TTCAL check in

shandorfml2

Welcome to TTCAL CheckIn!

I hope I can find you all well and positive this week! Please don't be shy in asking the PGAL/PAL ladies questions if you have them.

Where are you in your TTCAL journey? 

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?

QOTW: Ask a bumpie...any questions you have for another bumpie in regards to TTCAL?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

shandorfml2

Where are you in your TTCAL journey? 9 DPO cycle 6 (post birth control).

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? July 21st, seeing my OB. Gonna have the "what's next" talk since we've been trying over a year.

QOTW: Ask a bumpie...any questions you have for another bumpie in regards to TTCAL?
For ladies who have had procedures, or have done IUI/IVF...how do you psych yourself up for your appointment? Any good luck routines?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I want to be pregnant. I deserve to be pregnant. I POAS this morning...of course a BFN at 9dpo. I think if I get AF, this one will be hard. If I conceived, my EDD would be March 19th, (my sisters birthday) and we'd be induced at 37 weeks, which is cutting it close to March 2nd, Ana's birthday. So, its a mixed bag. If I don't get pregnant, it will be very difficult as I will have to go through Ana's second baby without my rainbow in my arms. Ugh. Did not think it would take so damn long to get pregnant! But, I'm trying to keep myself focused on the fact that I see my amazing OB on July 21st and we'll come up with a plan.

((hugs)) to any ladies who need them

stefuge

Hi ladies! I have been seriously MiA lately as we have moved and are getting settled in our new house. So glad to have a chance to check back in with everyone.

Where are you in your TTCAL journey?
TTA. BUT - it looks like we have only ONE more cycle of TTA before we are planning to burn the bench! I am ready. I'm nervous about the stress of it all, but excited to start trying again.

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?
Nope

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
We just passed the 10 month mark, and it is crazy to realize that it has been 10 months. I remember when I was just a couple months out and ladies on here would be at 10 months or a year, and say how it still felt like yesterday, and I thought that was crazy. But, really, it still feels like yesterday. I remember every moment in the hospital, every moment holding him, every moment so vividly, I cannot believe it has almost been a year. Burning the bench seemed so far away for us, and now, we are almost there. Which brings on lots of other stress and worry about getting pregnant and having a healthy pregnancy and the what ifs. Oh, I hate being a statistic.

@shandorfml2‌ - ((hugs)). Lots and lots of ((hugs))

ETA: spelling is hard

kflynn81

shandorfml2 said:

Where are you in your TTCAL journey? 9 DPO cycle 6 (post birth control).

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? July 21st, seeing my OB. Gonna have the "what's next" talk since we've been trying over a year.

QOTW: Ask a bumpie...any questions you have for another bumpie in regards to TTCAL?

For ladies who have had procedures, or have done IUI/IVF...how do you psych yourself up for your appointment? Any good luck routines?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I want to be pregnant. I deserve to be pregnant. I POAS this morning...of course a BFN at 9dpo. I think if I get AF, this one will be hard. If I conceived, my EDD would be March 19th, (my sisters birthday) and we'd be induced at 37 weeks, which is cutting it close to March 2nd, Ana's birthday. So, its a mixed bag. If I don't get pregnant, it will be very difficult as I will have to go through Ana's second baby without my rainbow in my arms. Ugh. Did not think it would take so damn long to get pregnant! But, I'm trying to keep myself focused on the fact that I see my amazing OB on July 21st and we'll come up with a plan.

((hugs)) to any ladies who need them

I'm so sorry its getting frustrating for you....hopefully the OB has a great plan in mind.

As for the TTCAL bumpie question, having done a crazy amount of IF procedures Id have to say that I don't really have much advice besides the trite saying of taking it one day at a time. For me, I have a lot of anxiety, when I look at the big picture it really sends me into panic mode. So instead I almost have to wake up and think...hmmm, ok I'm taking this shot and this pill today...and be done with it for that moment. I try and find other things to keep me busy even on the computer like funny animal picture website (that's my new thing during my FET , LOL). Another thing that helps is learning as much as I can about what medication I'm on or what procedure I'm doing....I'm so involved in my own health care when it comes to IF treatments that I've been asked multiple times if I'm a health care professional. LOL... I'm still trying to decide if that's a compliment or not haha.  We're here for you though if you have questions or are nervous about appts. or procedures.... ask and vent away

shandorfml2

@kflynn81 thanks for the advice. Taking one step at a time was helpful for me during my most intense grief.
I really hope this FET works for you!!

