Third Attempt at TFAS (intro)

SchoolPsychSteph · June 2014

Hi ladies,

I officially belong on this board so I hope you all will have me. I just got my bfp on Friday and went to have my first beta and progestrone levels drawn today. I won't know anything until tomorrow, but I pray it will be good news.

A little background- DH and I were young and had an oopsie baby (DD age 6) four years before we got married. At that time, I thought once you got a bfp, you were getting a baby. I was so naive. Fast foward to Fall 2012, we didn't try or prevent, but I got pregnant again. Unfortunately, it ended in a chemical pregnancy a week later. Fine, I was upset, took a day off work, and got back on birth control because I wanted a summer baby. Again, so naive.

In the summer 2013, I got off birth control and we got pregnant in September/October. Yay another summer baby! I was nervous due to my previous loss, but my beta levels continued to rise, I passed the first trimester, and I was going to have this baby. So naive again. Our Little Girl was taken too soon due to chorioamnionitis at 18 weeks. There is nothing like a late loss that anyone can understand unless you've been there. Which is why I want to join you all on this journey. To support one another through a scary, anxiety provoking adventure.

So in short, I'm 26, naive, and I don't know squat about pregnancy or staying pregnant for that matter. I know I can and my daughter is a testament to that. TodayI am pregnant.

Sorry for the dear diary.