Intro. Warning - children in sig

MeNV

I’ve been meaning to do an intro for a while, but it’s been overwhelming to try and type it out. My little girl was born at 18.5 weeks on April 19^th due to placental abruption. She only lived for a couple of minutes, but I replay those minutes in my mind over and over and over. They tried to stop contractions with multiple medications, but it couldn't be done. They checked on her via ultrasound right before I delivered her and she was perfectly fine. I watched her on the screen knowing that in moments my body would betray her and end her life. I feel so, so much guilt over this. My husband was so sick he couldn’t even look at the screen to see her healthy and safe one last time.  I’m back at work today and it hurts so much. I can’t believe I’m here with no baby inside. With no baby at home. Like she never even happened. 

BrittianyM

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

lexusolsen

I'm so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you today . I'm dreading my return to work tomorrow for the same reasons. Hang in there.

erinel

I'm very sorry for your loss

Noethola

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet daughter. We welcome you with open arms and ((hugs)). We wish no one had to experience this pain. 

mingaling2

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I know that guilt is the first feeling you feel, but please know you truly have nothing to feel guilty about. Of course, it's hard to get that out of your head when feeling so much pain.

stefuge

I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet little girl.  We all struggle with guilt and regret - what you are feeling is completely normal.  Know that we are here whenever you need us, and we would love to know your daughter's name (if you feel comfortable).  ((hugs))

shandorfml2

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet girl. Did she have a name?

Maybe Joleisa

I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby girl.

MeNV

Thank you all so much. Her name is Frances Marie, but we've had the name picked out for twelve years and always said it would be Frannie. 

kflynn81

So sorry for your loss....I absolutely love her name

gracie5107

I am so sorry for your loss.  I hope you can find some comfort here.  I love your daughter's name!

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter.

schulme2

I'm so sorry for your loss of your sweet Frannie. I Love her name!! I know a lot of us have the feeling of being guilty and feeling like our bodies betrayed our babies. Sending lots of prayers to you. We are all here for whatever you may need!

Bgirma

I am so sorry for your loss.

bunnybun4

so sorry for the loss of your sweet frannie.  please use the board as much as you want.  ((hugs))

angelsnight

Ticker warning

I'm so sorry for the loss of your little girl.  I felt and still do feel the guilt over my body failing my daughter.  Like you, there was absolutely nothing wrong with my baby, but my body couldn't keep her safe and she was born sleeping at 22 weeks.  When your number one job as a mother is supposed to be to protect your baby, it's a horrible feeling not to be able to, even when it was completely out of our control.

I'm not sure if someone else already posted this, but this article helped me immensely.  Even a year later, I still have to read it on occasion to drive the point home, but when I do, it helps.  Big hugs to you.

https://stillstandingmag.com/2013/06/why-you-didnt-fail-as-a-mother/
 

mingaling2

Beautiful name

JessicaG220

**Siggy warning**

I am so very sorry for your loss. It is an awful experience to live through. You have found a very supportive and wonderful place full of women who understand your pain. Sending you many hugs.

ikrystal

I'm so sorry about your little Frannie.  Love, hugs, and thoughts to you and your family. 

VyD81

I'm sorry for the loss of your daughter Frannie. Hugs.

LyndseyTS

I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter, but I'm glad that you shared your story with us. This group has been super supportive for me as often or as little as you need them. Sending hugs your way.

Jellybean71514

I am so sorry for your loss, many of us here share similar experiences and feelings so please use this board for support as much as you need it has helped me tremendously after losing my son. *hugs* xo