Today is DSs daycare day. Normally, I buy a breakfast sandwich or something, but I decided to save money and make breakfast at home. Then I got home and didn't feel like having eggs. So now I'm eating boxed mac & cheese for breakfast. Directly out of the pan. Because who am I kidding? I'm going to eat the majority of this box. Why dirty a bowl trying to fool myself?
As I sip my coffee. I realize the worst part of getting pregnant again will be NO MORE COFFEE!!! Ahhh (actually I'll probably drink my allowable allotment of one cup, but it won't be the same.)
I bought two new diaper covers last week. I didn't even bother to tell my husband.
He has a Surface and a new TV on the way today. I think I can justify spending $20 on two new Nicki's covers. I think he feels kind of bad, because he's been suggesting I can get a new phone if I want to (mines over 2 years old now). New phone does not equal new expensive tablet (yeah he didn't get the base model).
As I sip my coffee. I realize the worst part of getting pregnant again will be NO MORE COFFEE!!! Ahhh (actually I'll probably drink my allowable allotment of one cup, but it won't be the same.)
Screw that, I kept my coffee for pregnancy two. I did keep it within the 200mg recommendation 99% of the time. I gave up way too much and was not willing to budge on that one.
Confession: I had sushi when I was pregnant with my son. And several tuna melts. The sushi was from a reputable restaurant that we've been eating sushi at for over 5 years now.
I bought two new diaper covers last week. I didn't even bother to tell my husband.
He has a Surface and a new TV on the way today. I think I can justify spending $20 on two new Nicki's covers. I think he feels kind of bad, because he's been suggesting I can get a new phone if I want to (mines over 2 years old now). New phone does not equal new expensive tablet (yeah he didn't get the base model).
And I'd much rather have a Tula and some new t-shirts than a new phone.
@ovenrack Definitely don't feel embarrassed! It's your life and you can only do what's best for your family! Plus that's a lot to deal with. DS is 13 months and its just now I feel like I could watch two. I couldn't handle two younger than that at once! Babies be needy!
As I sip my coffee. I realize the worst part of getting pregnant again will be NO MORE COFFEE!!! Ahhh (actually I'll probably drink my allowable allotment of one cup, but it won't be the same.)
Screw that, I kept my coffee for pregnancy two. I did keep it within the 200mg recommendation 99% of the time. I gave up way too much and was not willing to budge on that one.
Confession: I had sushi when I was pregnant with my son. And several tuna melts. The sushi was from a reputable restaurant that we've been eating sushi at for over 5 years now.
I drink almost a pot! I'll have to cut back some... Lol. I thought there were 200mg in one cup? No?
As I sip my coffee. I realize the worst part of getting pregnant again will be NO MORE COFFEE!!! Ahhh (actually I'll probably drink my allowable allotment of one cup, but it won't be the same.)
Screw that, I kept my coffee for pregnancy two. I did keep it within the 200mg recommendation 99% of the time. I gave up way too much and was not willing to budge on that one.
Confession: I had sushi when I was pregnant with my son. And several tuna melts. The sushi was from a reputable restaurant that we've been eating sushi at for over 5 years now.
I drink almost a pot! I'll have to cut back some... Lol. I thought there were 200mg in one cup? No?
Depends on the size of your cup and how you brew it. I cheat a little and usually put about 2 1/2 cups in my thermos for work. But if I remember properly most coffee will have under 100mg in one serving.
As I sip my coffee. I realize the worst part of getting pregnant again will be NO MORE COFFEE!!! Ahhh (actually I'll probably drink my allowable allotment of one cup, but it won't be the same.)
Screw that, I kept my coffee for pregnancy two. I did keep it within the 200mg recommendation 99% of the time. I gave up way too much and was not willing to budge on that one.
Confession: I had sushi when I was pregnant with my son. And several tuna melts. The sushi was from a reputable restaurant that we've been eating sushi at for over 5 years now.
I eat sushi in all my pregnancies, special sea urchin, salmon roe,and seaweed. And the best thing to have all day as a snack are pickle seaweed. Those are the best.
This is kind of silly because I know that it isn't my fault, but I feel like I'm failing DD. Her physio assessment had her in the 10th percentile and I feel really bad about that. I know that her delays are caused by her reflux (or her low tone that could be the cause of her reflux) but I just feel bad like I should have been able to do more. It's silly and she will catch up but I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
Eta: 10th for gross motor. Weight is hovering at about the 5th depending on the chart.
