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MelissaMisoMelissaMiso member
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Fifth month trying with another BFN and this is the first time I'm really feeling bummed out about it. Doesn't help that I have an awful head cold. Sigh. Pass the beer.

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  • Lesliem0901Lesliem0901 member
    I'm sorry...that stinks. Big hugs to you.
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    TTC#1 since June 2012

    Dx: Unexplained Infertility / AMA

    BFP after 4th IUI cycle with Gonal F + Ovidrel on March 2014 | EDD 12/7/14 | MMC on 4/14/14 

    IUI#5 with Gonal F and Ovidrel trigger on 6/6 - BFN

    On to IVF #1 with a new RE. Started Gonal F and Menopur on 8/15.  Added Ganirelix on 8/24. Trigger on 8/26 for ER on 8/28. 8R 7M 3F.  Transferred all 3 on 8/31. BFP on 9/11 | EDD 5/20/15 - Beta #1: 56.7. Beta #2: 97. Beta #3: 1148. Beta #4: 3559. Beta #4: 7678. MMC confirmed on 10/13. D&C on 10/14 at 9w. Confirmed male with Trisomy 14.

    On to IVF #2 in March. CCS Testing on 2 embies. No go. Waiting to start IVF #3 in July. Surprise BFP on 6/14! EDD - 2/20/16 - Beta #1: 121.4. Beta #2: 236.4. Beta #3: 2014.

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  • BeckyP005BeckyP005 member
    I'm sorry Melissa...hugs. Here is some beer though and hoping your head cold goes away soon.

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • hooligans4hooligans4 member
    Sorry you are feeling bummed. Drink Becky's beer then get right back on the horse. You got a baby to make lady. I know it's disappointing not getting a BFP but you have to keep at it and eventually it will happen.
    Sending you hugs

      Me:39, DH:40

    DD born 8/96, DS born 8/04

    TTC#3

    NTNP since 2006, active trying 1/13

    Natural M/C 3/13 at 7 weeks

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  • lgsdesignerlgsdesigner member
    (sigh)....I'm sorry. :::pulls up chair at bar by Melissa and has a shot with her:::
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  • TAT2MAMITAT2MAMI member
    I'm sorry Melissa. I've been there right witcha! Hope this next month is the month you get your BFP!
    Me: 38 ~  DH: 38 ~   DD: 8
    TTC #2 since March/April 2014.
     
     
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  • URMySunshine77URMySunshine77 member
    Sending you a hug, Melissa, and hoping that next month is your month!

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  • meredithcarolemeredithcarole member
    Sorry to hear that.
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • CaraHCaraH member
    Darn it! It's so hard to wait on Mother Nature.
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  • kelley72kelley72 member
    So sorry... I usually feel bad for a day, then get ready to gear up and get on with it!
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  • tlc35tlc35 member
    I'm sorry, so frustrating.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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  • RadiantlyRadiantly member
    Sorry :( I'm in 5th month of timing it well too.  On DPO9 and already starting to feel like this month isn't the month. But that's to steel myself against the dissapointment. But I was just listening to an uplifting podcast saying you need to envision what you want to create it... and I haven't been doing much envisioning, so maybe thinking I need to imagine a blossoming uterus creating life. Maybe meditation on that.  Do you do any sort of visualizations?
    TTC#1 since Aug 2013, I'm 37, DH 41.  
    Maya Arvigo Abdominal massage (daily self care), plus TTC meditations.
    I'm very sensitive to diet (gluten, avoid processed foods) and environment. Have a history of inflammation and tendinitis before going off gluten in 2009.  
    July 2014 - RE Visit #1: Eggs look good, Endometrioma on R ovary, HSG showed blocked R tube close to ovary. DH SA normal 
    DX: Endometriosis probably the IF cause and gunking up tubes.  Since egg reserve is high, RE says I can wait a couple months and then get laproscopic surgery to remove endo & clear tube.  If that doesn't help then move to IVF. 
    Dec 2014 - Saw new RE - does not recommend surgery on tube as it isn't likely to help.  Doubts I have endometriosis.  My endometrioma shrunk to neglible size (yay!) 
    Seriously considering IVF in March/April
    12/17/14 - Natural BFP! 
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  • C_GirlieC_Girlie member
    Aww sorry bout the bfn. Why does things have to be so rough for some of us. Wishing all if us to those bfp's immediately. Good luck next cycle
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  • danieleandwaynedanieleandwayne member
    It's so easy to get down-- especially when you know that you have another couple weeks to wait to O and then another couple weeks to wait to POAS. The waiting is a killer. And the lack of control over much of this. 

    Hang in there. I know it's hard, but keep on keeping on. Enjoy your beer for now and start fresh on another day. ((hugs))
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    DD born 6/1/2013 after 15 months of TTC with one loss.    
    TTC #2: BFP 4/22 but stalled growth and no HB at 9w3d on 5/30        

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  • MelissaMisoMelissaMiso member
    @Radiantly I try to but certainly not regularly. I've been really trying hard to stay positive. We've had a string of poor luck these past couple of years (things beyond our control: job loss due to downsizing, house burglarized after Hurricane Irene, flooded with Hurricane Sandy, etc). I do my best to stay positive but sometimes life wears on you. Thanks for the reminder to keep my mind in the right direction on a daily basis.

