Pity Party, Table for 1?

chloebeth930

I hate to vent and run, especially when I haven't been so active lately, but I have no one else who would understand or at least not look at me like I'm crazy.

Here is my wonderful list of things that are making me want to curl up in a ball and cry.

1. I am currently on vacation in my DH and I's hometown.  We are staying at his parent's house (rookie mistake on my part). I am about to go insane and just check myself into a hotel.

2.  Pretty sure I am experiencing a CP.  With DD I had documented progesterone issues and I have suspected for a few months that is still the case.  The earliest I could get an appointment with my OB was for next week (when I called last month) and now I am just pissed off at myself for not forcing the issue sooner.  I had light BFPs starting on Friday, and today I started lightly bleeding (AF is due on Thursday).  Really sucks we got our hopes up and all excited just for this to happen.

3.  To pound the nail into the coffin here, DH filled me in that SIL just found out she is KU and is planning on announcing it this weekend before we leave.  Yes, you are remembering my awful SIL correctly.  The one who announced her BFP at 5 weeks just a month after my D&C (yes she knew about my m/c and D&C) and then her and MIL proceeded to spend the next hour showing my the baby shower invitations she had picked out and the theme she wanted for her baby's room.  It makes my CP this month sting all the more.

Sorry to just hop on and vent about this shitty vacation I am having, but I keep trying to talk to DH about how upset I am about the CP and SIL and he just isn't really getting it.  I can't believe I am saying this, but I have never wanted a vacation to hurry up and be over.

sergeantb44

I am sorry you are having such an awful time.  I know when I am having those moments ( or days) I tend to want to be alone in my thoughts.  Is there something there that you could go do to clear your head?  Walk, Run get a massage, eat at a favorite restaurant?  Be patient with yourself, maybe there is a reason that you could not get into your OB's office until now.  Try and keep your head up, but its ok to cry yell or be mad.  Goodness knows we all have those days!

 

Hugs to you!

Mom2anAngel2

((HUGS))

ProfessorPedals825

I'm so sorry things aren't going well.  I agree on getting out by yourself.  Go to a movie and lose yourself in popcorn if you have to.  I wish you the best and hope you can better talk to your husband once you're back home.  ((HUGS))

MJM3108

I'm so sorry you've got so much going on, and are having a crappy vacation. Ditto PP about getting some alone time. Sending T&P your way. Hope you and your H are able to talk soon. (((HUGS)))

october_artist

Oh I hate to read that you're having such a rough time right now.  I'm so sorry about the CP, regardless of how faint the BFP is, the dream and love is very VERY real.  Thinking of you, and hoping you get a couple moments away just for yourself.    

We can mope together - I'm not on vacation but I am feeling rather poopy.  I'm on CD 28 and still no 0, feeling hopeless, and yesterday thought mayyyybe I was about to O finally and then low and behold I wake up to the start of a YI.  yep, awesome.  Wish we were closer, I'd be down with meeting up and crying.  And drinking a martini.  Hugs to you @chloebeth930

SciChick

Oh my gosh, that sounds awful! I don't like the way your inlaws are showing zero sensitivity to you. I bet if you call the OB's office you can get a prescription for the progesterone, given your history. It couldn't hurt to make the call. Hang in there and I hope it's ok.

KikiCohen

Big hugs! I'm with PP, a call to your OB couldn't hurt. I have a family member that sounds very similar to your SIL. It takes a lot not to punch her. More hugs on that account.

HoolahZinger

Oh no, I am so very sorry. ((hugs))