This is kind of silly because I know that it isn't my fault, but I feel like I'm failing DD. Her physio assessment had her in the 10th percentile and I feel really bad about that. I know that her delays are caused by her reflux (or her low tone that could be the cause of her reflux) but I just feel bad like I should have been able to do more. It's silly and she will catch up but I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
You're doing the best you can. My DS had reflux and was slow to gain weight, too. I know it's hard, but don't beat yourself up about it.
I stopped drinking caffeinated coffee during my first tri, but I would still have decaf. One morning, DH and I went out for a drive and got coffee at the drive through. When we got home, I was like "Wow. I have a lot of energy this morning. I haven't felt this good since I got pregnant. And suddenly I feel like that constipation I've been struggling with is not going to be a problem in a minute. Wait a second...They gave me real coffee!!!" I started drinking a cup a day for the rest of my pregnancy.
This is kind of silly because I know that it isn't my fault, but I feel like I'm failing DD. Her physio assessment had her in the 10th percentile and I feel really bad about that. I know that her delays are caused by her reflux (or her low tone that could be the cause of her reflux) but I just feel bad like I should have been able to do more. It's silly and she will catch up but I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
Please don't be so hard on yourself! I know it's stressful, but the guilt and the worry are all signs of just how attentive you are to your daughter. You are a good mother. She will be fine because she has you.
A girl I was friends with in high school just got arrested for possesion of heroin, and from the way it was described it sounds like she may have been dealing it, although she's not charged with intent to sell.
She has three super young kids. SMDH.
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,
It all revolves around you.
A girl I was friends with in high school just got arrested for possesion of heroin, and from the way it was described it sounds like she may have been dealing it, although she's not charged with intent to sell.
She has three super young kids. SMDH.
That is so sad. It seems like heroin just grabs ahold of people and doesn't let go.
I brought home a lost dog that obviously belongs to someone. He looks like he got caught in the storms last night. But the nanny called in sick so I don't have time to deal with the lost dog right now. We posted his pic on the neighborhood fb page, but he's just in a kennel in my back yard for the time being. Poor pup. I did give him food and water though.
Confession #2: I just caught my kid feeding herself leftover breakfast with a spoon she found under the couch. That's more like 4 confessions in one. There is nothing okay about that sentence!
TTC with PCOS since November 2009
IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP! beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75 beta #2 11/28 = 2055 Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012! Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
I let DS watch Octonauts for 3 hours this afternoon. He was pretty insistent on watching TV, and I just didn't have the pizzazz needed to divert his attention to the legos, brio, stickers or books that we have. I would have gotten us out of the house but we were waiting for a delivery all day. Which of course showed up at 4:45 pm. Boo!
@stringy813 you are doing just fine. I don't know what made you feel like a failure, but even if it is really bad, know that she will not remember it. You aren't scarring her. You are only hurting yourself. Go easy on yourself. Some days are merely survival. Hugs!
TTC with PCOS since November 2009
IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP! beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75 beta #2 11/28 = 2055 Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012! Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
I feel like an absolute failure of a mom today. I'm sitting on the couch in tears while she plays and looks at me funny. I'm sure I'm scarring her for life.
I totally rubbed a clean prefolds diaper on my face this morning. I was playing peakaboo with Colin with it and noticed how soft it was. I'm going insane from exhaustion.
Sometimes I wish J didn't have the job he does. I get so annoyed when he has to work on weekends, or really late at night, pretty much whenever it comes before family time. Every time it happens I really resent his work and wish he didn't do it.
And then I feel like an ungrateful, selfish bitch because he works incredibly hard so that he can support our lifestyle which also lets me comfortably SAHM with our kids. Then I get the guilt because there are parents who have three of four jobs between them and are still struggling to make ends meet.
I didn't have a debit card for an entire month because of my new one getting lost in the mail, and the feeling of angst that I got wondering if I had enough cash on hand to buy things (like at the grocery store) was overwhelming. I've always just given whatever cash, and if I went over 'budget' I took the rest out of my account using my debit, and it's no problem. I felt really bad about myself when I remembered that that's some people's daily reality, when for me it's just a temporary inconvenience.
We used to be really poor, and I just feel like even though I have empathy for the people who have difficulties (and don't expect them to just 'get a job!' or whatever), I've really taken our lifestyle for granted. So I guess TL;DR: I'm an entitled, spoiled, selfish person who feels (rightly so) terrible about herself.
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,
It all revolves around you.
