Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
Re: Does anybody's friends or family understand? (**Rant**)
Give her time. Hopefully she comes around and stops being so self involved. In the meantime, you've got us! The support of these ladies has gotten me through some of my hardest IF days. We all understand your struggle. So glad you're here!
Me (29) DH (37)
Married 7/11
Actively TTC 3/12
DX: PCOS
Current treatment: Break from IUIs until after the holidays
-----All Welcome----
~~~January 3T Siggy Challenge: New Year's Resolutions~~~
(I don't do resolutions...so I stole T-Rex's)
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
TTC since March 2012
DX: MFI (4% motility)
Cycle 13: Natural cycle w/ HSG test = BFP
Identical twins!
Lost my angel boys at 10.5 weeks
Cycle 14-16: Natural Cycles = BFN
Cycle 17: Follistim + Trigger + IUI = BFN
Cycle 18: Natural Cycle = BFN
Cycle 19: Follistim + Trigger +IUI#2
Polyp found: SIS 11/11 - hysteroscopy 11/14
Cycle 20: Follistim + IUI#2 = BFFN
Cycle 21: Follistim (adj. dosage) + IUI#3 TI = BFN
IUI cancelled due to weather
Cycle 22: Follistim + IUI#3.1 = BFN
Cycle 23: treatment break, IVF consult
Cycle 24 - 26: natural cycle w/ acupuncture + Chinese herbs = BFN
Cycle 27: Follistim + IUI#4 = BFFN
Natural Cycles until IVF
Cycle 30: IVF#1 - Starting with Menopur + Follistim + Ganirelix
17 retrieved, 12 fertilized, 5dt w/ 2 blasts, 5 frosties
Betas: #1-156(9dp5dt), #2-1200(13dp5) #3-6112(17dp5)
Ultrasound #1 10/6: 1 bean!
TEAM BLUE!
My Chart
~~ALL WELCOME~~
They're amazing friends...they just don't know the right thing to say.
Me (29) DH (37)
Married 7/11
Actively TTC 3/12
DX: PCOS
Current treatment: Break from IUIs until after the holidays
-----All Welcome----
~~~January 3T Siggy Challenge: New Year's Resolutions~~~
(I don't do resolutions...so I stole T-Rex's)
As far as your husband, I would recommend straight up telling him that sometimes you need to be sad about this to process your feelings and that you want him to talk to you a little bit seriously before moving into "fix it with laughter" mode. I think men jump to fix things immediately, but if we tell them what we need, they can usually give it to us with some practice.
2008: HSG (normal), couple rounds of clomid through gyno
2008 - 2010: dragging my feet out of fear and procrastination
October 2010: first consultation with RE, dx PCOS and fibroids (DH slightly low count/motility)
Oct. 2010 - Dec. 2012: In DENIAL! avoided the issue because I was scared of surgery
January 2013: returned to RE, fibroids grew significantly
February 2013: second HSG, fibroids pushed on tubes which blocked them somewhat
March 2013: MRI to determine what type of surgery may be necessary
July 29, 2013: fibroids (5) removed via robotic laparascopy
August 2013 - Nov 2013 : benched due to recent surgery
IUI #3, Feb. 25, 2014 BFN
IUI #4 canceled due to lack of response to letrozole
IUI #4.1 April 28, 2014, BFN
May 16, 2014: wtf consult, start prepping for IVF in June and add injects for one last IUI in the meantime
IUI #5 started letrozole and bravelle but canceled after HSG led to new diagnosis
May 21, 2014: third HSG, tubes blocked, one at the beginning, one hydrosalpinx??
IVF #1 August 8, 2014 - 3dt of 2 embryos, BFN
September 17, 2014 - 4th HSG, the right tube is very patent (open!!) dye went straight through this time. Weird!
