XP: No fairy tale ending for us

ronniesgirl1981 member

April 2014 in Infertility

BFN for us. It's 13 days past ER, so I'm confident. Beta isn't until Thursday, but I'll try to get it moved up so I can stop the meds. The only bright spot I can find this morning is that we should be able to move on quickly

Me: 34 | He: 40
TTC since 08/2012
DX: DOR

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Re: XP: No fairy tale ending for us

RunCC37 member

April 2014

I'm so sorry, RG. There's nothing 'fairy tale' about this. It all sucks the big one. Be kind to yourself.

**SIGGY WARNING**

Me: 32 DH: 35 TTC#1 since March 2012
Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo,
Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome

IUI #1-5: BFN
Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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beachy6 member

April 2014

I'm so sorry.

ttc #2 since 2004 Me (35): Stage 3 Endo, DH (34): High DNA Frag
IVF/ICSI #2: April 2014: BFP!!!!!!
ET of 2 great quality embryos. + BFP on 9dp5dt. Beta #1 (10dp5dt): 257, Beta #2 (14dp5dt): 1561,
Beta #3 (21dp5d5): 8,172. Wow. It seems this is actually working. Shocked beyond belief.
1st u/s @6w5d: Baby A hb 124, Baby B hb 127 (Both measuring perfectly!)
Lost baby A. Praying that baby B stays healthy. Baby B hb 175 at 11 weeks
It's a GIRL!!!

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missmarypoppins member

April 2014

I'm so sorry

Me: 30 DH: 30 ~ TTC #1 Since August 2011
BFP #1 2/28/13, Ectopic, Tubal surgery 3/25
Began RE testing 8/8, Dx Unexplained,
IUI #1 11/1=BFN Moving on to IVF
IVF #1 12/2 ER 8R 7M 4 fertilized
12/7 Transferred 2 "perfect" little blasts 12/17 BFN
New DX= DOR, I fu*kng hate IF
1/14 Hysteroscopy, new clean uterus!
IVF #2: bcp, Lupron, follistim 300, menopur 225. 2/21 8R 4M 3F. 3dt of 2 perfect embryos. 1 little penguin
3/10 BFFN
Regrouping. Seeing reproductive immunologist Dr. Kwak Kim 6/10
Kwak Kim protocol: Metformin 1000mg, vitamin D 4000iu, vitamin E 400iu, baby aspirin, Metanx, levothyroxine 75mcgs
Surprise BFP 9/21!!! Beta #1 247, Beta #2 630. Miscarried 10/13

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cls78 member

April 2014

I'm so sorry. IF is not fair.

TTC since May/June 2012
Sept 2013 testing:
SA #1 Low motility (17%)
SA #2 Lower sperm count, but much higher motility
CD 3 Bloodwork and ultrasound - Normal HSG - Clear tubes
Oct/Nov 2013 Cycle 1 with RE 50 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI BFN
Nov/Dec 2013 Cycle 2 with RE 50 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI BFN
Jan/Feb 2014 Cycle 3 with RE 50 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI BFN
2/20/14 Follow up consult RE recommends IVF with ICSI
3/10/14 New patient consult with RMA NJ
3/11/14 AMH and other Bloodwork to prep for IVF with ICSI at RMA NJ
3/28/14 Saline Sonogram - All good
March/April 2014 IVF #1 Antagonist Protocol
BCP/Bravelle/Menopur/Ganirelix
4/16/14 ER 26 Retrieved!!!
4/17/14 Fert Report 22 Mature 21 Fertilized w/ ICSI
4/22/14 Report #2 15 BLASTS
5/24/14 FET!!! (Transferring 2 snowflakes)
6/2/14 Beta #1 575!!!
6/4/14 Beta #2 2060!!!
6/11/14 1st Ultrasound...Saw 2 Gestational Sacs!! Beta #3 34,312!!!
6/18/14 2nd Ultrasound...Heartbeats!! Baby A 112bpm Baby B 117bmp Beta #4 172,080!!!
6/25/14 3rd Ultrasound...Heartbeats!! Baby A 150bpm Baby B 158bpm Beta #5 232,134!!!
7/3/14 4th Ultrasound...Heartbeats!! Baby A 173bpm Baby B 162bpm Beta #6 269,228!!!
Graduated from RMA!! First appt with OB 7/8/14

