Dear May 2013, (long)

mamatohne

Hi, my name is Taryn (it really is I don't know why you think other wise). I'm here to hopefully clear some things up.
I have been on the May 2013 BMB since the beginning of September 2012. (Although my early sn got banned for 6000 years, from a glitch, and I created a new one in October 2012)
During my pregnancy I was a somewhat active poster but mostly a lurker as I watched women get ripped to shreads for things they posted.
Once the babies began to be born the board made a dramatic change. I felt like I could contribute, I felt like I knew what I was talking about.
5 months later..."spankgate". I am sorry! I never meant for any of that to happen. I didn't know what the "right" thing to do was. I remember reading it and thinking "what the f did I do? These people think I'm a monster." I remember reading that people were "thankful I didn't come in and try to defend myself or make excuses". So I thought I was doing the right thing by staying away.
A week later I started posting again. I figured it had died down, I was wrong.
Shank called me out about a week later, so I addressed her back in what I thought again was nbd. Every one commented and told me it should of been been a PM, and lax explained the reason everyone was still so unhappy with me. I felt like I apologized there, and then life got the best of me.
I didn't leave because of "spankgate". I left because I shouldn't have called shank out the way I did and I was embarrased. I truly thought spankgate was over.
When I stopped back in to say hi, I had no intention of staying here. I was on my way to n14. Someone asked if I was here to stay and I thought to myself "why not"I started contributing and was enjoying my time here. But as we all know that didn't last long. And then the shit show began.

What I am here today to do is appoligize.I never intended on hurting anyone's feelings, especially someone who had suffered a loss. I'm sorry to all of you, and extremely sorry to lax (I know you took the brunt of the flamming).I'm also sorry it brought so many people here. I also want to thank all of you for standing up for me.
I don't plan on staying here, but I do think you all deserve (and hopefully accept) this appology.

Sorry if it's a wall of text, I'm on mobile.

Lolalipsy

I don't think you're a monster at all. I think you made a poor choice which I felt at the time you didn't really accept. For me, it seemed as though you regretted posting it on the Internet more than anything else.

Nevertheless I appreciate that you have taken the time to write a post and I hope you continue posting. I think it's time to let bygones be bygones.

LaxMOM44

Thank you for this post, it takes a big person to admit when they were wrong and to apologize so I appreciate that you are doing that here.

PumpkinAndThePeanut

Thanks for posting this. I think this will help smooth things over if you want to stick around on this board. H&H 9 months to you if you don't.

CNJ4EVA

Personally, I think Spankgate went overboard. I'm pretty sure I'm alone in that, but that's neither here nor there.

I'm glad you posted an apology. I hope you reconsider leaving.

coffeeandbooks

From my pov you are totally welcome here and hope you stay, it would be cool too if you did have a change of heart about being ok with spanking your lo at such a young age that you let us know because at eod board etiquette is way less important than your baby.

c-elizabethf

I hope you stick around, thank you for posting this

huzzahuzza

Sorry, I was one of those that got your name wrong but it's only because I mash things together sometimes and make things the way I want to see them sometimes.
I've always felt spankgate got out of hand as well. I feel like you didn't get a chance to fully explain yourself so I haven't judged.
I hope you stick around but if you don't h&h 9 mo.

watuzzigal

Thanks, Taryn. I sincerely hope you have a really H&H 9 months. I also sincerely you pop over here some also as we all attempt to figure this post-bump stuff out together. It's never easy.

TundraGirl

It's tough to apologize sometimes. Thank you for doing so and for explaining the situation. I hope this calms things down and you feel free to post here again. Good luck and best wishes with your little one and your pregnancy.

mommatotwo2

I think it's very brave and cool of you to come back and explain yourself.  We all make parenting choices that others may not agree with and a lot of us have definitely said things we wished we could take back. I've been there, apologized, and was welcomed back as well. That's the great thing about this board. I think we're all really lucky to have eachother and this board. No matter what our role or position here, we're all moms just trying to do the best we can to raise our kids.

RoxZ32

I too think "spankgate" was taken too far and despite what others think, my heart did go out to you. That was why I even messaged you the day all the shit originally went down because I wanted you to know that I didn't think you were a monster. Also from my perspective, I didn't think you were out of line posting a question that referred to your pregnancy because I still saw you as a regular poster even after you took a small break. But everyone is different and you can't please everyone here. TBH, I've always been surprised that you came back every time some one got on your ass. I'm pretty sensitive so I probably would have left for good. I hope you stick around and still contribute because you have had some helpful feedback. I wish you a very healthy and happy 9 months and I also wish you better luck on your November board. :P