October 2, 2014 - started metformin treatment
November 14, 2014 - blood work, brought A1C down from 5.8 to 5.5
November 26, 2014 - RE finally back from vaca and reviewed my chart, no more IVFs for rest of calendar year
December 1, 2014 - Right after Thanksgiving, I called a new clinic and got in right away! Plan for IVF
December 17, 2014 - ER! 29 retrieved (!!), 16 mature, all 16 fertilized (ICSI)
IVF #2 December 20, 2014 - 3dt of 3 embryos, BFN
We are done with treatment unsuccessfully.
March: IUI, ectopic, 2 surgeries with 1 tube removed
May - July: 3 more IUIs, all BFN, on to IVF
August: IVF#1, BFN
September: FET#1, BFP!!!
It's a girl!!!
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I really don't think anyone can understand this if they haven't gone through it. People just say "oh stop being stressed". The worst part is that IF isn't something that's discussed so openly so you don't get the sympathy and understanding you deserve.
I have a coworker who constantly belittles my ability to do my job bc I don't have kids yet. "Oh wait till you have kids, you have no idea!" I wish I could punch her and say "b*tch if you only knew". Sometimes I want to give people a link to a good IF article and tell them to educate themselves on what we are going through
Missed M/C natural cycle 10/2013
DX PCOS 3/2014
2 cycles Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + TI - no response stair-stepped to Clomid 75 mg + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + IUI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Folistim + Ovidrel + IUI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim - no response, repeated Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI = success! 12/2014
Beta 1 - 15 dpiui, 324, Beta 2 - 17 dpiui 750. Twins!!
My Blog: pcosandpizza.blogspot.com
Seriously my friends don't really understand either. I have some friends that pretend it doesn't exist and some that just ask how are things going or just say they are thinking of me. I do have 1 friend that's been there for every step. She even knows when all my appts are and wants the details on how many follicles. She's been a life saver for me as a person to cry to when things aren't going good. My husband is like yours he is always upbeat and never believes anything is going to go wrong. I told him the other night I needed him to just let me cry there is no fixing things.
I feel like this whole process has caused me to distance myself from my friends because sometimes it's just to hard dealing with everything anyway and even harder having to deal with hurtful comments. IF is a very lonely. I don't know what if do without these boards.
In my experience, people just like to talk about themselves! Some people are a little self-centered! we haven't told anyone about TTTC but I've had some friends where I'll go a whole get-together without getting to talk about myself at all!
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
Me: 30 yrs (PCOS), DH: 28 yrs (SA normal)
June 19, 2008: Started dating
August 12, 2012: Got married
September 2012: Came off BC pills after 12 yrs
September 2012-May 2013: Irregular periods (every 45-55 days), no positives on OPKs, used fertility friend
May 2013: Started actively TTC, talked to OB about irregular periods and possible anovulation
October 2013: HSG all clear, hormone levels normal, U/S showed polycystic ovaries, PCOS diagnosis
February 2014: Clomid 50mg days 4-8, many follicles on CD14 but none bigger than 8mm
March 2014: Switched to RE, saline u/s all clear
April 2014: 3hr glucose showed IR, started on Metformin 1000mg/day, put on low-carb low-sugar diet
June 2014: Femara 2.5mg x10 on CD3, 19mm follicle on CD17, Ovidrel, TI, Endometrin suppositories = BFP!!!
Our little one due March 11, 2015
Me: 30 yrs (PCOS), DH: 28 yrs (SA normal)
June 19, 2008: Started dating
August 12, 2012: Got married
September 2012: Came off BC pills after 12 yrs
September 2012-May 2013: Irregular periods (every 45-55 days), no positives on OPKs, used fertility friend
May 2013: Started actively TTC, talked to OB about irregular periods and possible anovulation
October 2013: HSG all clear, hormone levels normal, U/S showed polycystic ovaries, PCOS diagnosis
February 2014: Clomid 50mg days 4-8, many follicles on CD14 but none bigger than 8mm
March 2014: Switched to RE, saline u/s all clear
April 2014: 3hr glucose showed IR, started on Metformin 1000mg/day, put on low-carb low-sugar diet
June 2014: Femara 2.5mg x10 on CD3, 19mm follicle on CD17, Ovidrel, TI, Endometrin suppositories = BFP!!!
