~*~June Check-In~*~

jbasore1123

Happy Tuesday ladies! Hope you are all doing well this week!

This is a weekly check-in for women who have suffered the loss of an angel with an EDD in June, no matter what the year.  You are welcome to join us, just post an intro including your EDD and the information below:

Where are you in your TTCAL journey/cycle, etc? Any updates/appointments you'd like to share?

Good luck to all of you!! If you leave for PGAL, please send me a PM so we can all congratulate you. If you are taking a bump break, please do the same!

BFP below. Please skip if you are having a difficult day.

 

 

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QOTW: If you could live anywhere, and you weren’t allowed to leave that place (even for vacation), where would you live?

 

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BFP Warning:

Congrats to @BackstreetPixie (6/17/2014) on your BFP! FX for your next blood draw. I certainly hope this is your rainbow.

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June Bugs:

@MrsG80inTN 6/4/2014- How is the 2WW going? Looks like you finally had a temp shift on Wednesday. When do you plan on testing?

@luckyclover0922 6/8/2014- How is the 2WW going? I’m sorry to see the negative test, but remember, it was very early. You still have lots of time! And hopefully your negative doctor is wrong!

@kittymeowbark 6/21/2014- How was your vacation??

@newfmom7 6/27/2014- I haven’t heard from you- are you still in the 2WW or has AF showed? And when is your husband’s medical exam for the army?

@towncargirl 6/27/2014- We missed you last week, give us an update! How did the weddings go for your friends?

@sunflwra 6/5/2014 loss date- We missed you last week, give us an update! How did the blood work go yesterday?

 

If your name is missing from above, please let me know and post an update. Some are not included as we have not heard from you in many weeks.

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luckyclover0922

So my TWW is going OK. Seems like it gets a little easier each one that I have...only have one pissy day when aunt flow comes now! I hope this is it though - I really hope the Clomid work and my lining tripled!!! Temp had a little dip yesterday but went back up today so fingers crossed - maybe it was an implantation dip (this is the day I had it with Christopher). I haven't felt any symptoms at all (which I know don't necessarily happen for a few more weeks) but keep praying to "feel" something that will make me not be so negative. It is really hard to get my hopes up anymore

@BackstreetPixie- Congrats to you and I hope you have a H&H 9 months!! I hope to join you soon

@jbasore1123 - Fingers crossed for you this cycle!!!  How is your TWW going?

towncargirl

Hey! Sorry crazy busy with a remodel at work. All the weddings went good thankfully the hubs stepped in all the time and answered everyone when they asked when we were going to "pop out a baby or finally give the I law grand kids". So far af was due 4 days ago. I tested negative two days ago and am just playing the waiting game right now. Fingers crossed for everyone!

rmpar29

@jbasore1123 - Hey sweetie, can I be added back in?  EDD: 6/26/2013  Right now, I'm TTA for a couple months, following my OB's instructions.  I'm just working on exercising, eating better and getting to a better place.  How are you love?

Re-intro - I've been gone a few months, so here's my intro for the newer members of this check-in.  I have PCOS and Endo and have lost two pregnancies.  One due to T21 and the other was just rotten luck.  I wish to offer my support while I'm sitting on the bench.  Many (((((HUGS))))) ladies!

kittymeowbark

Good Morning Ladies!! @jbasore1123 -- thank you for the check-in. How are you doing?

AFM...My vacation was AMAZING!! I am already planning on going back hopefully soon. Loved every part of it and wish I could have stayed longer.
Now I am back to reality. Since I have come back, I have been feeling a bit down. I keep seeing more and more babies, sonograms, and pregnancies all around me. Not to mention September will be 1 year from when we conceived our little girl and here I am still TTC and empty handed. I have yet to meet my H best friends daughter who had the same EDD as me. I am hoping this is our month, but I have been saying that from the beginning and every month that passes my confidence is shattered.  I had a long discussion with my best friend to do this. who has a 2yr old about how I need to “move on” and “relax”.  Maybe she is right but I have no clue how  to do this.

