I'm so sorry. And I understand you completely. I also have been in beta hell and not had a happy ending. I think you need to take care of yourself and perhaps that means not going to that baby shower is what you need to do. On another note it may take a bit for your "period" to start. I remember mine was awful I was really sick. So please take care
*Losses mentioned*
Me: 34 DH:32
TTC #1 since Dec 2011
HSG = tubes clear, bicornuate or septate ute; MRI= severe arcuate uterus no septum seen
SA #1 low count, low morph; SA#2 4% Morph, count OK SA#3 july 2014= NORMAL!!!
9/2013 IUI#1 w/Clomid 100mg = over response; cycle converted to cryoocyte IVF
IVF #1: 9/15 ER= 9 mature eggs, all eggs made it thru vitrification
10/23 ICSI 6 fertilized; 10/28 5dt of two morulas. Hold on to me babies, stick, stick, stick!!
11/6 BFP EDD 7/14/14 Beta #1= 18; 11/9 Beta #2= 44.8; 11/12 Beta #3= 7 = Early loss @4w6d. No frosties
Feb 2014 Hysterscopy = no septum seen ute all clear in the inside
I just want to thank all of you again for your support. It helps to know that others have had similar experiences and were able to move forward and keep trying. I know that some women here have had it a lot worse than me and I'm amazed and inspired by their strength.
I don't think anyone who hasn't experienced IF and all the awful things that come with it can possibly begin to understand how difficult it is, so thank you for listening/reading and for your kind words and advice.
**warning**
Me (31), DH (33), one furbaby (7) - unexplained IF
hysteroscopy and polypectomy 2/14
IVF #1 3/2014 - cancelled (early ovulation)
IVF #1.2 ER 5/16/14: 23R 18F - freeze all (12) due to concern for late onset OHSS
FET #1 in June - delayed due to thin lining, 7/18 SET (7.5 mm lining) resulted in chemical pregnancy
FET #2 in Sept - 9/4 transferred 2 CCS tested embryos (6.5mm lining)
9/13 beta #1 - 400, 9/15 beta #2 - 950, U/S 9/22 one gestational/yolk sac - next up 9/29
IVF #4 No suppression/Antagonist Nov 2014/Converted to IUI #1 = BFN IVF #4.1 Feb 2015 = cancelled IVF #4.2 April 2015 - Lupron Stop Protocol with ICSI = PGD testing of embryo indicated it was abnormal IVF #5 June 2015 EPP with Antagonist
Re: *Update*: low beta ?!?
On another note it may take a bit for your "period" to start. I remember mine was awful I was really sick. So please take care
Me: 27 DH: 27
October 2013: Endo erosion/ Clear HSG
March 2014: SA #1/ 2%morph, borderline sperm count, decent motility
June 2014: SA#2/ 2% morph, low sperm count, worse motility
Plan: "Quick Start IVF"/antagonist protocol with Follistim, Ganirelix, Ovidrel and progesterone suppositories (yay)
High AMH (11) and Low BMI= low doses of everything to prevent OHSS
July 27, 2014: Started Follistim injections for ten days
July 31, 2014: U/S= 20 follicles, 8.5 lining, E2 is good, Ganirelix for 4 days starting 8/2
August 4, 2014: 14 follicles on-track, good lining, Trigger 8/6
August 9, 2014: 9 ICSIed/ 5 embryos; aiming for a 5dt on 8/13
August 13, 2014: 5DT of 1 4BA almost-hatching blastocyst (Please hang in, Little Bug!)
August 14, 2014: We have 3 frosties! Hope they're having fun hanging out together.
August 23, 2014: Beta #1: 144 8/23/14: Beta #2: 374 Beta 8/25/14 Beta #3: 6,600 9/3/14
September 9, 2014: Ultrasound #1 115 heartbeats per minute
September 23, 2014: Ultrasound #2 182 heartbeats per minute
September 26, 2014: Love my OB's office
October 10, 2014: Our baby looks like a baby and is moving all over!
December 8, 2014: Anatomy scan- It's a girl!
"Hope strengthens. Fear kills."- Karen Marie Moning
"Heaviness is only temporary; the daylight will soon break in."- needtobreathe
I agree that no one who hadn't gone through all the IF crap can understand and that makes it hard with friends and family.
I hope you wait and see how you feel and give yourself permission to skip the shower if it's going to be too hard on you.
Sending hugs your way.
***************************Loss Mentioned***************************
Me 37 y/o, DH 45 y/o; DH vasectomy reversal (his 2nd marriage) 11/8/12; TTC since 12/8/12. IVF due to MFI. DOR diagnosis April 2015.
IVF #1 BCPs/Antagonist w/ICSI Jan 2014 = BFN
IVF #2 MDL w/PICSI March 2014 = BFN
IVF #3 EPP/Antagonist w/PICSI May/June 2014 = BFP!; MMC 6w4d
IVF #4 No suppression/Antagonist Nov 2014/Converted to IUI #1 = BFNIVF #4.1 Feb 2015 = cancelled
IVF #4.2 April 2015 - Lupron Stop Protocol with ICSI = PGD testing of embryo indicated it was abnormal
IVF #5 June 2015 EPP with Antagonist