Our little one due March 11, 2015
Me: 30 yrs (PCOS), DH: 28 yrs (SA normal)
June 19, 2008: Started dating
August 12, 2012: Got married
September 2012: Came off BC pills after 12 yrs
September 2012-May 2013: Irregular periods (every 45-55 days), no positives on OPKs, used fertility friend
May 2013: Started actively TTC, talked to OB about irregular periods and possible anovulation
October 2013: HSG all clear, hormone levels normal, U/S showed polycystic ovaries, PCOS diagnosis
February 2014: Clomid 50mg days 4-8, many follicles on CD14 but none bigger than 8mm
March 2014: Switched to RE, saline u/s all clear
April 2014: 3hr glucose showed IR, started on Metformin 1000mg/day, put on low-carb low-sugar diet
June 2014: Femara 2.5mg x10 on CD3, 19mm follicle on CD17, Ovidrel, TI, Endometrin suppositories = BFP!!!
Our little one due March 11, 2015
"I am a fountain of calm and patience. I will not slap my mother, I will not slap Caiti. I am a fountain of calm and patience..."
DH laughs. It doesn't work very well.
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Me: 30 yrs (PCOS), DH: 28 yrs (SA normal)
June 19, 2008: Started dating
August 12, 2012: Got married
September 2012: Came off BC pills after 12 yrs
September 2012-May 2013: Irregular periods (every 45-55 days), no positives on OPKs, used fertility friend
May 2013: Started actively TTC, talked to OB about irregular periods and possible anovulation
October 2013: HSG all clear, hormone levels normal, U/S showed polycystic ovaries, PCOS diagnosis
February 2014: Clomid 50mg days 4-8, many follicles on CD14 but none bigger than 8mm
March 2014: Switched to RE, saline u/s all clear
April 2014: 3hr glucose showed IR, started on Metformin 1000mg/day, put on low-carb low-sugar diet
June 2014: Femara 2.5mg x10 on CD3, 19mm follicle on CD17, Ovidrel, TI, Endometrin suppositories = BFP!!!
Our little one due March 11, 2015
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
I've talked to a couple of friends, and basically started the conversation with "here's what I don't want to hear" to help them know how to respond. If you want to continue your friendship, you may have to tell her straight out that you need a few minutes to be selfish and you don't want to here xyz, or something like that.
****Loss in Sig****
3T Sig Challenge: New Year's Resolutions
"Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less."
March 2014 - HSG left tube blocked, right tube partially blocked bilaterial partial obstruction; onward to the RE in April
May 1, 2014 - Lap surgery and chromopertubation; Dr removed a bit of endo, but everything looks healthy & tubes are clear!
May 2014- First medicated cycle, 2.5mg femara+TI; BFN
June 2014- 2.5mg femara + hCG + IUI on 6/18= BFP on 6/28!; C/P on 7/3
July 2014- 2.5mg femara + IUI #2 on 7/18. Starting progesterone 7/23, bfn
August 2014- 2.5mg femara + hCG + IUI # 3 on 8/15. BFN
Tx break
IVF #1 -
12/1 - TOT & SIS- RE found a polyp
12/15 - Hysterscopic surgery to remove the polyp; additional polyps found and removed
12/29- Good baseline u/s, 12 antral follies
12/30- Started stimming
1/10 - ER: 17 retrieved, 14 fertilized!
My Ovulation Chart - No data, just meds
March: IUI, ectopic, 2 surgeries with 1 tube removed
May - July: 3 more IUIs, all BFN, on to IVF
August: IVF#1, BFN
September: FET#1, BFP!!!
It's a girl!!!
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I really feel like I'm in a different boat sometimes. My family and friends have been amazing for the most part. Except for my mom. She's gotten a little better but she hates all the meds and tests I've done/are going to do.
The thing that bothers me is when family and friends tell me "success" stories. These "success" stories are so and so (I'm related to one of these success stories) was told when she was a teen, by her doctor, that she had pcos. And that she would NEVER be able to get pregnant. So she never tried to have a kid. Never used protection or bcp. Guess what?! She had a child with her husband/boyfriend! They were sooooo shocked because they were convinced they could never ever get pregnant! Ever!
