Is it everybody else, or is it me? (It's me, isn't it?)

Davie813

I'm 6 dpiui on my first medicated cycle (Follistim and Pregnyl trigger), and I seriously think I'm losing my mind.  My boss just had me re-do large chunks of a letter he'd asked me to write for him (telling me exactly what to say--very "Please take a memo, Miss Davie").  My reaction was part rage (I understand that your PA is on vacation, but I notice you're not asking my male counterpart to spend his time taking care of your correspondence) and part self-pity (I can't take direction and perform simple tasks.  Soon I will be in a coma.  Also, why are you so mean?), but the net effect was that I was almost in tears.

Irritation at the ongoing office sexism is normal for me; the rest is definitely not.  I know logically that if everyone around me was truly as vile and horrendous as I think they are right now, I probably would have noticed it earlier, but it's hard to remember that.   It's not just being short-tempered and emotionally sensitive--I have been in one grim and hopeless freakin' mood for the past couple of days (since the trigger wore off, pretty much).

For those of you who have done medicated cycles, is this typical?  When does it stop?

The upside is that I announced to my husband last night (in actual tears, this time) that there would be changes around the house and that I needed an hour of me-time a day.  He's already moved some things around to make that happen.  DH is exempt from my I-hate-everyone-right-now policy, because he's pretty awesome.

Lesliem0901

I'm sorry. Unfortunately, the mood swings and irrational thoughts are much worse the latter half of a medicated cycle. I always forewarn my husband and coworkers b/c you never know when I'll snap, cry or do both. It is not you, and it will go away.  Until then, get your hour of alone time, read a book, drink some tea, zone out and know this is short term. Big hugs to you...

Austrogermokee

I'm a mess on just letrozole, I couldn't imagine being on more drugs. I think the worst part isn't feeling like minor things are the end of the world, it's knowing that you're being irrational and that there's nothing you can do to stop it. 

rose_archangel

I think I am in this boat to.  I just started letrozole and norethindrone last night and I wanna crawl back in bed until my RE appt tmw.  I didn't realize this was gonna happen. 

All those in favor of taking the rest of the day off and having ice cream and watching sappy movies?

Austrogermokee

I'm in. I'll bring the ice cream and copy of The Princess Bride.

Today I had to go in for an US to see if I ovulated, or will soon. After waiting over an hour, they finally took me, and said they couldn't confirm either way and that I needed to come back on Sunday. 

I made it to the car before I started sobbing hysterically about how nobody at that clinic can ever give a straight answer and that I was going to be at least 15 minutes late for work and I'm NEVER late for work, I'm always early, and why doesn't anyone understand that I can't be late for work just to have a wand shoved up my vag with no answers! I could have gotten the same result by staying home and shoving a cucumber up there, and I would have been on time for work AND made it to the gym! Followed by more sobbing. Meanwhile, the rational me was kind of floating in space, looking down on myself, and wondering what the heck was going on.

DH is convinced I'm possessed by demons.

CML11

I felt crazy on medicated cycles, zero patience and bitchy. I think these work problems would have still been there for you, but everything seems so magnified on these cycles.
I'm sorry, hang in there!

TAT2MAMI

I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for you ladies going through this. Big hugs to all of you!
Eye on the prize, right?

KirstenAlecia

I have no experience with meds but i just wanted to send you a hug  {(you)}

I don't like that you are feeling like this. 

URMySunshine77

All of you ladies deserve major props! I've not taken meds, but my PMS symptoms can be gruesome enough that I don't want to imagine my wrath on others if I had to take them.

Definitely get away for a massage, coffee, or me-time.

thirtyninetoforty

I feel the same way and was writing things all backwards today and had to rewrite and wasted lots of paper and I stop listening and I go into the bathroom and cry...I feel your pain! (((HUGS)))

katie0919

I am on Clomid this month for the first time (took my last dose yesterday) and am set to Trigger with Ovidrel sometime next week. I have a constant dull headache, hot flashes like a mo' fo', and am losing patience by the flippin' second. 

My mom put my childhood house up for sale today....my dad died in Nov. '12 and this was the last part of him that I feel like I had left. Seeing my house online today had me tearing at my desk. I just want to effing hibernate the rest of the cycle, either that, or drink it away. OH - and to top it off, a coworker who is on maternity leave brought her 7 week old twins, yes...twins....to work today to see everyone. Cue BABY FEVER even more. 

Today can suck it....for all of us!

Davie813

Thanks, Ladies!  You're the very best, all of you!  I'm sorry for those of you who are also in hormone hell at the moment; I hope it gets better soon.  I second @rose_archangel's day off idea.  Ice cream!

@Austrogermokee, I hope you get much better answers on Sunday.  So frustrating!
And, @katie0919, I'm sorry about your father and your childhood home.  That must be really rough.  Hugs.

I think I'm past the worst of it for this cycle, and had an encouraging appointment with my RE this morning, so I'm feeling better.  I really wasn't expecting this, because I'd never had a bad reaction to hormonal medications (birth control) before.  But now that I know to expect it, maybe it won't be so bad next time.

Good luck to all of us--it's worth it, right?

kindershlitz

Glad your AM appt. went well.  No experience but I hope you next 1WW flies by with a great ending!