Just days after my D&C we were asked if I wanted to go back on birth control. I solidly said "no."
Then the grief sank in a bit more and I thought, maybe I do need some time. So I scheduled an appt to get on the pill. I arrived only to find that my doctor had JUST been called away to an emergency so I would have to reschedule.
Over that weekend I did some thinking and decided I'd be ready to do this again, lets just cancel the appointment.
Lately, I have MAJOR baby fever. Then there are days that I think about our loss & I am fine waiting.
In the end, I am NOT going back on the pill, just letting things go as they are supposed to. But constantly going up & down about it. Anyone else doing this?
Re: the struggle
(That being said this is my first loss, I know my emotional state would be greatly different if it was my second, third or tenth and I would want/need more time- my DH and I actually discussed this at length the other day through my tears and a lot of fear)