PPD / Mental Health Check In?

aditigirl

Anyone up for this? I'm having a rough day and would love to commiserate.

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MamatoA2010

@haygurlhay- Huge hugs! My day was ok, not stellar but not horrible either. This shitty weather doesn't help. Still dealing with anxiety though but was able to walk into Target without having an anxiety attack, so huge improvement for me!

MrsT0514

@haygurlhay‌ Im sorry you're struggling. I dont think its very fair for anyone to "expect you" to just get over a loved one's death. Grief is not a cut and dry thing. Like you said, you are only human, and you have your own way of grieving. I wish I could give you a huge squishy booby hug!!

Ive been much better since our last check in. My anxiety has diminished greatly, partly bc of hormones (I swear my hormones play a HUGE part of when I feel anxious), and partly bc My therapist has been helping me talk through it. It helps to be aware of when my mind is running away with anxious thoughts, and I'm beginning to utilize better methods of controlling those thoughts and letting things go, so the "what ifs" dont take over my thoughts. I've been reinforcing alot of positive thoughts by thinking of all I have to be grateful for, and stopping the obsessive "what if" thought processes.

DS's EI eval is monday, and I'm feeling ok about it. We had his hearing test today and they found some fluid behind his right ear drum still, which could potentially impact speech, so we'll befollowing up with the ENT to discuss whether he will need tubes or not.

minervacullen

Can I join? No one IRL gets my PPD turned depression.
It's mainly "take a walk, you'll feel better... Girl you need some wine!... Just get over it already."

I was doing well until sick toddler=no sleep, plans to see my mom fell through because she has to have surgery ASAP. DH injured his rhomboid and is not doing well, so all child care and house work has fallen to me. I stay home, but I just can't deal with it all.
And I'm mad I found out I can't have gluten and can't eat all of the yummy fair food next week at my towns festival. I tried eating gluten a couple weeks ago, it ended badly.
I'm also due for my b12 injection and forgot my new insurance information when I went to get it. That little vial helps me SOOO much.

@haygurlhay‌ people are jerks. I'm sorry no one understands. I wouldn't want to celebrate it either. Grieving is a very personal thing, you can generalize it.

@MrsT0514‌ those "what ifs" are killer. Do you find the therapist helps more than you thought they would?

MrsT0514

@minervacullen‌ Honestly, I'm a talker by nature...so talking out my problems helps me, as I expected it would. I will say though, having an unbiased, neutral, professional opinion on certain things (ie my therapist), definitely helps. She deals with all walk of life in her patients, so it's ultimately very comforting and encouraging to hear her tell me that what I'm feeling is normal and I don't necessarily need to be medicated.

I'm a huge believer in cognitive behavioral therapy before resorting to meds, and I will say, that in my personal experience, having someone to unload everything to has been an enormous help.

Eta...I'm not trying to overshadow the fact that meds that their very appropriate and useful place in one's treatment plan...just saying that having my therapist has helped ME a great deal instead of going straight to anxiety meds off the bat without exploring other options first. :-)

my5sons

It's been a crappy, stressful day to cap off an equally crappy, stressful week.

Stick a fork in me, I am DONE.

jesuisfatiguee

@haygurlhay - I'm so sorry  

I wish I could hug everyone on this thread. Parenting is hard enough without having to deal with all of this, too. 

Bedtime this week has been a nightmare for us, making all my stuffed down ~crap~  rise to the surface. Plus after about 45 minutes of nursing and nipple tweaking, it starts to get a little triggering. Like a switch flips and I'm on the brink of a breakdown. Trying to stick with the yoga, which does help, but I know it's not really enough. I'm just so tired of feeling like I'm going to lose my shit every other day… or sometimes every day  

ToastieSimons

haygurlhay said:

I'm not looking forward to Mother's Day obvious reasons. I'm tired of people thinking I should be over my mom/grandma's death. I'm tired. I'm only human. /dear diary

I'm sorry. I would think that no matter how long it's been and how "over" their deaths you are that Mother's Day would always bring up difficult feelings. I mean its a day to honor our moms and grandmas and sometimes that is with sorrow.

wiggyslilsis

Something happened recently and my on the edge anxiety lifted. I can drive places by myself without getting in my head and causing a panic attack and I can go to the store for a quick trip without having a panic attack. I just feel good. I think the weather might have helped.

My mom seems to think that the really low dose antidepressant I take for my migraines has fixed everything. I am not sure...I take 20mg a night and a dose for depression is like 150mg throughout the day.

I have some major issues surrounding seizures DD had a year ago. I can't believe it has bee a year. DD got dizzy on the tire swing at the park and fell down and her eyes were going back and forth. Looked almost exactly like her seizures. I am freaked out but I am so proud of myself for not losing it right there.

JoJo716

I just want to say thank you to everyone posting. I am a lurker but have been having some really bad anxiety/panic episodes this week. Your stories made me feel less alone.

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martha919

Can I join? I've struggled with anxiety and depression in the past, and it seems to be creeping up on me again. :-(

DH has been working late for 6 months and between that and me wishing I was working rather than SAH but being stuck is not helping. DD has multiple food allergies as well, which contributes to my anxiety.

Anyway, we had a huge fight today and I wish it were tomorrow night already because DH is going to Seattle until Thursday so no fighting! But then I'm worried about being alone with my toddler that whole time. Ugh.

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martha919

K thanks, ladies! I'm glad y'all are here, but I'm sorry we're struggling.

Ardmhs83

Feeling pretty good day. Baby boy is sick with a fever and cold symptoms. Laying in our bed with him now, trying to get him to nap.
As far as my mental health, I feel pretty good other than the fact that I want to TTC #2 soon and I'm feeaking out about all the what ifs of birth and possibly using meds while pregnant and nursing . Sucks terribly!