Late Term and Child Loss

PAL Check In

Welcome to PAL Checkin! This CheckIn is for everyone who is parenting after a loss. If you have an older child or a rainbow baby or both you are welcome to share here.

I hope everyone is having a good week. If anyone has any suggestions for questions, please don't be shy!

Where are you in your PAL journey?

What are some PAL challenges you have faced recently?

QOTW: Do you think your parenting style would be different if you hadn't had a loss? Why or why not?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

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Re: PAL Check In

  • Where are you in your PAL journey?
    My rainbow is 19 days old and we also have an older DS who is 5.

    What are some PAL challenges you have faced recently?
    While we have an older child neither DH or I have ever had a newborn. DH got custody of DS1 when he was 2.5 and my adoption of him was finalized 2 years later. So while we have parented we have never parented a newborn, let alone a newborn and a second child. It is extremely overwhelming right now.

    QOTW: Do you think your parenting style would be different if you hadn't had a loss? Why or why not?
    No, we were already parenting before our loss so we already knew what our parenting style was.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
    Alice's 1st angelversary is on Thursday and I am having conflicting feelings about Eli. He obviously wouldn't be here if she hadn't died, but I am so thankful for him and he has helped with the healing so much.
    Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.

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  • @perkyerky Congrats on little Eli! Would love to see a picture if you care to share.


    Where are you in your PAL journey? Already 1 month down. He grows so much every day.

    What are some PAL challenges you have faced recently? Just thinking about his sister a lot during night feedings especially.

    QOTW: Do you think your parenting style would be different if you hadn't had a loss? Why or why not? I didnt think so. But it is a bit. I was much more willing to share my babies before losing Elsie. Now I just want family time all the time. Just our little family.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Thankful most of the revolving door of visitors has subsided. Still have a few more before we can settle down...and by then i have to go back to work. :-(
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  • @perkyerky Congratulations! He's adorable!!

    @Noethola I get the family bit. I'm more selfish about sharing the kids with others, too. I wish I could just hole up in the house and keep them with me all the time.
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  • Where are you in your PAL journey? Mia is 10 weeks old and growing like a weed. She's giving me smiles and giggles now...I adore her to pieces. Big brother is currently enjoying the last of his spring break with his grandparents; he spent the week with them and loved it.

    What are some PAL challenges you have faced recently? I see so much of Devon in Mia that it almost makes my heart hurt. When she's sleeping, she looks JUST like all of the pictures I have of Devon, and it makes me want to cry. I've been struggling mentally the last couple of weeks, but I think a lot of that was anxiety due to going back to work. Now that I'm back at work and feel better about Mia being in daycare, I'm doing better.

    QOTW: Do you think your parenting style would be different if you hadn't had a loss? Why or why not? I'm more cautious and apprehensive than I was with DS. I'm afraid that I'm going to be overly protective of Mia, and I have to stop myself from doing that. I had to back off of being overly protective of DS after we lost his little brother, and that took some work.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I'm really not happy about being back at work, but it's necessary for now. H is days away from deploying, and it's causing a rift in our marriage. I'm a little overwhelmed with all this change and just hope I can hang on until I adjust.
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  • @osuwifey09 Hang on sweetie. That is really going to take some adjustment.
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  • Can we all share pictures of our rainbows/sunshine babies? It always makes me so happy to see them! I'll start...First is Aubrey on St. Patrick's day, then playing out in the nice weather this week. Show me those beautiful rainbow/sunshine babies (if you're comfortable of course)!
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  • PerkyErky said:

    @noethola I am always happy to show Eli off :)

    My little munchkin who wasn't so little at birth (9lbs 1oz). He only has a strip of hair down the center of his head. It cracks me up!

    I wish I could love this more than once!
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  • Here is one more picture of DS1 and Eli. He is such a good big brother and is always wanting to help.
    Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.

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  • @lrichmond86 great idea!

    Here he is in his "Little Brother" onesie. I know you all would understand my need for him to wear that.

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    And here he is passed out after being in the wrap. Love him!

