We triggered three follicles (21, 17, 16 - all others under 12)
6w4d showed four heartbeats and a fifth sac with a possible flicker.
1. I really need to speak with someone who has been in a similar situation. I am freaking out.
2. Wwyd? After the initial appointment with my RE, he called my obgyn (I live 2 hours from RE in a different state) to find his recommendation for a MFM /level three nicu etc. My obgyn wanted me to go directly there from the RE. I never thought about it, but it was terrible. By the time arrived, EVERYONE in the office knew. Two staff members said something before I even got to the room and others gave strange knowing smiles. There were five other people in the room with us during the u/s. I felt like a total freak show! I live in a very small town and I am terrified of this getting out to people. My RE was clearly concerned with the pregnancy, but he made it clear that I really needed to be careful and focus on being gentle to my 10+ cm ovaries and OHSS. He gave me advice and cautions. On the other hand Obgyn, other than mentioning to a person in the room to notice my huge ovaries, didnt mention anything about my immediate health. He is sending me to the MFM, who is about an hour away in the closest NIcu 3 hospital. Yet he wants to see me again in two weeks. Why? To gawk again? I never want to go there again but I don't know where else to go. Especially if we decide to reduce, already at least 15 people would know about this. I think he is the only high risk obgyn guy in the area, but does it even matter if ill be a patient at the bigger hospital?
Also, and this sounds so petty, but it kinda send me over the edge: a friend of mine showed me that one of my all-time favorite students posted mean things about me online. It just rubbed in my face how much shit people talk behind backs here.
I guess I'm just in a bad place right now. Any advice?