 

Is there anything that helped you ladies relax? Or are we all in the same boat and others just don’t understand the frustration?

@towncargirl -- FX for you! 

@lucckyclover0922 -- Keeping my FX. When are you testing? 

@rmpar29 -- Welcome and I am sorry for your losses.

@BackstreetPixie- Congrats!! H&H 9 months!!

MrsG80inTN

@jbasore1123 – how are you girl?  I hope well!

@luckclover0922 – Definitely still early – FX for you!!!!

@towncargirl – when are you planning to test again?  How many DPO?

@rmpar29 – I really hate that you’re back here, but think you’re awesome for giving support.

@kittmeowbark – So glad you had a great vacay!!!!  I workout to relax.  I’ve recently added PiYo DVDs which are a combo of pilates and yoga and I love it.  It works for me.  That or catching up on a good show like Covert Affairs or reading a good book.

 

AFM: @MrsG80inTN 6/4/2014- How is the 2WW going? Looks like you finally had a temp shift on Wednesday. When do you plan on testing?

Who knows what my temps are doing.  I had to travel last week for work to Arizona and things have been a little off kilter since then… I’m hoping the temp shift doesn’t mean I O’d on Wednesday because then we would have missed the best part of our window… I just don’t know what to expect with a trigger shot.  I asked my doc if I should come in for blood tests to see if I O’d but they said no, the trigger was enough to guarantee that… so, I wait.  I didn’t test out the trigger so I’m on Day 10 now and won’t test till probably CD12 or 13… though the doc said CD14… My boobs seem a little sore which happens before AF too so who knows what that is for sure – it could be that I did too many pushups during my workout yesterday too.  Oh, did I mention my inlaws are in town again for a few days… EEK

luckyclover0922

@MrsG80inTN - My doctor always tells me not to rely on my temps.... Hopefully you O'd a little earlier than Wednesday! My RE says that you ovulate within 48 hours of the shot so what day did you trigger?  Fingers crossed for you too

@kittymeowbark - ((Hugs)) to you that you are reaching the time when you last conceived your little one And I am glad you had a wonderful vacation!!!  Time away to take your mind off of things  As for you "moving on" - you will never truly get over the loss of your little girl. I am almost 5 months out and I still think of Christopher daily. The pain gets better a little at a time but I still get my hopes and dreams shattered every month when I get a negative  People who have not been in our shoes just don't understand the heart ache... and I hope they never do. I have tested at 7dpo and 8dpo and so far negatives   I hope this is our month... but I really try not to get my hopes up anymore.

@rmpar29 - Sorry for your recent loss and welcome back to the board. ((Hugs)) to you.

MrsG80inTN

luckyclover0922 - I triggered on CD17 so it was 10 days ago... 

luckyclover0922

@MrsG80inTN- Then you should have definitely "O'd" before Wednesday Looks like it would have been Monday at the latest so you would have timed BD'ing perfectly

MrsG80inTN

luckyclover0922 - that's what I'm hoping... the temp crap leaves me bewildered though - lol

kittymeowbark

@MrsG80inTN  -- Thank you. Those are great ideas to relax. Do you have a book you recommend?


@luckyclover0922  -  I am keeping my FX that this is your month!!  I agree with you that as time goes on, It gets a bit easier to go about your day. I too think of my baby daily. I was trying to explain to her that I am able to move on, but still think about her. I hope she does not understand the hurt and pain of losing a much wanted child. We agreed to disagree like much of our conversations. @-)

jbasore1123

@Luckyclover0922- I know how you feel. I am waiting for symptoms or signs of pregnancy and it's only making me feel more hopeless about the transfer. Hang in there.
@Towncargirl- Sorry to hear about the BFN but I'm glad your DH was able to intercede with all the questions at the weddings. Those are always hard to take.
@rmpar29- Of course. I'm glad to her you and YH are deciding to try again. You both so deserve your rainbow!
@kittymeowbark- I'm glad to hear your vacation went so well. As for your friend, I think she needs to be more sensitive. Telling you to "move on", she has clearly never lost a child and I don't wish that on anyone. It will get easier, but you will likely never "move on" from your daughter. But you do need to find some peace. And that takes time.
@MrsG80inTN- My fingers are crossed for you. And you may have O'd on Sun or Mon and it just took a few days for a temp rise.

