Need some good vibes... UPDATE

megaroo64 · June 2014

On Monday, I had to get a biopsy of my cervix. There is a troublesome lesion that we were all hoping would clear up on its own, but it hasn't and there is a real concern that this is cervical cancer. Currently, even if it IS cancer, they can't even do anything about it because I am 23 weeks pregnant- but if that is what the results are, I will have to be induced early so that it can be treated.

So... hopefully, I get results tomorrow and will know what I am dealing with.. but right now... I am spiraling. I know basically what the worst case scenario looks like (cancer, baby born early, possibly hysterectomy) but in my mind I am coming up with scenarios that are so so much worse. And then I get really annoyed with myself because I don't even know the results yet! It is a constant worry-shame cycle.

Anyway, I could use some good vibes... and possibly some funny gifs to help me stay distracted. Thanks in advance ladies!

Update: better late than never right?? I finally got results back this morning- they took the whole 7 days! But great news- no cancer!!! I have some abnormal cells that will need to be treated after the baby is born, but nothing to worry about now. I am so thankful it turned out this way- I was freaking out about the possibility of delivering early- and you know- the cancer part.

Again, thank you ladies so much for the good vibes! You ladies rule!

riansmommie · June 2014

Hang in there momma! I've been through what your going through and I know how your feeling. Everything worked out. I'll keep you in my T's&P's. Keep us updated once you get your results.

WasNotWas · June 2014

Sounds like you have your head on straight, but it's still ok to be scared. We are here if you need to feel your feelings in writing

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WasNotWas · June 2014

I can rub it, make it feel better...

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jmcgra06 · June 2014

Definitely keeping you in my thoughts!! Please keep us posted!

musicalsilver · June 2014

Sending lots of good vibes your way! I hope time passes super quick so it doesn't feel like you're waiting forever to hear results!

dmlk413 · June 2014

Thinking of you!

ASmallWonder · June 2014

I'm keeping you in my thoughts! I don't think anyone would be reacting differently so don't be hard on yourself. Just keep telling yourself that you don't know anything yet!

peachnectarine · June 2014

Hope you get good results tomorrow!

momofcatan · June 2014

Praying that everything comes out OK. Please keep us updated.

ohheyholly · June 2014

Good luck and many prayers!

ColieAnn31 · June 2014

Good vibes headed your way! I'll be thinking of you and hoping for an update with good news!

Megan32290 · June 2014

Prayers everything comes back clean!

Lizzybizzy80 · June 2014

Sending good thoughts and vibes your way. I was scared out of my mind waiting even after telling myself repeatedly it was going to be fine. I've been thinking about you since you said you would need a biopsy soon too. Don't be ashamed to have normal feelings! Big hugs!

itsStackie · June 2014

Praying.

BC&LM · June 2014

Prayers sent!

BunnyLove416 · June 2014

Thinking of you! And sending many positive thoughts your way.

TheTamedShrew · June 2014

Sending prayers and thoughts.

kh59 · June 2014

Thinking of you!

megaroo64 · June 2014

Thank you ladies so much. I will certainly keep you posted! On Monday, they said it would be between 3-7 days... 3 days would be tomorrow, and I don't even want to think about the possibility of having to wait 7 days. By that point, I will have played this out in my head like the Red Wedding.

Anyway, I really really appreciate all of the support. The only person that really knows about all this IRL is my H - and he is playing it really close to the belt and doesn't really want to talk about it at all. I should tell my mom... but I am not ready to deal with that mess. I know how she rolls... there will be about a million questions and I will probably know the answer to one of them. She will literally ask things like "Well, what do you think the doctor thinks about all of this?" Um... how the hell would I know what another person thinks!?!??!? Oh - and she has this fun habit of telling my siblings information that is way blown out of proportion. Don't want to deal with that mess either.

That got long. Anyway, I just really really appreciate the support and all of the good vibes and prayers. You ladies are seriously the best.

weddinginthecove · June 2014

Sending all the good thoughts your way and hoping for some speedy results from you that can stop your mind from racing.

GraceInCA · June 2014

Good luck! I hope it's benign.

Maelara · June 2014

My thoughts are with you! I'm so sorry you have to go through this, especially while pregnant. This gif always makes me laugh.

needanustart · June 2014

Good luck!!! Sending positive vibes! I had the same issue (not while pregnant though) and even though it was cancerous cells they were able to completely remove the legion and it was like, now you have cancer, wait three seconds, now you don't!