FFFC

hlm184

Whose got some?  Spill!

hlm184

I keep a stash of those little tiny bottles of wine by my bed for midnight cluster feedings.

ASasquatch

I was feeling really stabby and jealous toward the end of March and until probably last week about all the birth stories that seemed to take over the board and didn't want to read any of them. Now that I feel like a ticking time bomb and this could go down any minute, I have a compulsive need to read them all.

Emily041285

I feel zero connection to dd while breastfeeding. It's like I'm just checking something off my to do list each time I nurse. I feel terrible saying that because I've had zero supply issues, and while we use a shield she latches no problem.

Part of me actually wanted the pediatrician to tell me I had to use formula because she wasn't gaining enough.

MamaFantastic

I sleep much better now than I did my entire third trimester. I got 6 hours in a row last night!

deidremaria

I'm a tiny tiny bit glad my baby was born after my big sister left because that's one less person giving me unsolicited advice (in person at least) about what I should do with Dylan (based on what they did with their own babies). I feel sooo guilty about this because she spent so much money coming down from NY and we were fully aware there was the chance he'd come after she left. She was her for 3 weeks.

AmberLiz99

Emily041285 said:

I feel zero connection to dd while breastfeeding. It's like I'm just checking something off my to do list each time I nurse. I feel terrible saying that because I've had zero supply issues, and while we use a shield she latches no problem.

Part of me actually wanted the pediatrician to tell me I had to use formula because she wasn't gaining enough.

I kind of hope bf doesn't work for us. I FF ds and it went so smoothly, I really have no desire to bf. I feel bad for that, but it's the truth.

deidremaria

@dani+california‌ how's pumping working?

Rogue237

dani+california said:

I feel zero connection to dd while breastfeeding. It's like I'm just checking something off my to do list each time I nurse. I feel terrible saying that because I've had zero supply issues, and while we use a shield she latches no problem. Part of me actually wanted the pediatrician to tell me I had to use formula because she wasn't gaining enough.

Yep. I hate breastfeeding. Hate it.

Yeah, if it was every 5 hours or something, I think it wouldn't be taking a toll on my sanity, but DD is small so it's literally every 2 hours. I dread night time!

zoopsiedaisy

I'm jealous of the May ladies who are having babies or getting close. I'm due 4/27 and its not fair that I might go to May. Childish? Yes. Do I care? Nope.

strawberrytree

I am the mom who saves her kids' dried up umbilical cord stumps and tapes them into the baby book.

strawberrytree

Also, I bedshared with DS the night we spent in the hospital. And every night since. I told my doctor and she told me she bedshared too.

eireyes

I really hate that DH is back at work since that means all the responsibility for Aiden falls to me for about 18 hours of the day. I love taking care of my little man, but I would love if DH were a little more forward in his desire to have Daddy time. I know he's jealous of all the time I get, but he comes home and acts like nothing has changed, and sometimes I just want to smack him upside the head. He thinks I'm a mind reader!

maelic

I hate breastfeeding too. It's not even that hard now that we use a shield it's just... neverending. I want my body back. Last night baby spent 4 hours straight attached to my nipples. My husband went out to the gym, to the store, to get food, and I sat on the couch and fed her. 

Same deal this morning and I have a work call at 2pm. My husband says I should try to feed her as close to that as possible. No shit, I just wish it were that easy. She doesn't exactly eat on my schedule. 

It's just destroying me psychologically and emotionally. I need to feel like a person again and not a freaking dairy bar. 

sking72

I hate breast feeding, and like pp said, feel guilty about it because other than pain, I haven't had issues. What makes it worse is every nighttime feeding I think about the poster that was hanging in triage that said "breast feeding is my favorite part of the day!" With a woman smiling on it with her baby. And I just think of how much bull shit that is.

We also bed share.

MissWhis

My confession:

I lost all the baby weight by my 2 week pp visit. And I eat ice cream every day. I LOVE breast feeding.

christinanoelle

dani+california said:

Emily041285 said:

I feel zero connection to dd while breastfeeding. It's like I'm just checking something off my to do list each time I nurse. I feel terrible saying that because I've had zero supply issues, and while we use a shield she latches no problem.

Part of me actually wanted the pediatrician to tell me I had to use formula because she wasn't gaining enough.

Yep.

I hate breastfeeding. Hate it.

Glad I'm not the only one..

snmetz7

1. We bed share unintentionally. We will both fall asleep with her nursing.

2. I don't hate bf but I don't love it. Seriously considering ep but giving it till the one month mark.

3. I'm 9 lbs down from pre preg weight after two weeks. And I don't care that I'm flaunting it!

My fffc- I pretended not to hear dd crying to feed last night so that h would get up and give her a bottle of pumped milk so that I could keep sleeping.

ksulli

@lia619 said:

Also, I don't know how to go about starting pumping and it makes me feel dumb.

With DD1 I started pumping at 4w by doing one pump session about an hour after our first daytime nursing session. I was still somewhat full from the overnight, but it was close enough to the first nursing session that I wasn't worried about being tapped out when she wanted to eat again.

ksulli

I look better in underwear than fully dressed. With pants on I get a muffin top, but I say they fit because I'm too proud to leave the house in maternity wear or sweats.

Emily041285

dani+california said:

Im starting pumping today for some BF relief, because I can't take it emotionally anymore.

