Hysteroscopy was a bust

CarSaidYes

So after my hsg the RE saw something that he wanted to take a look at. He said the hsg report said it was the catheter but he wasn't buying it. So today we did the hystroscropy and turns out I have 2 polyps and scar tissue probably from my m/c a year ago.
We were scheduled to have our first IUI this weekend and I'm so upset that it's been canx. He said that we could still do the IUI but he didn't think it would take and we'd be out $1300 and still not pregnant. So this time next cycle I'll be getting this issue corrected by the RE. Has anyone experienced anything like this? And can someone give me an okay to lay in bed and cry? Because I feel guilty doing it. I feel like I've left DH down :-(

LindseyM2012

You ABSOLUTELY are allowed to lay in bed and cry!!  I'm so sorry this happened, but happy that the RE went with his gut on this one.  Saved you money and a different sort of heartbreak.  Hopefully the procedure will go smoothly to clear it all up. 

 

But in the meantime, I personally say it is ok to be sad/angry/guilty/etc.  I have found if I try to suppress those feelings, they stick around longer than if I give myself some time to go through the emotions.  I know you feel like you've let your husband down, I feel the same way.  But I can almost guarantee that he doesn't see it that way.

 

HUGS!

DenaMaree

Ah, So sorry about the disappointing news! Definitely pamper yourself, cry your eyes out, and be mad if you need to be! But don't think twice about how the news will affect your DH! He will love you, support you, and just want to be there for you! The two of you will get through it all together and look forward to it being corrected so you can move forward in your journey!

Waterlily234

Yes, you can cry! I'm sorry.  Fx for you that this correction does the trick!!

athlete010688

I'm sorry you didn't get the results you were hoping for.  Lay in bed all you want!

lupineaura

You totally have the right to be upset! Both about the test results, and having to delay your IUI. Waiting is the absolute worst part about IF (in my opinion), and any delay can hurt.

lebradford

I would be so upset too. I think it's really important that we allow ourselves to grieve when we need to so we can actually process what is going on and move forward. Please take time to be sad and feel your feelings, and don't feel guilty about it.

I hope you can get this fixed and go back to treatments soon. Good luck and ((hugs)).

wanderlust508

I'm so sorry about the hysteroscopy findings!  I have not yet been through a hysteroscopy (although I might be soon if my next 2-3 IUI cycles don't take).  I don't have much advice but offering you hugs and permission to lay in bed and cry if you need to.  I know, IF is such a frustrating process!  I hope that you get your BFP soon after the issue is corrected next month!  

catlover790

I'm so sorry you got such tough news!! I think you should lay in bed and cry! For me if I try to be happy it's almost harder than just getting out my anger and sadness and taking some "me" time.

I'm sure your DH loves and supports you and doesn't think this is your fault at all. I have the same thoughts but I bet if you told him you felt that way he would tell you that's not what he thinks at all.

I hope you can have this taken care of soon. Take care of yourself!

aves0708

You absolutely have permission to stay in bed and cry!  I've done that more times than I like to admit because of IF.  Feeling sad and angry are two major emotions that go hand in hand with this, and I think it's important to let ourselves feel what we feel and NOT feel guilty about it.  Whenever I'm having a bad IF day I just sit and pick out the most brainless netflix show  I can find, drink lots of wine, and stay on the couch/bed all day.  I think it's the best medicine for feeling a little better tomorrow. 

I'm so glad you have a great doc who discovered the issue now, before you were several cycles in.  Sending lots of squishy ((hugs)) your way!

BunnyBerry

I think the most responsible thing to do at this point is lay in bed and cry. I seriously hope that is your plan.

I'm so sorry for the awful surprise messing up your cycle. I'm glad your RE was wise enough to take that image seriously and discover this issue earlier rather than later. I pray for you to find peace and healing in this difficult time. 

AnnaClaire256

Oh no!!! I'm so sorry, sweetie! I was really hoping you'd get good news. Glad to hear you're getting it taken care of quickly. PLEASE take this day to lay in bed and do nothing. Take all the time you need. There's a lot of grieving that comes along with IF and it's natural and healthy. Nothing is your fault. Take care of yourself. Big giant HUGS!!

cupcake122

@CarSaidYes‌ I'm so sorry you had that news I am scheduled for a hysterscopy (with a laparoscopy) next week. It IS good that they found the scar tissue now. I don't know a ton about what you have, but I was told that my septum could cause a miscarriage so I'm trying to cheer myself up with the thought that at least then found it now.

erollis

Yes, please lay in bed and cry while watching a movie. Eat a pint of ice cream or a box of chocolate. Or scream and shout if you need. Whatever will help you. ((HUGS))

CarSaidYes

Thank you Ladies so much. I appreciate all the kind words and support. This group means so much to me and I know for a fact I wouldn't be able to go along with all these frustrating issues with out you guys. I feel a lot better today. I'm finally going to tell my mom about the IF stuff today when we go to lunch after her Dr appt. Dr is happy with her response to chemo. He called her the chemo poster child! But still my mom won't understand 100%. I appreciate each and everyone of you.