Pregnant after IF

If only...(some Thursday snark for you)

A woman just posted on 1st trimester board that her transvaginal u/s was the most embarrassing and uncomfortable test she has ever had (completely paraphrasing)

If only I haven't had the dildo cam probably close to 50 times AND watched another woman have the dildo cam so she can carry our child, then maybe I might have some sympathy for you.

I just needed to let that out, and though the vent might be better appreciated on this board.

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TTC #1 since 12/2010 DH: MFI, cancer survivor Me: Resected septate uterus, lap treated mild endo, tubes open, ovulate on own, autoimmune disease 3 Failed IUI's (2/2012, 4/2012, 6/2012) 
IVF #1 August 2012. BFP! Beta #1 56.7 Beta #2 150 One baby, one heartbeat on 9/20/12! no h/b @7w6d. dandc @8w0d
FET #1 December 2012, BFN
FET #2 February 2013, no embies survived thaw
IVF #2, BFP #2, Loss #2 March 2013, Scar tissue discovered, RPL testing,
IVF #3, BFP #3, Loss #3 (twins) September 2013
Hostile ute, moving onto Gestational Carrier!

GC/FET #1 of 1 5AA blast and 1 compacted blast, February 2014, BFP #4 on 3/1/2014!
6w u/s 1 bean with h/b of 145 bpm, 8w u/s 187 bpm
EDD 11/7/14. Please, please, please stick little one!

Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!

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Re: If only...(some Thursday snark for you)

  • Haha! Wow, she's in for a rude awakening! My ob was practically elbow deep in my vag doing a cervical check yesterday...nbd. Seriously, after giving birth once and dealing with infertility...I have no shame anymore.
    DH & I: 29
    TTC #1 4/2009 -  DD 2/5/10
    TTC #2 since October 2011
    2IF issues
    7/2013 - IUI #1: 50 units Follistim +  Ovidrel  = BFN
    8/2013 - IUI #2: 50 units Follistim +  Ovidrel  = BFP! Beta #1 (12 dpiui) 8/21: 45  Beta #2 (16 dpiui) 8/26: 301 Beta #3 (21 dpiui) 8/30: 1,929. 1st Ultrasound 9/4 - One perfect sac. 2nd Ultrasound 9/13 - Heartbeat at 124 bpm! Anniversary  

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  • Haha. So true. It's amazing how quickly the "vagicwand" becomes a part of our life. (I'm not saying that it isn't traumatic the first time or subsequent times. Just that it's a whole different set of experiences PAIF folks have.)

    Also, I think having a transvaginal ultrasound in order to see your baby's growth and heartbeat is a totally different experience than having the transvaginal ultrasound to tell you once again that infertility is ruling the day and your body is not doing any of the things you've poured your heart, time, and money into making it do. Just saying!

    My most embarrassing and uncomfortable test was the HSG when my bilaterally blocked tubes swelled up like water balloons and I screamed so loud that I scared the folks in the waiting room--a fact I learned when I had to go past them all to change out of my gown.
    ****loss discussed*****

    We're queer. I'm 33, have severe stage 4 endo, and had both fallopian tubes removed. My love ("Manada" on the boards, 32) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tavin and Casey at 21 weeks gestation.

    Our IUIs
    with @Manada: IUI# 1-7 (December 2012- September 2013) all BFN. Tried natural, femara, clomid, puregon/follistim, clomid and menopur combo, both the ovidrel and HCG triggers.

    Our IVFs:
    IVF #1 my eggs November/December 2013: Cancelled IVF due to poor response

    IVF #2 my eggs/Manada's uterus January/February 2014
    BCPs and lupron overlap Stimmed: 1/22-2/2: Bravelle and Menopur (dosage ranged from B300 and M150 to B375 and M150 to B300 and M225)
    2/4 retrieved 10 eggs. Endo was much worse than expected. Only 3 eggs fertilized; February 7 transferred two day 3 embryos, froze one. All great condition.
    BFP eve of 6dp3dt; Beta 1 (11dp3dt): 110; Beta 2 (13dp3dt): 175; Beta 3 (15dp3dt): 348; Beta 4 (19dp3dt): 2222; Beta 5 (21dp3dt): 4255
    1st ultrasound (3/6  6w 1d): TWINS!!!! Twin A measuring 6w1d with a heartbeat of 118bpm. Twin B measuring 6w0d with a heartbeat of 113bpm. 

    ***July 18, 2014 we lost our beautiful babies at 21 weeks gestation. They were born too early. Tavin Sara T. and Casey Elizabeth T. are beautiful and precious and we will love them and miss them forever.***

    FET #1 December 2014
    Intralipid infusion on Dec 10. Transfer of 1 day 3 nine-cell embryo into my uterus on Dec. 19. (acupuncture immediately before and after)
    BFP on Dec. 27; Beta 1 Jan 2 (14dp3dt): 665, Beta 2 Jan 4 (16dp3dt): 1859, Beta 3 Jan 6 (18dp3dt): 4449, Beta 4 Jan 10 (22dp3dt): 12,251.



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  • I seen her post on First Tri too.  I just kinda giggled to myself.  I had a date with the vagcam today myself, but don't need to be a drama queen about it!

    Sometimes I can't stomach fertile people and their drama.  If she knew how many rough vagcam dates we've gone through for months on end, she would shut her trap!

  • Here, here! People who have never gone through treatments don't realize what we have had to endure- and even continue to endure after the much sought after BFP. It has become so routine to me (the dildocam) that I don't bat an eye anymore.

