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Bad 'anniversaries' (losses mentioned)

edited August 2014 in Secondary IF
This was supposed to be an exciting week. DH and I will celebrate 9 years of marriage on Wednesday and we were supposed to find out the sex of our baby this week. I remember when we found out we were pregnant, I did the math and I was SO excited that we would find out boy or girl the same week as our anniversary...stupid me. Grief is funny...you can be ok one minute and then an emotional landmine explodes...like remembering date of what SHOULD have been happening. 

August 27th will be a year since we lost the second baby. Missing my angels terribly. 
DD 6/17/08, DD 6/9/10, DD 12/15/11
BFP 5/24/13 - Natural MC 6/7/13
BFP 8/13/13 - Natural MC 8/27/13
Ovarian Mass = removal of left ovary & tube 9/13
BFP 4/24/14 - Tubal Pregnancy 5/7/14
Removal of  ruptured right tube 5/8/14
IVF or adoption??

Re: Bad 'anniversaries' (losses mentioned)

  • I'm so sorry honey. Big hugs.
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  • ((Hugs)) I hear you.

    I just passed the EDD of my first loss last week, and it sucked so bad not to be any closer to having a sibling for DS... and instead to be several steps behind, given the fact that I'm currently benched.
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    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • ((Hugs)) It is never easy to think about the what-might-have-beens.  Stay strong and good luck with the next step. 
    Me: 35 DH: 35 - Married 10 years
    PCOS and MF

    Two failed rounds IUI in 2010
    IVF #1 in 2011 - BFP 8/5/11 - Our IVF miracle was born 4/8/12
    FET 9/23/13; BFP -Twins-10/3/13; EDD 6/10/14; MC 11/1/13; D&C 11/4/13
    FET 3/28/14; BFN - 4/7/14
    IVF #2 - Transfer 2 embryos 11/14/14; BFP 11/24/14 - Beta 265;
    11/26/14 - Beta 612; 11/28/14 - Beta 1263; 12/1/14 - Beta 3571;
    12/3/14 - first u/s - two gestational sacs; 12/17/14 - two healthy heartbeats (132 and 134)
    Our IVF miracles were born 7/16/15

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  • Hugs to you!! Sorry you are going through this. I know what you mean. I keep thinking of what should have been. My niece was born on what should have been our DS's first birthday. So, we were at their house celebrating her 1st birthday and it brought back a lot of memories and thoughts and the fact that I never thought I'd be this far out from that and still not have a sibling. We hadn't had any trouble getting pregnant before... And no explanation now for why we aren't pregnant now.
    Married to the Love of My Life since September 14, 2002. 
    Me: 39 DH: 36
    BFP#1: 10/20/08,  EDD: 6/29/09
    PIH, bedrest for 4 wks, delivered at 39 weeks by induction and then c-section- Healthy baby boy on 6/24/09 :-)

    BFP#2: 11/24/11, EDD: 8/4/12, Angel Baby- 2/19/12
    Enlarged bladder seen on U/S at 12 weeks (1/15/12), possibly LUTO or Prune Belly, Heartbeat at OB on 2/17/12,
    No heartbeat/movement at U/S on 2/20/12, (missed MC), D&E:2/22/12.  Miscarried our sweet angel boy @ 16 wks

    TTCAL since June 2012, 
    Progesterone normal, FSH elevated & AMH on the low side--  "ovaries acting older"
    Clomid cycles: 50 mg in February, July, August, September, November 2013, June 2014--  BFNs!!  :-(
    August & September 2014: Clomid, HCG and IUI-- BFNs
    September 2014: FSH= 15.7 AMH= 0.25  UGH!!!  Old lady Ovaries!!!
    October & November 2014: Gonadatropin injections, HCG & IUI... BFNs!!

    We have been blessed with a sweet little boy.  
    Hoping to be able to give him a sibling someday.
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