Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
michelle654
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Broken heart
michelle654
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My DH and I conceived for the first time in January. We had been trying for 5 months though I refused to tell anyone. We were so excited when it finally happened, I took 8 HPT and then had the doctor confirm it! I wanted to wait to share our exciting news with others out of fear that this all-consuming joy would be taken from me but my DH was too excited so we told close family and friends and my work because I deal with teratogens regularly. We had 9 blissful days when we lost it (our baby was 6 weeks and 2 days). The next week two of our close friends announced their wives were pregnant due just a few weeks after ours. Two weeks ago our other close friend announced they were having baby #2. Today, my co-worker announced she is 9 weeks. I'm so happy for everyone but my heart aches for my baby. My DH is being beyond amazing and optimistic but I feel like I keep getting knocked down. I want my baby. I want to feel it kick and move. I want to have morning sickness, fatigue, bloating. I want to not be able to sleep or see my feet. At least it would mean I was going to get to meet my baby soon. My heart just aches, you know?
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Re: Broken heart
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
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[/RA with Sjogren's Syndrome. Risk of heart block in newborn. Age: DH and I are both 38.
BFP #1: 11/25/2007, EDD 7/28/2008 - Missed m/c (blighted ovum) 12/6/2007 6w3d, D&C 1/3/2008.
BFP #2: 4/2008 - Natural m/c at 6w.
Met with RE in 5/2008 full cycle analysis and SA normal. Not considered high risk for blood clots but prescribed 1 baby aspirin a day precautionary during TTC and Progesterone suppositories during 1st trimester of pregnancy.
BFP #3: 10/17/2008. EDD 6/23/2009, Third time's the charm! Healthy baby boy born 6/27/2009 via emergency c-section.
BFP #4: 6/14/2011. Healthy baby boy born 2/16/2012 via elective c-section.
BFP #5: 1/15/2014. EDD 9/22/2014. 2/17/14:.We have a BABY!!! Heart rate 167 and measuring on time. 3/10/14 u/s #2 baby measuring perfectly at 12 weeks at heart rate of 166. NT u/s was normal. Maternit21 blood draw on 3/5/14. Results back on 3/19 - Normal. It's a BOY!!! 4/10/14 at 16 weeks, 3 days discovered baby's heart stopped at 15 weeks, 6 days. D&C 4/11/14. Pathology results were all normal. New information on 8/11/14 - blood test revealed 1/3 of babys blood was in mine caused, most likely, by a tear in the placenta from extreme coughing. Doctor believes this to be the cause of death. Repeat D&C and Hysteroscopy scheduled for 8/19/14. My Chart