Trouble TTC

And the hits keep coming....(BFP & loss mentioned, not mine)

So IUI # 1 was a bust.....or I'm assuming it is.  16dpo with negative HCGs and dropping temps, so we aren't hopeful.  Blood test tomorrow to confirm. :(  In the meantime, during the most agonizing TWW, I found out that a cousin and his girlfriend are pregnant - they got pregnant a few months ago by accident and lost the baby, which is sad but then they both decided they "liked the idea" of having a baby and decided to try again.  Good for them - but sad for us, of course.  Then a few more various work people have daughters/sons who all just conceived.  And the kicker - just found out that my ex-husband's new wife is expecting.  Now - just to be clear - we've been divorced almost three years, were married for 10, we never wanted children during that time and I am now married to the man of my dreams, happier than I ever imagined.....this news falls into the "It's not fair!!!" category.  I don't wish him ill but I also don't wish him extra happiness, and to have someone who hurt me so badly in the past to experience something my husband and I want so badly is just hard.  I'm trying to kick the Green Eyed Monster to the curb and move on, look forward to the possibilities with IUI#2 - and I will.  Just needed to vent for a minute and I knew that you ladies would understand.  Thanks for listening!!

Me (38) & DH (48).  Married since 5/5/13, TTC since then!

MFI - low counts, low motility

IUI #1:  6/28/14

Re: And the hits keep coming....(BFP & loss mentioned, not mine)

  • I'm sorry it's been a rough few days for you! Announcements are so hard especially when you were dealing with the bfn; I'm sorry. Take some time for yourself this week!
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    Me: 26 DH: 27
    TTC #1 Since Aug. 2013
    Cycle 1: O CD 25=bfn
    Cycle 2: O CD 48=bfn
    Cycle 3: Anovulatory/Provera =120 days!
    Cycle 4: Anovulatory/Prometrium=127 days! RE consult 6/16
    Me: Anov/poss. pcos?  HSG=normal/SA= Normal 
    July/Aug. 2014= Femara+trigger+TI=BFP!!
    Beta #1@ 16dpo=626!! Beta #2=1510
    Ultrasound @ 5w6d=heartbeat at 110!
    Ultrasound @ 6w6d =heartbeat at 131!


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  • I'm so sorry this cycle didn't work for you!  I always try to give myself one good cry and a couple of hours feeling all the jealousy and anger I want to when these announcements come along.  And then I try very hard to remind myself how lucky I am and how many other good things I have in my life that I should be thankful for.  It's not a miracle cure, it doesn't always work.  But I try.

    Hugs for you and FX that next cycle is the one.

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    Me: 31| DH: 36
    TTC #1 Since 07/2010
    DX: Unexplained Infertility
    TX: 
    IUI #1 on 7/3/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (44 million sperm, 1 dominant follie) = BFN
    IUI #2: on 7/28/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (23 million sperm, 2 dominant follies) = BFN

    IUI #3 on 8/22/2014 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (53 million sperm, 2 dominant follies)= BFP MMC @ 7weeks


  • Thank you thank you thank you to each of you for the support. It makes things easier!! As much as I adore my husband and real life friends, sometimes they don't always understand. Hugs and baby dust to all of you!!!

    Me (38) & DH (48).  Married since 5/5/13, TTC since then!

    MFI - low counts, low motility

    IUI #1:  6/28/14

  • I'm sorry for your BFN. :( ....and the annoying surprised with exH. Hang in there!
    Me (33), PCOS. Bloodwork normal, AMH slightly high, HSG clear 
    DH (40) SA good 
    Trying since 1/2012, RE 6/2014 
    Letrozole & TI June 2014-September 2014 -BFN
    October 2014 - IUI #1, lertozole - BFN
    November 2014 - IUI cancelled due to holiday, TI & Lertozole - BFN
    December 2014 - TI 
    January 2015 - IUI #2 - ?

  • I'm so sorry for the BFN, and the tough news all hitting at once. :(

    I want to say that even though the "green eyed monster" is knocking at your door, it sounds like you are a really thoughtful and kind person. :)
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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
  • HUGS to you!
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