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LooneyLife member

April 2014

I'm sorry.

dx: Unexplained IF
TTC since May 2011, 1 year trying, and then 3 TI, 2 IUI = BFN
IVF #1 (May 2013): Antagonist Protocol:
24R, 18M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 2 early blasts, no frosties = BFN
IVF #2 (August 2013): Lupron Stop Protocol:
28R, 23M, 15F w/ICSI; 5dt of 1 partially hatched blast, 7 frosties = BFP
EDD 5/23/14, blighted ovum (6w6d), D&C (8w6d)
FET #1 (April 2014): transferred 2 5d blasts = BFP
C.J. born 01/09/15

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ikrystal member

April 2014

I'm so sorry. This can't be easy, I know. Hoping your next cycle goes better.

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Milagros315 member

April 2014

Hugs

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Married July 2011 * TTC #1 since 8/12 * Me: 29 DH: 29
21 Cycles TI: BFNs
DX: Stage 2 Endo, uterine polyps and paratubal cysts removed
2/14: IVF #1 Lupron Protocol = 12R/10M/9F, no frosties; transferred one 3BB blast = BFN
4/14: IVF #2 Antagonist Protocol = 18R/16M/15F/6 frosties; transferred one 4BB blast = BFP!!
Beta #1 (5/12) = 232 Beta #2 (5/16) = 886 Beta #3 (5/20) = 3168
EDD 1/18/15 It's a BOY

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Tea+ member

April 2014

I'm so sorry. ]: -hugs- be good to yourself. Thoughts are with you. xo

TTC Since 2012
Me: Endo Stage IV (20+yrs) (who knew? Not me)
MyLove: Pretty Ok. Low #s (i think)
IVF#1: No Eggs to Retrieve
Taking time to ourselves
Poor Responder will add COQ10 & DHEA next cycle
**All Welcome**

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Grateful&Thankful member

April 2014

I'm sorry. (((HUGS)))

Me & DH (33), 3 Furbabies, TTC since October 2011
Day 3 #’s (Dec 2012) FSH 9, AMH .77, LH 2.4, E2 31, AFC 9
DX: Me-DOR + No Tubes, DH-Fine

Ectopic 2007; lost tube/2nd tube removed Dec 2011 (hydro)
April 2012=IVF#1- EPP Antag+ICSI, 2R,0F (BFN), Now dx’d with DOR.
June-July 2012=IVF#2- MDL+ICSI&AH, 8R,4M,3F (BFP 9dp3dt) Beta#1 at 11dp3dt=36, Beta#2 at 15dp3dt=156, Beta#3 at 19dp3dt=671, dx'd with SCH, no growth-m/c at 7wks/Lap Dec 2012 to remove small fibroid.
Feb 2013=IVF#3-MDL, 2/1=baseline, started 10 units mdl, AFC-7, 2/3 start gonal f, self cxld cycle b/c of low e2.
April 2013=IVF#3.5-(with new RE)AG/ANT Conv + ICSI. 4/10-4/23 bcp's, 4/20-4/27 lupron, 4/28-ganirelix until end of stimming, 5/2-600 gonal f, 5/4-add 1/2 vial menopur, 5/13-ER (9R,1M,1F), 5/17-ET, 1 beautiful 8 cell (please be my sticky baby!!!!) 5/28-BFFN.
Oct 2013=IVF#4-LLP+ICSI &AH, 10/14 (6R, 2M, 2F), 10/17-ET, 1 seven cell & a six cell, BFP at 9dp3dt, 1st beta=56, 2nd beta=52, CP.
Jan 2014=IVF #5-LLP, Cxld after 6 days of stims due to fast response and lead follicle.
March 2014=IVF 5.5-LLP, Lupron 3/10, BL 3/18, 11 days of stims, Trigger 3/29, ER 3/31. 7R, 2M, 2F. ET 4/3. Txfd one 5 cell & one 9 cell. BFP on hpt from 7dp3dt & on. Praise be to God. Beta #1 at 11dp3dt=106, #2 at 13dp3dt=239. First u/s 4/28, measuring on track & heartbeat seen. 5/5-2nd u/s, measuring on track with strong heartbeat. 5/12- 3rd u/s & released from RE. Grow baby grow, we love you! Baby G&T is a BOY! Born 12/2014 via c/s! 8lbs, 8oz & 21 inches.