Sometimes I wish J didn't have the job he does. I get so annoyed when he has to work on weekends, or really late at night, pretty much whenever it comes before family time. Every time it happens I really resent his work and wish he didn't do it.
And then I feel like an ungrateful, selfish bitch because he works incredibly hard so that he can support our lifestyle which also lets me comfortably SAHM with our kids. Then I get the guilt because there are parents who have three of four jobs between them and are still struggling to make ends meet.
I didn't have a debit card for an entire month because of my new one getting lost in the mail, and the feeling of angst that I got wondering if I had enough cash on hand to buy things (like at the grocery store) was overwhelming. I've always just given whatever cash, and if I went over 'budget' I took the rest out of my account using my debit, and it's no problem. I felt really bad about myself when I remembered that that's some people's daily reality, when for me it's just a temporary inconvenience.
We used to be really poor, and I just feel like even though I have empathy for the people who have difficulties (and don't expect them to just 'get a job!' or whatever), I've really taken our lifestyle for granted. So I guess TL;DR: I'm an entitled, spoiled, selfish person who feels (rightly so) terrible about herself.
Is it the California Baby line that people talk about and is now available at Target?
I just bought a $20 sample pack of shampoos, lotions, cream and baby hair gel! I'm going to use it on M tomorrow for our second annual Big Latch event!!! And he just got his first bubble bath
I took P to get his one year blood work today and I blacked out.
I don't like blood. I made it through all of the draws, but after they were done I got really light headed, lost all my color and blacked out. I kept apologizing to the people working there and felt super bad because I wasn't even the one getting blood drawn. I am used to blacking out because of being hypoglycemic, which may have been part of my issue because I missed my snack since we had to wait so long, so I didn't freak out I was just super embarrassed.
Yeah, for world breastfeeding week. The birth center down the road is hosting an event to try to break the world record for nursing babies/kids at 10:30 tomorrow morning. Me and M went last year too
Let's see:
Ds1's cat was coughing up a hairball or something.....so I grabbed the small prefold that usually has ds2's pacifier clipped to it and laid it on the floor in front of her to "puke" on so I wouldn't have to clean the floor.
Took ds2 to dr for pink eye today.....he weighed 17 pounds 3 ounces......thought he was doing great then it hit me he's only gained 7ish pounds since I started using Best Bottoms diapers in May/June 2013.
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How old is he @PipSqueak0313? L has probably gained like 10 lbs in the past 2 years. She wasn't 20 lbs yet when she turned 1, and she's under 30 now.
Ds2 will be 17 months in a week.....he was around 14-15 pounds at 12 months. I know it's not really a bad thing.....I was wearing size 6x when I was 12 years old so he does get it honestly. It just seems wrong when I read about all these 15-20 pound 4-6 month olds on the cd sites.
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Re: ~~~FFFCs~~~
DS is finally to a good age, I feel like maybe nannying, but would love to hear people's experiences.
ETA: Sorry for your loss.
I drink almost a pot! I'll have to cut back some... Lol. I thought there were 200mg in one cup? No?
I eat sushi in all my pregnancies, special sea urchin, salmon roe,and seaweed. And the best thing to have all day as a snack are pickle seaweed. Those are the best.
Eta: 10th for gross motor. Weight is hovering at about the 5th depending on the chart.
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,
It all revolves around you.
Confession #2: I just caught my kid feeding herself leftover breakfast with a spoon she found under the couch. That's more like 4 confessions in one. There is nothing okay about that sentence!
IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
beta #2 11/28 = 2055
Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
beta #2 11/28 = 2055
Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
I sort of felt like Walmart deserved it for the cashier not seeing them. THey were black and furry. Lol
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Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,
It all revolves around you.
I just bought a $20 sample pack of shampoos, lotions, cream and baby hair gel! I'm going to use it on M tomorrow for our second annual Big Latch event!!! And he just got his first bubble bath
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I don't like blood. I made it through all of the draws, but after they were done I got really light headed, lost all my color and blacked out. I kept apologizing to the people working there and felt super bad because I wasn't even the one getting blood drawn. I am used to blacking out because of being hypoglycemic, which may have been part of my issue because I missed my snack since we had to wait so long, so I didn't freak out I was just super embarrassed.
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Ds2 will be 17 months in a week.....he was around 14-15 pounds at 12 months. I know it's not really a bad thing.....I was wearing size 6x when I was 12 years old so he does get it honestly. It just seems wrong when I read about all these 15-20 pound 4-6 month olds on the cd sites.
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