I should be excited..... But I'm not

O2girl

So I saw my RE today for my second (and apparently last) depot Lupron injection. He gave me a tentitive FET date.... October 3rd. I wish I could say I'm excited about this, but I'm terrified. The RE also said that he wants to do some sort of lining biopsy to make the embryo more likely to implant successfully.... Sadly I just feel like this is all a waste of time and energy.

Someone talk me off this ledge please!!

arschm02

I wish I knew more about Lupron and FET, but I'm so sorry you're feeling so discouraged. It's such a helpless feeling. Hugs to you.

jbasore1123

Lots of (((hugs))). This process is so hard and it's difficult to stay positive, but you never know what could happen. I had an endometrial biopsy ("scrape") before my FET as well.

rslh10

Step back from the ledge! This is truly what you want for your life, right? It's a very long and hard road, but were ALL here walking with you! You can get through this I hope your funk goes away soon so you can start getting prepared and excited for what the future holds big giant squishy hugs, Beauty!!!

skategirl128

I have no advice. Big hugs though! It sounds stressful but we are here for you

O2girl

arschm02 said:

I wish I knew more about Lupron and FET, but I'm so sorry you're feeling so discouraged. It's such a helpless feeling. Hugs to you.

Thank you.
An FET is a frozen embryo transfer and the Lupron is a nasty drug they have me on to treat my adenomyosis so that I can hopefully stay pregnant..... Hopefully that makes some sort of sense
I appreciate the hugs

O2girl

Thanks ladies!

This whole process just sucks. It sucks for everyone here because our joy has been tainted. I'm just scared of hurting all over again and of all the worry that comes before the hurt.

Thank you for the support and hugs!

katib77

I have a lot of faith in FETs with a lot of my IF friends finding success that way. The most recent three all had the lining scratch done too! You have time to get excited, but after all we've been through I totally get how it's hard. Maybe as time draws closer.

buggirl72

((((Hugs)))).  You trust your RE and he believes this can work for you.  I'll stay excited for you as you finish up with the Lupron (yay!!!!) and move to a FET date.

TVLily

First of all yay to almost being done Lupron and a tentative FET date!!!

Sending you so many ((hugs)) Hun. Keeping you in my thoughts.

MSU_Girl1202

I'm so sorry you're feeling discouraged...it's a terrible feeling that I think we all know too well. I think that's the great thing about this place...we're here to have hope even when you don't. I know the thought of another disappointment, whether it's a failed cycle or a MC is terrifying, but how exciting is it that this FET could turn into your rainbow? Hang I'm there lady! ((Hugs))

merc5411

I don't have any advice but I'm sending good thoughts.  Congratulations on your last shot of Lupron and good luck with the FET.  Hugs!

natalie115

No advice, but I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I know it's so much harder to get excited b/c of what we've all been through. (((Hugs)))

Feegan

No advice, just big hugs.

ETA: Sorry about my avatar, it won't reset back to my fox despite showing up fine on my account. I'll refrain from posting again until it resolves. Hopefully the generic doesn't upset anyone.

O2girl

RedheadRunning said:

No advice, just big hugs.

ETA: Sorry about my avatar, it won't reset back to my fox despite showing up fine on my account. I'll refrain from posting again until it resolves. Hopefully the generic doesn't upset anyone.

My avatar did that before.... What a pain in the butt TB's glitches can be!

stinybean

I don't have any advice for you, but I want to offer you my support. I know it's hard to do what we do because we want a rainbow baby. You can do it! You can get through this! A last shot is a good thing! And a FET date is encouraging. FX and many, many (((HUGS)))

eliida

(((hugs)))

jjbmstinco

I just wanted to send you ((hugs)).

Buttercup509

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Big squishy hugs!

MBJune

Just want to send you some huge ((((hugs)))) I have no advice except that there are no right or wrong feelings when dealing with IF and loss. I hope by the time the FET comes around you are feeling more confident with the plan.

mrandmrsv

Lots of hugs for you and positive energy. I don't have any advice as I don't know much about Lupron or FET but wanted to offer my support. xo

LuvLoveXo

(((Tons of hugs))). I'd give anything to eliminate the pain of loss & TTC.

Frenchteachermama

We are here for you hon. It's so hard to stay positive knowing how hurt we will be if it doesn't work out. I've spent months being negative and months being positive and I can say the times when I'm positive feel better for my soul. Sending you big squishy hugs.

LizBlue

I hear you o2girl. I'm finding it hard to be excited this FET cycle. It's a combination of being jaded but also wanting to protect your heart. As others have said to me, I'll hold on to hope for you. There is a good chance this can work and I will continue to root for you and be excited for you, even when you can't be.

And lupron just freaking sucks- I'm a week into my lupron headache/fog and it just makes everything worse. Hang in there lady! ((Hugs))

BookishMomma

There are so many ups & downs on this road. Sending strength and hope...

rmpar29

I'm sorry that you aren't feeling excited.  I have no experience, or advice, but I'm sending you ((((HUGS)))

O2girl

Thank you ladies for all the support and encouragement. Also, thank you for being excited for me when I can't seem to muster the excitement for myself. I wouldn't know what to do without this community..... You ladies are simply AMAZING! Xo

alm288

Sending you lots of (((hugs))) and positive energy! I wish I had more to offer.

Lesliem0901

Thinking of you and sending positive vibes...You got this, lady. ((Hugs))

CheesyPeas

I'm sorry you're feeling scared and discouraged and just want to offer you ((hugs)). 

KS0510

While I have not been in your shoes, I know what it's like to feel...well, less than thrilled. I think it's a way for our minds to protect us until we feel safe about being excited. *hugs* Here's to hoping!

O2girl

@jbasore1123‌ and @katib77‌
I have been doing some reading today about the endometrial biopsy for implantation..... It sounds like it may be a good move for my situation..... So FX!!