horrible end of the week...(BFP mentioned..not mine)

nmccombs11

hey girls I just need to rant for a min (or longer lol) yesterday I went to the RE to do labs for autoimmune stuff and have the results of my day 3 labs. first they poked me like 4 time to find my vain because I have had so much drawn in the last week that the good one isn't good anymore so they dug around in it to get their 5 tubes. then dr told me I have a hormone problem with my c-peptide so I am on meds for that( which isn't bad its a answer and that's what we want)

***BFP mentioned***

when I fially got home I wasn't feeling good so I took a nap and got woke up by my best friend  (the only friend with no kids!!) telling me she was a week late and was buying a PT. she came and got me and we went so she could take it.....BFP! I couldn't believe it.( she isn't read for kids yet) im trying to not be angry with her but now its all she talks about and she keeps asking if im mad and feels bad that its not me but its not helping. I feel horrible for feeling this way I just don't know what to do, she was my safe place and now I don't even have that. im just so angry that its so easy for some and we all have to fight like hell to have it. all I want to do is cry and hide.

so that's my rant for the day!!!

 

BunnyBerry

I'm so sorry! The amount of blood they take is starting to scare me too - don't we NEED that in our bodies?

It must feel really difficult that your childless friend who wasn't ready anyways is now PG...although in her own way she is trying to be sensitive, it sounds like it's hard to be the go-to person for all her excitement? I hope you are able to find peace in that situation.

Amazing817

Major hugs to you!!! 

I really get so friggin annoyed when people say "I hope your not mad" seriously such a cop out! But the worst statement is, I wish it was you and not me, also another throat punch statement! I have learned that the people closest to us sometimes are just the most insensitive. 

I'm sorry that this is happening around you, have a good cry and do something to get out of the house or just take some time to do something productive that will make you feel good. 

jencity9

((((Hugs)))) that really sucks and is so unfair. I'm glad you're friend realized this is difficult for you. It may mean that you have to tell her exactly how you want her to handle it around you. I think sometimes people don't know how to be

theholmanherd

I'm so sorry, honey. (((HUGS)))

StacyLH24

I'm so sorry. Big hugs to you! You are a very good friend. I'm not sure I would have gone with mine to get a PT and then be there while she got the result. Let's be honest, I wouldn't have and I would have been angry that she even asked me to go. I'm sorry that you lost your safe space

emmuffy

Sorry to hear about this experience. I completely empathize. Last night one of my childless friends (who has had fertility issues herself) told me she was pregnant. I was really happy for her but couldn't help feeling totally sad and left behind. It sucks feeling like the only one who can't seem to get pregnant and it sucks losing someone you can talk to about adult (non-baby)stuff. Hope you feel better soon.

nmccombs11

thanks ladies today was better...well compared to yesterday I would hope so. she is trying to be considerate and im coming around to it. I think yesterday it was just such a shock to us both. but I know she needs me now more then ever so I am really trying. its just nice to have a place to go that is safe and I don't have to worry.