PPD check-in

Bozzy2

Haven't heard from you lady's in awhile. How is everyone doing?

I finally went to the dr and talked. so I have been put on Zoloft and was told to come back in 6 weeks to see if it was a high enough dose.

sjn00

I am okay.. Better than last week for sure..
Still trying to figure out LOs issues.. We just switched her to lactose free formula after the colief worked so well for her. So far so good, she is sleeping better and seems so much happier. She is a bit constipated now from the switch which is causing her some discomfort but no where near where she was last week. I am wondering at what point do I give in and help the poop along? Today is only day 2.

A lot of my mood depends on her.. If she is happy and being easy. I am happy.. Nights are still the worst for us and I have noticed it is harder for me to get her to sleep as apposed to my husband which is so difficult for me.

I see an OB on Thursday though for my 6 week PP (not mine though) so we'll see what happens there.. Im annoyed at the fact that every appointment I have had with my OB gets changed the day before to someone else (this is the 3rd time).. Trying not to take that personally and makes me tempted to say screw the appointment all together.

tbmadeamistake

Thanks! I'm glad you've started something, hope it helps!

I stopped nursing and it has made the biggest change. He doesn't cry at feedings, which means I don't cry. With less crying, C has been behaving way better and it's awesome.

I'm still anxious and finding it hard to deal with both of them crying at once, which happened this evening again. I need to come up with ways to cope with that, as all I wanted to do when it happened was smack C, and that's not OK. Even in the moment I knew it wasn't OK and didn't do it, but its not OK that I felt that way.

Dh has been way more helpful of late which is also helpful, but I still get resentful when I'm up alone in the middle of the night. My next appt is Thursday.

aleher15

My pp appointment 2 weeks ago I got screened for ppd and it came back negative (I guess because noone said anything after that) but I still have overwelming times (more so lately) and I feel really anxious when im home ( like I dont have enough time to so everything I need to do plus be able to spend time and play with my kids) and my moods still randomly change in an instant and I don't like these feeling. Sometimes I feel like I just can't catch up with the world around me like everyone else is moving forward and im just standing still.

CJnKR2014

@Meow84‌ agree on this. When both the twins are freaking out at once, i feel like freaking out myself.

curlylocks3

I also hate the double crying. I jokingly said while pregnant that I was going to take my coworkers advice of getting noise canceling headphones but never did. Right now I either just cry along with them or run and hide in my room for a few minutes alone.

Bozzy2

@aleher15 if you still feel like you have a problem maybe go back and see you dr again maybe. As for doing things at home . I say just play with your LOs and have a dirty house. (Not filthy). Do the bare minimum.

tbmadeamistake

Bozzy2 said:

@aleher15 if you still feel like you have a problem maybe go back and see you dr again maybe. As for doing things at home . I say just play with your LOs and have a dirty house. (Not filthy). Do the bare minimum.

I agree on both counts. Take care of yourself. The house can wait.

Bozzy2

@ everyone who has one than one kid. Man you guys are strong and brave. You are all doing wonderful. *hugs*

sm623

Lilygrace48 said:

Bozzy2 said:

@aleher15 if you still feel like you have a problem maybe go back and see you dr again maybe. As for doing things at home . I say just play with your LOs and have a dirty house. (Not filthy). Do the bare minimum.

I agree on both counts. Take care of yourself. The house can wait.

This. I always think of this poem when I feel guilty about neglecting my housework.


Song For a Fith Child, by Ruth Hamilton. 1958

Mother, oh Mother, come shake out your cloth
empty the dustpan, poison the moth,
hang out the washing and butter the bread,
sew on a button and make up a bed.
Where is the mother whose house is so shocking?
She’s up in the nursery, blissfully rocking.

Oh, I’ve grown shiftless as Little Boy Blue
(lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo).
Dishes are waiting and bills are past due
(pat-a-cake, darling, and peek, peekaboo).
The shopping’s not done and there’s nothing for stew
and out in the yard there’s a hullabaloo
but I’m playing Kanga and this is my Roo.
Look! Aren’t her eyes the most wonderful hue?
(lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo).

The cleaning and scrubbing will wait till tomorrow,
for children grow up, as I’ve learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down, cobwebs. Dust go to sleep.
I’m rocking my baby and babies don’t keep.

katekat8721

curlylocks3 said:

I also hate the double crying. I jokingly said while pregnant that I was going to take my coworkers advice of getting noise canceling headphones but never did. Right now I either just cry along with them or run and hide in my room for a few minutes alone.

I put in some ear plugs and just talk to them as if they're not screaming. Trust me you'll still hear them crying... but it takes the edge off.

Sometimes I cry too though

tbmadeamistake

I just had a major meltdown. I had to call my mom for a sanity check because I didn't trust myself not to smack my two year old. I do not like feeling this way. I literally went from zero to oh my god in 60 seconds. I have my next therapy appt tomorrow at seven, I will be discussing meds.

Bozzy2

@Lilygrace48‌ good luck Hun. Your a champ I'm sorry you feel that way and good luck with tomorrow.

sjn00

@Lilygrace48‌ hang in there!! Glad you were able to make a phone call!! Good luck at your therapy appointment tomorrow!

sparklenshine_89

I love seeing you ladies communicate your feelings and reach out for help when you need it whether it's a dr., your mothers, or this board. It's a good thing for you to know where you are at mentally. You are all amazing mothers for that!