I am just not happy today! The weather is bi-polar. Don't get me wrong, I love it outside (it's snow/raining), but today is just not a good day for me! My back has been hurting me so bad, and I am not sure why. Every morning I wake up, I feel like a 70 year old with an arthritic back. And, it's all my lower back, it makes it so hard to bend over to pick up and to lift DD out of her crib! The mattress is new(ish) but the same firmness of my last mattress which was great, but now I'm wondering if (since my body has changed because of DD) now I need to get another new mattress? Ugh! I don't have that kind of money! This is how I've been feeling the last couple of days:
I also have a wedding that I'm going to and I've been trying to find a sitter so I could go get my nails done (I don't want DD around all that smelly stuff, and what would she do at a nail salon anyway?). The Bride-to-be is like "how is it so difficult to find a sitter?". Umm... Because it is. A) You can't just call anybody, it has to be someone you know and trust and that your kid knows and trusts. They have to have an open night, too. As much as they may love your kid, they're not going to break their own plans just so I can get my nails done. This kid isn't theirs and they have a life. C) I know I have become some sort of asshole in your mind, but this is how things are when you have a child. Just wait. You'll find out. And then imagine what it would be like if daddy wasn't there to help. It's harder. Thanks for judging.
Anyway, I just don't want to go to this wedding anymore. It was such a huge deal to get a sitter, and find an outfit, and now deal with someone who gets mad that I can't do things with her anymore since DD. I just can't drop everything and go out anymore. And it's almost impossible to do the things she wants to do if I brought DD with me. I'm done. Ugh!