Now I am truly happy for these ladies. I really am. Children are a blessing and we all know that because we want a child so badly. And they probably were sad by the diagnosis and are thrilled the doctor was proved wrong. That's great!
Of course if you never use protection/bcp your entire life you have a chance to become pregnant no matter how small a chance. It also depends on diagnosis. And what angers me more is that these doctors tell them they can never get pregnant and to not worry about getting pregnant. And that they are dumb enough to believe it.
I do know there are cases that a woman is truly infertile or could never have a child. My heart goes out to everyone who wants a child and is struggling or can't have one.
When I hear a similar story at work. I'm the happiest photographer ever to photograph such a miracle baby. I understand how hard they tried.
I'm just sick of hearing and being compared to these people by family and friends. My situation is the same but isn't. We prevented for 9 years. Our entire sex life up until our wedding. We tried actively 1year and not prevented for 1 year before testing. Also both H and I have problems. I wasn't told I could never have a kid and our diagnosis is not pcos. I have told how I feel about these stories. The looks I get are sadness and confusion because it's supposed to bring me hope.
I still have hope. I'm just frustrated and sad. H has so much hope he may be a bit delusional. What keeps him going is that every time we have sex it could be the moment we become pregnant. I love that he believes so strongly that we will have a baby and it could happen this month or two years from now.
I'm really sorry about how long this became. It's been bothering me for awhile now.
ETA: I guess I'm just having a hard time being compared. I'm also still trying to cope with finding out that we may not have a child because of difficulties after believing for 29 years I could easily have a child.
All of this, exactly! I don't know if people really don't understand infertility as much as they are used to many of us always being the "rock". I struggle with this every day now. And it is made worse because I am actually in grad school to become that therapist. People take our caring natures for granted and don't take the time to think that we may need to be selfish at times too.
Also, pregnancy prevention is so ingrained in everybody now (female and male) that I think it might be hard for people to recognize that is can be just as hard for some people to actually get pregnant. People without fertility issues theoretically know fertility issues exist, but they don't grasp the true emotional and physical toll it takes.
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
Doesn't it suck! We spend all of our time and energy doing the "right" things and now have to deal with this, while people who are irresponsible have things just fall into their lap! I want to get drunk and blow my rent money on a new tattoo and never worry about the consequences **pout!**
Oh well... back to work...
Yes please!
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
YES! I think it is great that he wants to make me laugh and try to fix things. But sometimes us ladies don't want that right away. From what I've heard from lurking on this board is that most of us want to be mad and sad for a bit before our spouses/partners swoop in for the save.
I think I effectively scared him with my hysterics the other day so he might be treading lightly so as to not trigger that again. I'm a complete head-case lol
However, I did explicitly tell him that when he just let me cry and walked me away from cooking dinner the other night, it was exactly what I needed.
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
ME: 36, on BC since 1996, irregular periods. HUBS: 37, healthy
2001—meet. 2005—marry. 2006—Furbaby is born.
On BC till end of 2009. 2010 NTNP.
New Year’s Eve 2010—BFP?! January 13, 2011—early loss, HCG peaked at 324, no D&C needed.
+++++
Feb 2011-Nov 2012—NTNP
Dec 2012 --present (TTC 20 months) Not even a hint of a BFP
Me: BW, U/S, HSG, HSN normal. AMH 2.33. Hubs: SA normal
+++++
April 2014--IUI #1 Clomid 100 4-8 Follistim 150 9-14, 5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 5/5 1100, BFN
May 2014 ---IUI#2 Clomid 100 3-7 Follistim 150 8-13, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 6/6 547, BFN
June 2014--IUI#3 Follistim 150/225 3-15, 3-5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 7/11 1450, BFN
July 2014--IUI#4 Follistim 225 2-12, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 8/12 841, BFN
Breaking till after Christmas, then IVF...taking 4000 mgs daily Inositol and Melatonin 3mg
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29