Hi, Ladies. First I just want to say that I am so very, deeply sorry to hear and read about your stories and losses.
I posted last month about my nephew passing right after he was born and I got a lot of amazing and helpful advice. I hope I can come back and post here, if it's not the right place, please tell me where else I could go. I've been trying to find places to talk about this, but never found the right place. My H cannot even talk about it because he is still devastated, so I find myself just keeping it all in. I would love to hear from others who have gone through somethng similar. I've been reading blogs and stories on Instagram and it's been helpful to me.
It's been just over a month now since my nephew passed away. He died the second he was born and we have no idea why. I have been trying to make sense of it all, I'm so confused and sad for my SIL & BIL. I think about him all day long, I cry maybe once a day. I'm still in shock. It doesn't seem real. I would love nothing more than to bring that baby back and put him right where he belongs - with his family. But I can't. I don't know what to do. I am watching my SIL go through a living hell. It's heartbreaking. I'm at the point now where I just dont know what to say anymore, how to act. You can just FEEL the emptiness in their home. My SIL was very active in the birthing community. She lived and breathed it and she was amazing at it. She says she never wants to do that again. I 100% support and understand that, but it's so hard to see her want to no longer go back because it was her life.
How can I help her?? them? how can I make sense of it all for myself? I just feel for her, I think about them all day. Why did he have to go? she misses him like nothing else. I hate seeing her so ... empty.
Perhaps maybe one day it will come together, but for now, I'm just in a state of confusion.