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"God's Delay is not God's Denial"
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gsancho member

April 2014

I'm so sorry....hopefully you can have a good meeting with your RE and get better results next cycle.

Me 33, DH 37 -- TTC since Jan'12 -- Low AMH (0.78) & endo, SA w/ low motility
IUI's 1-3 = BFN, IVF converted to IUI 4/13 = BFN
IVF 1.2: 8R 6M 4F -- 2 blastocysts frozen, FET 8/15 = BFP!!
Beta #s = 445;1,098; 9,545 -- EDD 5/2 -- Team Pink!

Camila Josephine arrived 4/30
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ExoticAntibiotic member

April 2014

It's a hard blow when IVF doesn't work out. I'm sorry this isn't the end for you yet.

TTC #1 since 2011 · Me (35, PCOS, AMA, abnormal eggs) and DH (47, MFI)
2012-2013: 3 Clomid cycles, 3 IUIs, all BFNs
IVF #1 January 2014: 14R/12M/9F 1 transferred, 3 frozen = BFN
FET #1 March 2014: 1 transferred = BFFN · FET #2 May 2014: 2 transferred = BFFN
IVF #2 June 2014: 24R/11M/10F 6 PGS tested: 1 normal embryo, 1 with no result
FET #3 in March 2015: 2 transferred = BFFN

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dreambig1021 member

April 2014

I don't like this at all. I'm so sorry it didn't work out this time but I'm happy you found a bright side that you can start again quickly (((hugs)))

TC Since 2006

Me: 33

Dx: Hydrosalpinx

DH: 34

Dx: Perfect

IUI #1-4 = BFN

BCP Started 2/23/2014, Tubal ligation surgery 3/5/2014

1 Polyp removed, Tubes are bye bye.

IVF #1 - Gonal-F, Menopur, Cetrotide, Lupron, ER 4/14, Freeze All, OHSS
31R, 28M, 21 fertilized!

FET#1 - 06/26/14 transferred 5 day blasts 2- 1 4AA and 1 3BB lining at 12 (PIO shots, Progesterone and Estradiol)
Beta 7/10/14 14dp5dt = BFFN

FET#2- 9/25 Transfer day 3, 2- 10 cell Lining at 12
10/2/15 - Progesterone Check 30
10/9/15 - 14dp3dt BFN
4/27/16 - Mock transfer protocol- Vit C, Vit D, DHEA, Prenatal, Lovenox, Estradiol, PIO
FET #3 - 5/18/16 -

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Saintelizabeth member

April 2014

I'm so sorry

Me: 32, DH:33, Married: 8/30/2008, TTC since: 10/1/2012
DX: Me - DOR & tubal issues, DH: none.
June 2004: Ectopic pregnancy with DH while dating
October & November 2013: IUI #1 & 2 - BFN
December 2013:Taking a break, trying on our own.
January 2014: BFP!!!! Ectopic pregnancy ruptured at 6wks1day. Left Fallopian tube removed. Noted during surgery the right Fallopian tube is severely damaged from 2004 ectopic pregnancy.
April 8 2014: IVF#1 w/ISCI: 10 received, 5 mature, 3 fertilized. Day 3 transfer of all three embies.
April 22, 2014: BFP! beta #1: 80 beta #2: 211 One nugget!
January 6, 2015: Adeline Marguerite is here!!

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jaztastic member

April 2014

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Waited a long time, tried a lot of stuff, science made me a mom.
Loss and IF veteran. Current mom of DS 5.5, DD 2, and sometimes DH 40. Due June 2021 with TWINS

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kz's_girlygirl member

April 2014

I'm so sorry . IF sucks

TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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babydreams13 member

April 2014

So sorry. Know that you are not alone.