    Our perspectives (pg vs PAIF or PGAL) are sooo different that I eye roll many things on the tri boards.
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    Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
    4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
    Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
     6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
    1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
    Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
    2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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  • Any modesty that I may have had at some point is loooooong gone. I assumed that most of my first tri USs would be vagcam so when I went to my 8 week OB appt and started stripping waist down in the US room the doctor got uncomfortable and was like, oh no we're doing abdominal this time. Graduating from the vagcam was an exciting day!! Naive fertiles. Although I probably would've been more traumatized by it the first time if an IRL IF friend hadn't warned me in advance.

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    Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
    Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
    Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!

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    I saw that and laughed to myself about it. 

    When I went to my first OB appointment when I was pregnant with DS, the u/s tech asked me if I would feel more comfortable inserting the probe myself.  I laughed and told her that I was a pro and to go for it.  Luckily DH sort of explained that a little further because, unless she read my chart, that could sound pretty bad!!

     

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    Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

    IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

    November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

    Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

    1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 :)   **TEAM GREEN!**

    Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

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    FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled :(   l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

    ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

    Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 :)    **TEAM GREEN!**

    Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14

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  • Ha.... Every time I see my RE I assume the position with my pants off. My DH swears that the wand has seen more action than he has over the last year..... Sadly that may be true :-\"

    All that said.... I would give anything to be "embarrassed" by the wand again... Just saying
    Me: 38
    DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

    DH: 34
    MFI due to Testicular Cancer

    Married March 2012 <3
    IVF w/ICSI #1
    10 little polar bears
    FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN :(
    FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
    Beta 1= 276
    Beta 2= 662
    4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
    5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
    5/3/14 ~ D&C
    FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
    October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
    Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y



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  • That is awesome.  My RE is associated with the University health system so every time I have a date with the dildo cam it is me, my RE, my nurse and about 2-4 med students and residents.  More people have seen my goods in this town than I ever care to.  Oh to still be embarrassed by the dildo cam . . .

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     TTC since November, 2011

    DH's SA : Excellent

    Lap and Hysteroscopy June 2012

    DX: PCOS, Stage III Endo, slight Adenomyosis, blocked tube, and probable LPD

    Treatments:  6 Months Lupron Depot injections; 1500 mg metformin; 3 cycles of Clomid + TI = BFN

    3 endometrial biopsies all were "out of phase" 

    September - December, 2013:  Break to lose weight and get healthy

    40 lb weight loss but still not ovulating "in phase"  

    February - March 2014: bcps + follistim + trigger + TI = BFP

     Beta #1 (12dpo): 30; Beta #2 (18dpo): 500; Beta #3 (25dpo): 7,000!!! 

    1st u/s 4/16: One beautiful hb at 144 bmp 

    2nd u/s 4/29: hb at 166 bmp.  Graduated from RE!!

    TEAM PINK! 

    Baby girl arrived on Thanksgiving day weighing 7lbs 6oz and measuring 20 inches

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  • Ha! I remember a chick on my BMB saying the dildo cam "mortified" her and she had to have her husband leave the room because she was so embarrassed to have him see her practically molested by the ultrasound.

    REALLY?!?!

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  • Wow...yeah I got used to it at my RE. In fact DH and I were watching reruns of the show Friends a few weeks ago. They showed Rachel's first ultasound and my DH said they didn't even use the wand on her, that was way too quick. The things infertility has taught us.
    Me 29 DH 30 Unexplained IF TTC since wedding May 2012. IUI #1 11/5/13-BFN.  IUI #2 12/5/13-BFN. IUI #3-12/30/14. All three with Femara CD 3-7 and Ovidrel trigger. +HPT 1/13/14 First +ever!!! Beta #1 195 Beta #2 1/15-533. Ultrasound on 2/4 showed one bean. EDD 9/22/14. Team Green turned Team Blue-Baby Conner arrived on 9/19/14.



  • Ha. . Ha!!! Too funny. I'm in assumption now too that it will always be the vagcam. When DH came for the IUI appointments, he was really taken back, he was not prepared for the vagcam (and I didn't warn him b/c it wasn't something new to me). He was like the shoved that in you and you are just having a normal conversation with the tech. Ahh . . .to be embarrassed those were the days!
    Me: 37 DH: 41
    Dx: Endometriosis
    TTC May 2012
    Jan 2014 IUI#1: BFN
    Feb 2014 IUI #2: BFP
    Beta #1: 403
    First u/s: 3/14 It is TWINS!!
    EDD: 11/12/2014 ~ Boys x2
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  • Now I have to run over and read it!

    Clueless as to what others go through :)
    IVF #1- BFP- DD 4/8/2011
    FET #1- 3BB and 3B-B
    Beta #1 (4w0d)- 504
    Beta #2 (4w4d)- 4,577
    Beta #3 (6w0d)- 78,399 HB 115 bpm
    U/S #2 7w0d- HB 155 bpm

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  • I appreciate the sincere kindness on this board because on the tri boards many posts are so mean:( Ii don't think I've even posted there. Didn't anyone teach them if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all? As towards the topic of the vag u/s...ha...I was afraid to give blood before this journey of surgeries, hsg's, shg's, shots. Now, I just think what's next. I've even wondered if I should stop teaching which I love and pursue something if related because you learn so much.
    Started ttc may 2012 Me:32. Dh:31 SA- 4% morphology Fsh:9.1 possibly not always ovulating Hysteroscopy/lLap 7/13 resulted in polyp removal, uterine septum, and mild endo stage 1 removed 10/13 IVF #1 successful 
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