my love for my boys, but rather that having another baby would help me to love more (and quite possibly even love my boys more).  Your love for Lincoln will always be there and in a way, you will always have him.  

dadalou

I got a BFP today!

How far along are you? 3 weeks 5 days

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? None yet. I'll have to call the OB office on Monday.

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? I have felt sick every day for two weeks. I also don't feel like eating anything. It was the same way when I was pregnant with Nathaniel last year. No cravings or aversions yet though.

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety? Nothing yet.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I knew I was pregnant! All the symptoms that I was having couldn't have all been in my head. I'm glad I have confirmation now. Maybe I'll sleep better. I've been having trouble sleeping for at least a week. 

ikrystal

dadalou  Congratulations!  So happy to see you hear in the check in.  Go celebrate and good luck at your first OB appointment!

stefuge

@dadalou‌ - congratulations!

VyD81

@dadalou, congrats!

stefuge

@chickinNH‌ - I wanted to say congratulations again! And don't feel bad about having taken a break from the board - it can be really tough and heavy on here at times and we get that. Many of us have taken a break from time to time and that is okay. So many T&Ps for a healthy and happy pregnancy and a beautiful take home baby.

Bgirma

@chickinNH‌- congratulations. I'm sure PgAL is anxiety ridden but I can imagine finding out this news the same week as your due date is bringing a lot of complicated feelings. I'll be thinking about you, Petey and this LO and sending good vibes for a happy and healthy 9 months!

erinel

Congratulations to all of the new PgAL mamas!  It's so great to see you here!

How far along are you? 10w5d

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?  Had a regular appointment this morning, and we got to hear the heartbeat!  It was strong and fast at about 170, and definitely made me feel a little better.

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? I wouldn't really say cravings, but I've been preferring lighter foods, especially salads and light soups.  I have found that when I eat I tend to feel nauseous afterwards, so lighter things are better.

QOTW: Have you been doing anything during this pregnancy to help calm your anxiety? Not really, but maybe I should.  I have been pretty convinced that something is wrong, even though there is nothing to indicate that is the case, so I think I need to be more positive.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  We will be sharing our news soon, and I've been trying to think of ways to include our son.  I saw something that I think I like to the effect of "One in heaven, and one on the way" with a pic of us with the ultrasound, but I'm not too sure.  Thoughts?

shandorfml2

Yay! @dadalou‌ !!!!

Mel&John2013

@iKrystal, thank you. I do need to remember that this baby won't take away from my love for Lincoln. It's hard sometimes, but hopefully I'll get there. And I'm sorry for all your infections, how frustrating! But I'm glad they're catching them early.

And congrats to the new posters!

ikrystal

chickinNH SO HAPPY to see you here!  I've already told you congratulations but I think it needs to be said again: CONGRATS! Hugs and prayers to you this week as you approach Petey's EDD.  Don't feel bad about taking a bump break.  Most people have done it (I've done it as well, sticking only to this board every once in awhile), and it is necessary to step back every once in awhile.  You need to do what is best for you. 

erinel I think it is normal to think that something is wrong or is going to go wrong.  But we are all here for you and FX that this pregnancy is non-eventful (in a good way).  I think including your angel in your pregnancy announcement is perfect.  We are doing that as well, as I know this baby would not be here now without Conner and Ben.  It is a great way to include all of your children in such an important announcement.