Those IF goggles sure come back fast

ColleenS629

DH and I started talking about TTC again in January, met with our RE in March, did our testing this cycle, and will do our FET in May. Since we began discussing it, we've had 3 pregnancy announcements from people close to us and the pregnant people around me are multiplying like crazy. I felt like every woman I saw at Wegman's this morning was pregnant. I'm finding myself caught off guard by the jealousy and bitterness I am feeling. I didn't expect these feelings to be so strong this time around because I am so, so thankful for my boys.

TJ1979

Hugs. No doubt about it, IF changes us forever.

bumpuser6119831

We are in that horrible cycle right now and it feels so much worse this time around. We have actually talked about going to see a therapist.

Jenny935

I was surprised in the same way.  Hugs to you.

Aliki

TJ1979 said:

Hugs. No doubt about it, IF changes us forever.

You couldn't have said it better.

Hugs.

Dragonfly1226

It's crazy how the IF feelings come rushing back.

kmc84

((Hugs)) we are in the same boat! It seems to be getting worse as we get closer to our June ER/ET....

JBDamonM

I could've written this post myself. DH and I plan on going back to the RE in a couple of months ourselves.......and hopefully do an FET a couple months later. In the meantime, AlL of DHS friends wives are pregnant and I've been feeling so bitter and jealous about it. I hate myself for feeling like this, especially since I already have my beautiful, adorable LO but I still can't stifle it. Plus, something very similar happened when we were TTC number 1 and had two friends have a baby a week apart.....that lead to the worst IF breakdown I ever had, crying all afternoon at work with my office door closed. And here we go again - like I can't catch a break sorry, I didn't mean to hijack your post

MoFree

I refer to IF as the gift that keeps on giving. I was concerned that TTC #2 would awaken the ugly green eyed monster and unfortunately I was right.

I wish I didn't but two unsuccessful FETs while the whole world is pregnant causes me to feel the same jealousy, rage, resentment and bitterness towards the haves. Then I try to remember how it felt to be childless and that helps a little.

GL to you.

efhoping2010

IF makes us forever changed, even when treatments do work.