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    And just cause he is cute. :-)
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  • Noethola said:
    @osuwifey09 Hang on sweetie. That is really going to take some adjustment.
    Well, I also just found out some things that are pretty much about to end my marriage, so the adjustment just got a hundred times worse. I thought I was done with all the bad crap happening in my life. Ugh.
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  • And BTW, you guys have ADORABLE babies. I'll post one of my sweet Mia later on. :)
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  • Where are you in your PAL journey?
    My older daughter, Mia, is 4 years old

    What are some PAL challenges you have faced recently?
    Mia has always spoken openly about losing Coraline, but lately she seems more sad about it when she talks. She comes to me saying she "misses the baby" and looks teary. My heart hurts for her. 

    QOTW: Do you think your parenting style would be different if you hadn't had a loss? Why or why not?
    I feel like I'm more guarded with Mia now. I wasn't so overprotective of her until we lost Coraline. I definitely like keeping to ourselves more and spending a lot of time with just the 3 of us. 

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
    Pre-K registration and lotteries. 

     
    EDD 1/8/10 - our sweet sunshine DD born 12/30/09
    EDD 2/15/14 - Stillbirth at 21 wks 10/02/13
    EDD 8/12/15 - MMC 1/12/15
    EDD 12/24/15

      
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  • @PerkyErky  Congratulations!

     
    EDD 1/8/10 - our sweet sunshine DD born 12/30/09
    EDD 2/15/14 - Stillbirth at 21 wks 10/02/13
    EDD 8/12/15 - MMC 1/12/15
    EDD 12/24/15

      
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  • Here's my little sunshine:

     
    EDD 1/8/10 - our sweet sunshine DD born 12/30/09
    EDD 2/15/14 - Stillbirth at 21 wks 10/02/13
    EDD 8/12/15 - MMC 1/12/15
    EDD 12/24/15

      
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  • @mingaling2 thanks!
    Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.

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  • @OSUWifey09  I'm sorry to hear that - are you wanting to talk about it?  How are you doing today?

     
    EDD 1/8/10 - our sweet sunshine DD born 12/30/09
    EDD 2/15/14 - Stillbirth at 21 wks 10/02/13
    EDD 8/12/15 - MMC 1/12/15
    EDD 12/24/15

      
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  • @mingaling2 - Thanks for checking in. It's hard to actually say out loud what happened because I feel embarrassed and betrayed that this happened to me, but one of these days, I might be able to talk about it without getting mad or sad. I don't know if our marriage can bounce back from this - which makes me mad because we made it through losing a child. I guess I just thought things were better than they were, and they really weren't better. I have six months to dwell on it, because neither of us can start the divorce process while he's deployed. Yay.

    Again, thanks for checking in and letting me vent. I don't know where this is going to go, but my birthday's tomorrow [my golden one!], so I'm trying to shove it aside so I can enjoy my day. :)
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  • Just sending some positive thoughts to all you very special moms and especially @OSUWifey09 I don't know what you are your husband are going through, but I'm thinking of you.
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    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
  • @OSUWifey09  Sending much love to you - and hope you have a very very happy birthday!

     
    EDD 1/8/10 - our sweet sunshine DD born 12/30/09
    EDD 2/15/14 - Stillbirth at 21 wks 10/02/13
    EDD 8/12/15 - MMC 1/12/15
    EDD 12/24/15

      
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    OSUWifey09- I just sent you a PM.

    BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010

    BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011

    BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013

    BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy.  Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)    

                                  <3 We love and miss you Timothy <3

    BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014

  • @OSUWifey09‌ - Happy Birthday xoxoxo
  • @OSUWifey09‌ Happy birthday, hope you have a blessed day.
  • @OSUWifey09‌ - you are in my thoughts and prayers.
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    Me: 32 DH: 33  High School Sweethearts  Married 5/28/2005
    DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
    DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
    Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16.  Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.


  •   Our Angel Patricia born sleeping 3/30/12 at 31 weeks
    Our Fighter Anna born early 1/8/13 at 26 weeks
    Hoping to bring home #3 due 9/9/15
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