Faith Friday

LyndseyTS

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. “
Matthew 11:28-30

Our grief journeys can be all over the place. How "heavy laden" or weary are you feeling lately?

Have you felt that God has given you rest on this journey? If yes, how?

Any new struggles/revelations this week?

ETA: Fix the formatting. My iPad fails.

Noethola

I just wanted to share a praise update, since I told you all about my sister. The tests came back negative for any genetic disorders (praise the Lord!) but there is still fluid around the baby's heart. Hopefully  it will right itself as the pregnancy progresses. Thank you for your prayers!

And in answer to your questions, this burden was heavy on my heart. I hurt for my sister and the possibility that she would have to experience my pain. God has given us all peace through this journey. He gives us good updates like this one to hold on to.

Maybe Joleisa

That is wonderful news about your sister, @Noethola‌ ! My struggle this week is the same as the struggle since the day of our loss: my faith. Every Sunday I think about returning to church, but every Sunday I make excuses. I know it sounds silly, but I'm afraid I'm just going to go there and cry and cry and cry. (I'm not one of those quiet criers--it gets ugly.) This Sunday? We'll see...

LyndseyTS

@Noethola I am so glad that the tests came back good. It's so scary. I will continue to pray about the fluid around your sister's little one's heart and that it will resolve itself quickly. I'm thankful for a sense of peace too, but sometimes I feel pretty alone.

@Maybe Joleisa‌ I cried through the first 3 (I think) services after losing Serenity (I'm not a super quiet crier either...). I felt really awkward about it, but it was a healing experience. I also sat near the front so that if people wanted to talk to me, they would need to go out of their way to do so before escaping the church. It isn't silly at all. Honestly. And sometimes (oddly enough), some of the silliest (stupidest?) comments come from well-meaning (but very misguided) people within the church. I'll be thinking of you this Sunday. I believe in you!

I guess I should answer my own questions now that I have the chance.

Our grief journeys can be all over the place. How "heavy laden" or weary are you feeling lately?
I'm definitely feeling weary. I feel like it's just one thing after another and I hate to complain because we've all got similar struggles, but I'm just feeling pretty bashed up. I just found out that a friend of mine is pregnant and due 2 days after Serenity's EDD. I'm super torn because I'm happy for her (she has struggled with infertility), but it just sort of cuts like a knife.

Have you felt that God has given you rest on this journey? If yes, how?
Sometimes I feel like God gives me rest. I have my good moments where I feel like I can trust Him and try to figure out what he wants me to "do" with this, how He will bring something positive out of it (because it definitely isn't positive in and of itself). Other times I just don't feel like He's near and I just feel super far away. Any new struggles/revelations this week? Not really. I'm just still all over the map. I'm hoping that taking on a new job wasn't a stupid decision.

ETA: Formatting Fixed.

diamante1181

I find myself on a roller coaster. Most of the time it is up, but when it's down I go underground. Sometimes talking about it helps, sometimes it doesn't. When I'm feeling hopeful, I feel good in my faith, but when I'm down I realize just how fragile my relationship with God truly is. He can make all things possible, so why could He not save my twins? Why am I cursed with infertility? I'm just a sinner, not a saint, but what kind of surrender is God expecting from me, when I feel I have so little? These are just my thoughts over the past few days. Sorry if I got anyone down.

jonahsma

Our grief journeys can be all over the place. How "heavy laden" or weary are you feeling lately? I am sad, but I have accepted what has happened. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my baby.

 Have you felt that God has given you rest on this journey? Yes, I find comfort in praising him through this storm and everything else that comes my way good or bad.. I've said it before and I still feel that God is pulling me through, he is breathing life into me and bringing back from "death"

 Any new struggles/revelations this week? I amazed at how I could just open my bible and the first verse I read applies to how I am feeling at the moment, It reminds me that God is listening to me always.  

schulme2

Just wanted to jump on real quick @LyndseyTS‌ Thank you for doing the update this week!!! Awesome job! @Noethola‌ I am soooo glad to hear that about your sister! Praise God! Will continue to pray for the baby's fluid issue to resolve!!

gracie5107

@noethola I'm praying for your sister's baby!  It's encouraging that the test results were normal. 

LyndseyTS said:

 Have you felt that God has given you rest on this journey? If yes, how? Sometimes I feel like God gives me rest. I have my good moments where I feel like I can trust Him and try to figure out what he wants me to "do" with this, how He will bring something positive out of it (because it definitely isn't positive in and of itself). Other times I just don't feel like He's near and I just feel super far away. Any new struggles/revelations this week? Not really. I'm just still all over the map. I'm hoping that taking on a new job wasn't a stupid decision. I'm still on my iPad, so I'll fix the formatting tomorrow.

@LyndseyTS I could have written this exactly.  I very much feel that I have periods of peace and rest and that God brings me those.  However, at other times I feel like He is not around me and I can't figure out what He wants me to do, what the path is He wants me to take.