jbasore1123

Hi ladies,
I'm 5 days past my transfer on Thursday and I'm starting to think it didn't work. I hate that feeling. I'm not sure why I have it, I guess I'm just preparing myself. I have had cramping every day, especially yesterday and Sunday, but I honestly think it was because I was so constipated from the PIO shots. If I am honest with myself, I think the cramping was more around the ovary area rather than uterus. No implantation spotting, which disappoints me as well. My beta isn't until the 13th. I really want to wait until then to test but we'll see.

newfmom7

I'm CD1
No idea when DH will get the call for his medical. Canadian Forces is really competitive and they like to mess with your head. It sucks.
@BackstreetPixie‌ congrats again on BFP!
@luckyclover0922‌ @jbasore1123‌ @towncargirl‌ @MrsG80inTN‌ FX for at least another BFP for next week's check-in.
Welcome back @rmpar29‌, sorry for your loss.
QOTW: Probably Italy. I think the weather and food would be perfect. Haven't been there though, so I don't know for sure.

luckyclover0922

@jbasore1123 - Hang in there... I know its hard when you arent feeling any symptoms. I think it must be our coping mechanism to expect the worst because that is all we have experienced lately. I will keep you in my T&P! Fingers crossed...

@newfmom7 - sorry for your CD1 ((Hugs))

jbasore1123

@newfmom7- I'm so sorry for CD1. AF is a bitch.

MrsG80inTN

@jbasore1123 - FX for you... @Snegde felt cramping too so reach out to her - I'm sure she'll give you all the info and support you could ever want :-) 

@newfmom7 - sorry about CD1.  I wish I understood our bodies.

jbasore1123

@MrsG80inTN- We've been talking a lot   And I would love cramping... cramping is good. I just know mine is not the right type of cramping

MrsG80inTN

@jbasore1123 - Ugh... Well, I'm hoping your body surprises you!

rmpar29

@luckyclover0922 - FX for you!
@towncargirl - Have you retested?
@kittymeowbark - "move on" and "relax"...I think both of those and so very hard to do.  I don't think you ever "move on" like it never happened, you just get used to a new normal.  To relax, do you have any hobbies you like?  I exercise and try to spend some time each day just looking at the sky and noticing the beauty of life.  Even just a couple minutes helps. 
@MrsG80inTN - I never tested out my trigger either.  I have everything crossed for you girl and I think that you are guaranteed to O in 24-36 hours after a trigger.  I don't think it could possibly hold off until Wed. 
@jbasore1123 - I'm hoping and praying that this worked for you.  You've been through so much and I can only imagine how you are feeling right now.  My thoughts are with you and I hope that you get great news next week! 
@newfmom7 - So sorry for CD1....(((((HUGS))))).

AFM:  I'm just sitting around waiting for my HCG to get <5.  I had a blood draw on 7/18 that was 6.15 and another on 7/28 that was 6.8.  The NP advised me to come in for a urine test next week, but that just doesn't seem adequate to me.  I'm waiting to hear back from the doc, but I'm hoping that CD1 means it's <5.  We will be TTA for a couple cycles and I'm on BC.  I think the break will be good for me though. 

towncargirl

Retested again this morning with another BFN at 5 days late..I'm thinking that since this is the first month back to no clomid or progesterone that maybe that's what is delaying me? I just want a damn answer.. I'd rather get af then a BFN I think its easier to handle. I've spent the last two days in a sad depressed funk for some reason, I just cant put my finger on what set me off.

jbasore1123

@towncargirl- I'm so sorry. I hope AF shows soon