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  • KirstenAleciaKirstenAlecia member
    FX for you @MelissaMiso. Look at all out "graduates" lately…..your time will come! :D
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    Me 38   DH 34
    married 05-21-11 
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    BFP- 10-16-14 EDD 6/13/15: MC 12-1-14 
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  • MoreTacosPleaseMoreTacosPlease member
    @MelissaMiso I'm right there with you on month 5. I've gone through "think positive," "no big deal," "next time!," "it'll never happen," and everything in between. And I've gone through my share of beers. 

    Onward to month six.... 
    Me:37;  Female Partner
    TTC#1 since 12/2013

    Natural Cycle IUI #1 : BFN, December 2013
    No surge, Possible No O: January 2014
    Natural Cycle IUI #2 : BFN, Feb 2014
    Natural Cycle IUI #3: BFN, March 2014
    HSG- all clear: April 2014
    Clomid + Ovidrel + Progesterone IUI #4: May 2014, BFN
    Clomid + Ovidrel + Progesterone IUI #5: June 2014, BFN
    Clomid + Ovidrel + Progesterone IUI #6: July 2014, BFN
    Clomid + Ovidrel + Progesterone IUI #7: September 2014, BFN
    Gonal-F + Ovidrel + Progesterone IUI #8: October 2014, BFN.
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  • Davie813Davie813 member
    I hear you (all of you).  Just finished cycle 6, and starting medical intervention.

    FX for all of us!
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    Me: 41, DH: 45
    DD, 6/15/2013
    TTC #2 beginning January 2014
    AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11

    July 2014: IUI #1.  Follistim + Pregnyl.  2 follicles--BFN
    September 2014: IUI #2.  Follistim + Pregnyl + Ganirelix + Crinone.  4(?) follicles--BFN
    October 2014: IUI #3.  More Follistim + More Ganirelix + Pregnyl + Crinone.  4 follicles--BFP!  Beta #1=10 Beta #2=33 Beta #3=97 Beta #4=158.  M/C 11/1/14
    December 2014: IVF #1.  Microdose Lupron protocol.  9R, 9M, 9F.  3 5-day blasts transferred 12/15. BFFN.
    April 2015: IVF #2.  Microdose Lupron protocol.  16R, 15M, 12F. Transferred 2 5-day blasts 4/12 and froze 4--BFP!  M/C 5/25/15
    August 2015: IVF #3.  14R, 13M, 11F.  Froze 5 blasts for CCS testing.  3 normals.  FET planned for 10/2015.



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  • URMySunshine77URMySunshine77 member
    Davie813 said:
    I hear you (all of you).  Just finished cycle 6, and starting medical intervention.

    FX for all of us!
    @Davie813: I hope that your procedure went smoothly if it was today. Hugs!

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    URMySunshine77 said:


    Davie813 said:

    I hear you (all of you).  Just finished cycle 6, and starting medical intervention.

    FX for all of us!

    @Davie813: I hope that your procedure went smoothly if it was today. Hugs!

    Thanks! HSG was today, and it went well!
    *****Signature/Ticker Warning******

    Me: 41, DH: 45
    DD, 6/15/2013
    TTC #2 beginning January 2014
    AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11

    July 2014: IUI #1.  Follistim + Pregnyl.  2 follicles--BFN
    September 2014: IUI #2.  Follistim + Pregnyl + Ganirelix + Crinone.  4(?) follicles--BFN
    October 2014: IUI #3.  More Follistim + More Ganirelix + Pregnyl + Crinone.  4 follicles--BFP!  Beta #1=10 Beta #2=33 Beta #3=97 Beta #4=158.  M/C 11/1/14
    December 2014: IVF #1.  Microdose Lupron protocol.  9R, 9M, 9F.  3 5-day blasts transferred 12/15. BFFN.
    April 2015: IVF #2.  Microdose Lupron protocol.  16R, 15M, 12F. Transferred 2 5-day blasts 4/12 and froze 4--BFP!  M/C 5/25/15
    August 2015: IVF #3.  14R, 13M, 11F.  Froze 5 blasts for CCS testing.  3 normals.  FET planned for 10/2015.



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  • URMySunshine77URMySunshine77 member
    Davie813 said:
    Davie813 said:
    I hear you (all of you).  Just finished cycle 6, and starting medical intervention.

    FX for all of us!
    @Davie813: I hope that your procedure went smoothly if it was today. Hugs!
    Thanks! HSG was today, and it went well!
    @Davie813: Sorry I missed the thread dedicated to this topic!! Have a good weekend, hon.

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  • JmaddisoJmaddiso member
    I'm buyin a round of shots in this thread!!
    @MelissaMiso I'm so sorry hun. I'm right there with you. Not that having good company is helpful, but sometimes i take comfort in knowing i'm not alone. Hence why i'm in this group. I tested twice this weekend and nothing. Even though my temps were elevated for the past 10 days. Today it took a small dip. SO frustrating. Trying to stay positive is where i struggle when it seems everyone around me is getting pregnant so easily. So what do we do? Have a day to be sad, angry, frustrated, etc., and put a smile on our faces tomorrow and keep going. We'll get our BFPs! Just not this month. Big hugs to you!!
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