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Regan1976

I didn't really get to do this when I first posted, as I was in a panic and needing support, but I will make up for this now. 

Me: 38. Diagnosed PCOs 09, took 'em long enough. Low Thyroid 13.

SO: 41. Diabetic.

We are not married yet in the legal sense. 

Together since Feb 09. TTC since Jan 11.

6 Clomid cycles. Mostly BFN one BFP but chemical Aug 12.

IUI #1 Menopur and Ovidrel Nov-Dec 13 BFN. 

IUI #2 Menopur and Ovidrel Feb-Mar 14 BFN. 

IUI #3 Menopur and Ovidrel Mar-Apr 14 BFN. 

May 14 had the you're too tubby meeting. 

Lost 10 lbs. to start again. Still losing - 15 lbs now, 13 more and IVF possible.

IUI #4 Gonal-F and Ovidrel July-Aug 14 mid cycle. Trigger 8/1

That's the basic package. (I've tried figuring out how to get the signature to show, but haven't master it yet. So apologies if it appears again at the bottom.) I've been struggling with my infertility because I've basically been doing all the coordination and thinking for this on my own. I have always tried to include my SO but I don't think he's every really gotten how complicated and convoluted it can be. I like to have a plan, even if the plan gets adjusted or scraped for a newer better version, there still needs to be a plan. I'm meticulous and orderly but my ovaries are not cooperating with me. I got through all the testing, all the poking, all the reading, all the strangers with suggestions, all the family with suggestions, all the family with objections, everything that could be thrown at me. I've started crying at my desk since the medication began. Seen as a solid stoic person and now I've been seen sobbing as I work. People used to fear be because I was blunt and to the point, now they just think I'm going to snap. Since that began I've been feeling a little more rudderless with no one to pick up the handle. SO doesn't seem to know how to handle it. I don't know where to turn, so here I am. I'm frustrated at vague directions and miss-communications between the doctor and I, the nurse and I, the nurses from one office to the nurses at another office, the SO and I and any variety that could come. I don't really talk to anyone about this because no one seems to know how to listen or what to say when I used to try. I've been poking around for a couple of days here. It makes me feel better that others have some of the same concerns and questions. I hope to derive more hope, the hope I was beginning to lose, from reading and talking with the others here. 

Thank you if you read all my ramblings.

Lesliem0901

First off, welcome. I'm so sorry for your struggles. Most of us can definitely relate to what you're going through, and are here to support you.

I've done 5 IUIs and now moving to IVF. I've also struggled with communicating with DH and know all too well the crazies you get from the meds.

As hard as it is, try to stay positive and calm. Best of luck with your IUI and big hugs.

URMySunshine77

Welcome, @Regan1976. This is definitely the place to find support and helpful information.

My DH also does not want to be included in planning, so I can empathize with you.

Have you considered going to see a counselor once or more often for a sounding board? If you have insurance, you might want to look into the options on your program. I work part-time for several universities, and one of the schools offers three free sessions if I decide to take advantage of them. 

mindaa

Welcome!

I too am very private IRL so these boards are really helpful.

And also hate how hard it's been not to keep TTC issues from "leaking" at work.  I ended up in a fight (heated discussion) with a colleague and got (noticeably) close to tears in the middle of a staff meeting. Totally out of character and thanks to hitting a very low point in the TTC journey. (couldn't even blame it on meds)  

My DH is awesome and supportive but also a bit overwhelmed - I think he was very relieved to have been out of town when AF arrived this month  

meredithcarole

I have no real insight to offer you, but welcome to the board.

tlc35

I'm sorry for your struggles and welcome to the board.  My DH also seems kind of oblivious too.

Davie813

Welcome! You've come to a great place for support and information.

lcwed

Welcome to the board.  Congratulations on your weight loss.  15 pounds is awesome!

SillySally24

Welcome.

kelley72

Welcome!  There is always a friendly ear here, it is a great tool!  Best wishes

TAT2MAMI

Just wanted to welcome you aboard and wish you the best!

lgsdesigner

Sorry for all you've been through, and I hope you get a BFP soon. Welcome!

Regan1976

Thank you everyone. Seems I still haven't figured out the signature thingie as it now seems to be stuck even though I've updated it twice. Hmm, technology is fun! I hope everyone else is having smoother journeys. I hope to hit my smooth path soon. *mwahs* Kisses for everyone for luck.