I was out with a group of friends Saturday night, most of whom didn't know about either of my miscarriages (there just never seems to be a 'right' time to bring up such a sad topic). I am finally getting to the point where I can talk about the losses without breaking down completely, so I made an effort to let them know what's been going on without making a big deal of it. I had a great conversation with one woman who told me she'd been in the same place - it was nice to share my feelings IRL and have someone understand and commiserate. She also offered the name of the specialist she'd been referred to. I felt like a weight was lifted after being able to talk about it all more freely.
Then today, the same group met again for a family friendly cookout. I love these ladies and their husbands, and we all spent last evening together without a hitch. But today, everyone had their kids with them. Except me. I didn't have a problem seeing the children, but every time I turned around, the conversation was about parenting or their kids latest thing. That was what got to me - knowing that in this one area, I have absolutely nothing to contribute.
So, I guess I'm calling the weekend a draw. I'm trying to focus on the positive, but I'm still reeling a bit from today. So, how was your weekend???
TTC since 8/13
BFP #1 - 1/15/14 MMC/D&C 3/6/14
BFP #2 - 6/29/14 - on our first wedding anniversary! NMC 7/8/14
BFP #3 - 2/11/15 - Also found out I have MTHFR deficiency - taking Foltx for more folic acid!