I had my IUD put in today (difficult to begin with since it kind of
symbolizes the end of my having children) and my OB had the final
pathology results. The doctors were all wrong. Riley did NOT have down
syndrome. In fact, there were NO chromosomal abnormalities... NO
abnormalities at all. Our baby was perfect. Just like baby Gary was.
Which means that our baby died because of a problem with the placenta.
Just like baby Gary did. For a second time, MY body's failure to
function the way it's supposed to caused my baby's death. I'm not doing
well, with any of this. I'm just hurting and angry and tired. And
feeling like a huge downer to everyone around me. I called DH to tell him and completely lost it on him on the phone. He definitely didn't deserve it and I've emailed him at work to apologize, but I have such feelings of anger and resentment toward him that we haven't even begun to deal with, this news just kind of put me over the edge. Ugh. I'm so sick of having crappy things happen.