I'm jealous of women who are cool with it, but I can't be attached at the nips to my baby every 3 hours for the next month. I will go insane.

We have our one month appt in two weeks and I'm going to discuss pumping with the dr. DD hasn't slept longer than an hr for almost two days now and I am going crazy. I had to wake DH last night to take her because I was close to smothering him for getting sleep when I wasn't.

Ashleypixie

It really bugs me when people say, "you'll lose the weight." I've never asked anyone if I would! I'll just mention that I'm looking forward to wearing normal clothes soon, or that I'm starting to eat a little healthier. It's so rude to acknowledge THE WEIGHT. I am aware of it and I don't need your pity and how about just saying, "You look great and so well rested!" Maybe I'm just too sensitive and hormoney but it's offensive. And fuck, I've lost 15lbs now in six days and granted that's half baby but a little credit please!!!

MissWhis

Another confession:

I lost all the baby weight two weeks ago and I'm still wearing nothing but leggings.

1) My "regular" pants just aren't comfy enough.

2) The weight may be gone, but things still aren't the same shape they used to be... And I don't know if they ever will get back there. I'm cool with that.

blahswife

I let LO sleep till 4 in the morning without feeding she's 2.5lbs above birth weight at 3 weeks so I'm ok with it.

nursewinnie

I'm seriously on the verge of quitting pumping. I've been EP'ing since day one and I'm getting really sick of being stuck on the pump all day. It's seriously makes everything more tedious. I can't just feed LO and change her, I have to spend an additional 30-45 min on the machine. Even after that much time I'm still producing so I just quit after that time span. FF isn't necessarily what I want but it would be so much easier than having to be sure I'm near the pump every 2-3 hours.

ksulli

I feel like more of a dairy cow/science project when pumping than BFing. As much as I've had enough of a baby on the boob, it's preferable to the alternative for me.

Kyllarae

I only breastfeed so her dad can't ask to take her somewhere without me or overnight. I don't trust him at all with the baby.

Emily041285

That's hysterical @Vinny424‌ and so true right now!!

snowbound

I like breastfeeding but I am getting discouraged by the pain and the fact that my milk is taking forever so LO is always sucking super hard.

deidremaria

It's not a coincidence that my son's onesie, bib and blanket are color coordinated. I know there may be times that I'll be too overwhelmed to match things so I figure I'll take advantage of the times I'm not.

ksulli

Vinny424 said:

ksulli said:

I look better in underwear than fully dressed. With pants on I get a muffin top, but I say they fit because I'm too proud to leave the house in maternity wear or sweats.

I request the highest of fives for that response. I do try to find looser fitting tops.

rtv3

I really really don't want to go overdue (due 4/28). Not because I'm huge and uncomfortable (which I am) and not because I really want to meet my daughter (which I do) but because I don't want my SIL to be right. I love her to pieces but she's been swearing this whole pregnancy that I'll go overdue. And I really want to prove her wrong...

Rrrrrachel

If you hate breastfeeding why not quit?

Emily041285

Rrrrrachel said:

If you hate breastfeeding why not quit?

Honestly for me it's the guilt. I know it's better for her and I would feel like I didn't try hard enough. I keep hoping it gets better, if she would just sleep a little longer in between feedings I think it wouldn't be so rough for me. So I'm going to stick it out to our 1 month appt and reevaluate.

ksulli

Rrrrrachel said:

If you hate breastfeeding why not quit?

I almost hate it for the first month-ish. Then it is just so easy and convenient because you never have to pack food or think about how long you'll be out. Endless buffet is built in. Once they start sleeping better, you can still go on date night (a little later in the evening) and not pump, so the only hassle is if you go away overnight or for a long day, but I'd rather not leave LO anyway.

sking72

Rrrrrachel said:

If you hate breastfeeding why not quit?

Expense. Why buy the cow when you get the milk for free? Haha, I know that's not what the saying means, but I can't justify making SO spend his money (because I'm not really working right now) just because I don't like doing it. We're starting this pumping thing out, but can't do it exclusively yet.

sking72

Oh, and fitting into pants: I don't want to try my pre-pregnant pants on because I know my thighs have not shrunk all the way back. I don't want to even think about it, so it's maternity pants and yoga pants until then.

deidremaria

As much as I am pro breastfeeding I'm more pro overall health of baby and mommy. You both deserve to be healthy and happy and if you aren't happy it affects your overall health. Formula is not poison people! Don't feel guilty about using it. Enjoy this time with your baby. If that means switching to formula go for it!

Rrrrrachel

Yeah it being hard is different than hating it, to me.

Rrrrrachel

I'm glad it's getting better and I hope it keeps moving that direction for you.

deidremaria

ColleenSwerb said:

I'm not a lovey dovey breast feeder either, or at least I wasn't with my first. I did it because it worked and I had no real reason not to.
But if I HATED it, I would quit. My sanity is worth the expense of formula. Who wants to resent their little baby all the time and miss all the good stuff? That's just crazy.

All of this. Breastfeeding is working for Dylan and I but lord knows if I HATED it I wouldn't do it. On our first two nights it was in fact hard and caused me to start despising it and I did let my bf know that formula is a strong possibility. Dylan had formula for all feedings on our first night home (which was our 3rd night since birth) and my milk came in the very next morning. Once my milk came in it got waaaayyy better. I'm not all lovey dovey bonding over BF either but i can't say I dislike or hate it.