GymSpaz26

Where are you in your TTCAL journey?  CD29... no O so far... Just when I was starting to think that things were looking good after 3-4 "normal" cycles. WAY more normal that when I was trying to get pregnant the first time. I think the exercise and changing my diet has helped a lot. But really... CD29? Come on!

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Not especially relevant, but having a physical and getting blood work done this week. Hoping to find out if I might have a thyroid issue or lack of magnesium or something that would explain some of my tiredness and some other things.

QOTW: Ask a bumpie...any questions you have for another bumpie in regards to TTCAL?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Not much, just trying to take it one day at a time.

shandorfml2

hopefully you O soon @gymspaz26!

bunnybun4

hi ladies, sorry i have been so mia.  we've been out of town a lot and just busy at work.

where are you in your ttcal journey?  cd 22- ultrasound on thursday showed 3 lovely cysts on my ovary and I am not ovulating this month.  this has never happened to me...i always have regular cycles so I am f-reak-ing out.

any relevant appts. upcoming? cd 3 ultrasound to make sure the cysts shrink...then I think we are going to try a trigger shot next month.  can I get some t's and p's for  those bad boys to disappear???

what's on your mind this week?

just still in a little shock that this cycle is a bust and that my ovaries are not cooporating.  I don't know why it is taking so long this time around...I felt like i was so positive this cycle and now this...I just keep feeling like it just keeps getting worse and not better.

BrittianyM

marylaurena, sending thoughts and prayers your way for sure! I feel your pain with the cysts. I have one that measures 4.2cm on my left ovary and I am on BC so I shouldn't really have one. It really all sucks. I am hoping and praying that my DH will be ready to start trying soon.

MeNV

Where are you in your TTCAL journey?  

 Just starting. I feel tremendous guilt over how quickly we are starting this. I don’t have any time. I need a hysterectomy and if we are able to get pregnant again, it will be the last time. Because of my fibroids I still look pregnant, months later, and get asked all the time. Certainly doesn't help the grieving process. I’m showing everyone I know her pictures because I want her to be real to everyone in the case that we are able to get pregnant again. I don’t want anyone to forget her. 

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? 

 I need to schedule an appointment with the MFM but I’m so pessimistic about actually getting pregnant again that I’m being pretty lazy with this. The idea of going in empty when I was so optimistic and pregnant last time I was there just sounds too hard.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I'm tired of crying. I Cry when I hear stupid country songs about babies. Cry when I see babies. Cry when I find out people are pregnant. Cry when I pull out Frannie’s things from the hospital. I wasn't doing this very much the last month but it feels like I've regressed.  

stefuge

@MeNV‌ - what you are feeling is completely normal. One of my biggest fears is that Colton will be forgotten. We try to incorporate him in holidays and big events, but it's hard without him actually being there. And lots of ((hugs)). The decision to try again is hard, we are still getting there ourselves. Just take it moment by moment, a day at a time.

shandorfml2

@marylaurena‌ hopefully those cysts shrink...they usually do. I will be sending t's and p's!!

@MeNV‌ like @stefuge‌ said, its normal to have those feelings...its hard to go back and see your doc, especially the first time

shandorfml2

And today is cd 1 for me. Boo.

stefuge

@shandorfml2‌ - ((hugs))

bunnybun4

@shandorfml2- I'm so sorry about AF showing up.  ((hugs))  How long does it usually take a cyst to shrink? 

@brittianym -thanks for the t's and p's...how are you doing these days?  t's and p's that dh starts to come around real soon.

mumel16

Where are you in your TTCAL journey? CD 9 cycle 2

Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Meeting with my son’s doctor next week to discuss autopsy results…not a TTC appointment but very much on my mind.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I’ve been getting very far ahead of myself and deciding whether I’d use Lincoln’s room décor if we have another boy. I’ve decided I want to. We would have used his things for a little brother if he were still here and I like doing things the same as I would if he were still here.

*edited because apparentely my fonts are all messed up.

shandorfml2

@marylaurena‌ I think typically within 3 months

BrittianyM

marylaurena, I am doing okay. I went back to the doctor and the cyst got smaller. They said it is a normal cyst and that it should go away. Thanks for asking. 

How are you doing?