***SIGGY WARNING***

DX: Unexplained
6 Failed IUIs (Clomid and Gonal F).
IVF #1 began August 2013- BC, 4 days of Estrace, stimmed with Gonal F and Menopur, Ganirelix, 9R 5M 5F, Medrol and Doxycycline, 5 day transfer of 2 early blastocysts- good quality, Progesterone, Estrace, and baby aspirin, BETA on 9/20 BFN, IVF #2 began September 2013, stimming with Gonal F (higher dose) and Menopur, Ganirelix, 18R 14M 9F with ICSI, 5 day transfer of 2 BBs one was starting to hatch, 2 frosties: 1 BB and 1 AC, BETA on 10/21, BFN BETA was a 5- chemical
Getting some more testing and trying to figure out what the issue is before FET in December, started acupuncture on 11/10, RLP and some other BW nothing major to report except slightly high Prolactin. Prolactin was slightly high when I started with my RE and I already had an MRI which was Neg. Endo biopsy=negative. WTF is wrong with us???
12/18/13 FET of 1 BB and 1 AC. Hoping for a miracle. Beta 12/26 Low BETA-8 2nd BETA 5- chemical
After 3 failed transfers IDK where to go from here. Still no real answers as to why this isn't working. Getting a second opinion in February and looking into immune testing.
2/14- NEW RE- Immune testing showed a partial dq alpha match with DH- On prednisone and did intralipids prior to transfer. 3/14 Lupron, gonal f, menopur, HGH. ER 15 mature all 15 fertilized! 5dt of an early blast grade 1 and an expanded blast grade 2. BETA on 4/21. 1 grade 2 embryo frozen
BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121. US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE. EDD 12/28

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pblge member

April 2014

I'm so sorry. Sending you huge creepy (((hugs)))).

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***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage. Stage 1 endo removed June 2013. IVF #1 Oct/Nov 2013: Long Lupron with Gonal-F. 7R, 7M, 7F. 2 txfer@3d. Nothing frozen. => M/C @ 8 wks. Selected RPL panel all normal. Very hyper and brittle response to stims. IVF #2 (antagonist protocol) Feb 2014 => Converted to IUI (Perfect conditions). BFN. IVF #2.1 w/ new RE June 2014: Antagonist protocol. 33R, 31M, 30F, 19 blasts to test!!! I made it through without crashing!! Hats off to Dr. Fancypants!! ET of one 5AB blast. BFN. 13 10 CCS'ed snowflakes! FET #1 PUPO as of 7/29 Betas: 8/7@24, 8/9@97, 8/11@334 (etc.) Two sacs on 8/15, one seen on 8/18 after a bleed. U/s 8/25 (6+3) "perfect": 5.9 mm + HB@120bpm! U/s 9/4 (7+6): 15.9 mm + HB@172 bpm! Please, PLEASE stick this time!!!!

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heavenseyes55 member

April 2014

im sorry hun xoxo

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Lm92599 member

April 2014

Im so sorry. Words dont help with the hurt, but we are all here for support. Hope your next cycle is the one for you!

Me: 35 low AMH, normal FSH
DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test Normal SA
TTC: since March 2012

09-21-13 start IVF #1
10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
waiting for FET
10-18 started BCP
10-29 baseline appt scheduled
11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
12-2 BFN

3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2

April 2014- IUI#1 BFN
May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
June 2014 IUI#3 BFN

Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.

Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
10-15-14 first ultrasound
06-05-15 EDD

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LizBlue member

April 2014

I'm so sorry. Sending hugs-take good care of yourself.

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37 years old, MH is 42
TTC since 2010; Dx Unexplained Infertility; possible male factor
August 2012 through June 2013: 6 IUIs with clomid and trigger shot, all BFNs
7/2013, Pregnant! Unmedicated--we were on a treatment break
8/20/13 no heart beat; 8/23/13 d&c
3/15/14 IVF #1: Lupron/Follistim/Menopur; ER 3/10 resulting in four transfer grade blastocysts, transferred one pretty blast and froze the remaining three. BFN.
Natural FET in May cancelled because the universe hates me my hormones were not cooperating.
6/24/14 FET #1: transferred two pretty embryos; BFN
8/28/14 FET #2: BFP, ended in Chemical pregnancy

Done with medical intervention and getting used to the idea of CFNBC.

All welcome
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