Tick Tock..

MesmrEwe

Ugh - I hate when NOT TTC and dear ole AF is showing no signs of her expected appearance last week and it's too early to test - I'm sitting here moodier than moody but can't reliably POAS until Tuesday because of the only possible potential date..  All the while going through the million head-games that come along with that because of not TTC and thinking we were done-done and of course have no one IRL that I can call and say "hey, I'm late!"...  It also doesn't help that it isn't unusual for me in the spring around this time to skip a month for who knows what reason and DH can't understand why I want some Mommy time alone from everyone to chill out from all the moodiness..

-T-

Oh my goodness how stressful! Hope AF shows soon!

jesselayne8

Being in limbo stinks. Hope she shows soon.

MesmrEwe

I should add that part of the head games is that I can be happy either way, but there's still that "let down" regardless of which one it ends up being at this point KWIM...  'Cause of course, the mind wanders to a sibling and how DS is the perfect age OTOH, DD is older so she's sort of disconnected in a way and it'll be a similar age split to myself and by brothers for her which brings its own dynamic...  Yep... Head games...  And the countdown to Tuesday realizing "avoid the temptation to test early because those darn tests are expensive!  Even for the cheap ones"...

jesselayne8

I would have to pee on a dollar test right now.

-T-

Me too! I am way to impatient top wait. I definitely know what you mean with the mind games too. I don't know if it's the word 'negative' but I was always upset when it wasn't positive. It's like winning when it's positive!

MesmrEwe

jesselayne8 said:

I would have to pee on a dollar test right now.

LOL - Don't think for a second that thought hasn't crossed my mind!!!  But thankfully they're closed for the evening..  Oh heck, I'm starting mind games with "what time of day was it when...  :-bd "  for exactly the 10 days... 

MesmrEwe

Well  first test in and BFN...  It is what it is though...  Need to keep playing the waiting game until one or the other...

designer303

So sorry you are going through this, but you are soon not alone this TWW has been driving me absolutely bonkers. I'm on progesterone and my beta isn't until tomorrow so no AF due to the progesterone, but I keep telling myself that there is no way I'm knocked up since I got BFN's on 11 and 12 dpo. I didn't test this morning because I am trying to calm the crazy in my head. The not knowing for 100% is killing me. So I feel ya, and I hope you get a solid answer soon.

Ricola

TTC is such a tease. I'm sorry about the BFN. They are always hard to see when you are hoping for a different result.
Good luck to you!

MesmrEwe

It's official - NOT PG...AF FINALLY snowed up!!  It's truly a mixed bag at this point.  Obviously if I had a BFP, we'd be happy to welcome a sibling into the house to love.  But where we aren't TTC, there's that aspect as well.  It just drives me bonkers when the body can't get its act together when it's not...

jesselayne8

Glad you are no longer in limbo.