I've had issues with breast feeding from the beginning. My supply was never enough to feed LO, so we've been supplementing with formula and I've been exclusively pumping since week one. In the beginning I would get 2 to 3 ounces per pump session. Well, my supply has steadily tanked over time - LO is six weeks now - and it's to the point that I now get about half an ounce between both sides per session. It is very depressing. (This is on top of the physical ailments related to BFing; I've had nearly problem a person can have.) It has taken a toll on me, but the thing is I like doing it. It makes me so happy to pump and then feed LO what I've made, even though it is currently taking about four pump sessions to make a halfway decent bottle for her. I never got to experience anything BF related with DD1, so this has been special for me this time around. So, I guess that's my vent - I'm sad and disappointed that my body just won't cooperate with this.
I've been deciding whether it's worth it to keep going. As much as I love giving LO a bottle of my milk each day, at some point I have to draw the line and say that the tiny amount of output I'm getting does not justify the mental/physical toll on me. So, my question is: can milk supply magically come back? If there is any way I could make more milk I'd be thrilled, but now that it's dwindled down to almost nothing, is it a lost cause? No one, from doctors to nurses to lactation consultants could ever answer why my milk supply was so low, they all just said that some women just don't produce. I don't know if trying a bunch of special teas or herbs or whatever would even work this late in the game. Would you try harder, even though it's probably hopeless, or would you just quit? Is there a magic trick I don't know about? Someone mentioned brewers yeast to me but I haven't tried it yet because I can't find it here, I'll have to order it. Do any of you have any stories like this that have a happy ending?
Re: BF vent/question
Again, thanks to all you for your help. I guess I was just feeling like at this point my supply was established and I wasn't sure if there was anything I do could about it. I'll try all of these things for another week or two and if it doesn't work, I'll stop. I have no problem with FF, my DD was exclusively FF (never got any BM - long story), and she's fine. I am just enjoying this experience with this LO and am sad at the thought of it ending already.
Have a great Sunday, ladies!
ETA: Yes, it does that! The white thing is totally not going in and out in a straight manner, but leaning to one side. And when I turn it up high it starts going side to side. WTF? Definitely calling Medela tomorrow morning. It will be so much easier to call now that I know what the problem is. Thank you so much for pointing this out!
So basically I went from 90% formula to 20% formula to no formula very quickly. But I was at 90% formula til a couple weeks ago.
In the beginning, I could pump twice a day and make enough milk for her whole day's bottles. I pump in the morning, which is stressful if she's fussy (I tried hands free and did not get as much). I pump in the evening when DH is home. I actually like this because it's my only alone time all day and I watch tv. But we have to plan any evening activities around it, or else I pump late and get less. Plus I only get so much time with DH each day.
Anyway, pumping twice is no longer enough as I am getting a lot less. Now I make 2-3 bottles a day with my 2 sessions. I still love giving those to her. I think I should try to pump more often, but I just don't think I can.
Also, she has been gassy and we are wondering if it's from something I eat. Since she gets the breast milk hours or days later, we haven't determined anything.
The past few days she has had only sensitive formula, and she has done well. I have a good storage of BM which she will get all day tomorrow. If she's not doing well, I am going to have to make changes in my diet.
I love giving her breast milk, but I just don't know.