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New Cycle Shut me down then lift me up!!!

Von112Von112 member
edited March 2014 in Trouble TTC
So I went in for my cycle day one yesterday and yet again I have 2 cysts on my right ovary none on the left. So of course the nurse tells me to sit out again!!! Ugh I was so frustrated that I wasn't even mad. But I did cry a little when I got back to my desk at work. Then when I got home the Hubbs and I got into a small fight over nothing b/c he wanted me to tell him that I didn't feel like being bothered b/c of this month's let down. Ladies I just wanted he and I to go to the gym without talking. I just needed silence and sweat, then I probably would have opened up to him. I guess maybe he was a little frustrated himself...? So he left and I stayed home and cried a little more then busied myself. Later when he got home he just got in bed with me and held me. But I was still so frustrated with him being selfish I calmly told him I wanted to be alone. I swear every month I get a little good news then bad. I have no control over my thin lining, or these cysts caused by the meds, or anything. And I am getting tired! I just can't understand. I am constantly reading things about naturally this and that. I can't just take estrogen b/c I'm a cancer survivor. Ugh, and I had an IUD twice lasting 10 years with 2 bouts of cancer. Maybe that's why my lining is so thin. I want to know how can I make my lining thick, how can I increase estrogen naturally w/o harming myself (No Cancer), I want to exercise more to get back in shape, I want to get PREGNANT!!!
So after my initial 1 day after the storm I am always fine. And here it is today another day and expectantly the fertility clinic calls to say the doctor looked at my ultrasound and blood work and feels like I CAN complete this cycle. So I am back and running again!! But I don't even feel excited. I just want it to work this time. So Starting tomorrow CD3-CD8 Follistim injections. Cross your fingers for me ladies, I really need the support. Just tired of this.

Me: 31 (2X Breast Cancer Survivor)

DX: PCOS, Thin Uterine Lining

DH: 38 Perfectly Fine

Married: Since 08/2012

TTC: Since 10/2012

We have tried several cycles of Letrozole, 

No Clomid and very limited to what I can take due to health history.

Still Tryng...

 

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Re: New Cycle Shut me down then lift me up!!!

  • DharmaChickDharmaChick member
    *hugs* I'm sorry you're dealing with this roller coaster.
    FX for you!!
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    ME: 34, Atypical PCOS (lean, no O without meds) + unexplained; DH: 33, mildly low motility
    09/2012: Start TTC after stopping NuvaRing.  No cycles seemed to occur.
    01/2013 - 05/2013: Tried Provera to "jumpstart" cycles. No luck.
    12/2013-     01/2014: Clomid 50mg - no big follies, stepped to 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel (HCG trigger), IUI #1 completed - BFN
    02/2014: Clomid 100mg;     One mature follie, Ovidrel trigger, IUI #2 completed, Crinone - BFN
    03/2014: Clomid 100mg -     no big follies on 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; One mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #3 completed, Crinone - BFN
    04/2014-05/2014: Letrozole 5mg + Ovidrel HG to prep for IUI #4 switched to TI, Crinone - BFN
    05/2014-06/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie,     Ovidrel, IUI #4.1 completed, Crinone - BFN
    07/2014-08/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie,     Ovidrel, IUI #5 completed, Crinone - BFN
    09/2014-10/2014: IVF Prep - Insurance requires IUI #6;     Letrozole 5mg - no big follies 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; IUI #6, Crinone - BFN
    11/2014: "Break" - Letrozole 5mg to cycle before prepping for IVF - successfully O'ed, but BFN
    12/2014: Extending 'break' one more Letrozole-only TI cycle for mental health break - BFN
    01/2015-    02/2015: Prep for IVF - BCP then Gonal-F, Ganirelex, Novarel trigger;  ER scheduled 2/11!
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  • lebradfordlebradford member
    Seriously, what a roller coaster. :-\ I'm glad you get to move forward this cycle though.
    **siggy warning**  **everyone welcome**

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    DS- 11.07.02
    DSS- 6.26.04
    Married- 6.29.13
    TTC Again- Sept. 2013
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    Test Results/Diagnosis- HSG & SA totally normal
    DX: 3/2014 Prolactinoma/Hyperprolactinemia- Started cabergoline 2/2014
    5/2014 Possible mild PCOS in addition to hyperprolactinemia??
    7/2014 Adding probable tubal factor to the diagnosis list
    9/2014 And now adding hypothyroid to the list- Started synthroid 9/2014
    Cycles 1-4 - Sept.-March- All Anovulatory 
    IUI #1 March/April-  Clomid 50mg + Clomid 100mg +Trigger + IUI #1 = BFN
     IUI #2 April/May-Clomid 100mg + Clomid 150mg + Trigger + IUI #2 + Endometrin=BFN
    IUI #3- June- Follistim 75iu + Trigger + IUI #3  Benched due to a 40 mm cyst. :-(
    IUI #3- July- Follistim 75iu + Trigger + IUI #3 + Endometrin = BFP! on 7/25/14
    Slowly rising betas - Ectopic suspected on 8/8/14 & confirmed on 8/11/14
    Methotrexate on 8/12/14 -HCG negative on 9/2/14
    IVF #1- November- Antagonist protocol: 11/1: start stims, 200iu of Follistim; 11/12 ER 17R/14M/14F; 11/17 5 day transfer of two blasts, 2 blasts and 2 expanding morulas frozen; 11/22 BFP!! (On FRER at 5dp5dt)
    Betas: 9dp5dt 205, 11dp5dt 497, 14dp5dt 1,709
    u/s at 5w0d- 1 sac; u/s at 6w0d 1 baby with heartbeat, another sac without a heartbeat
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  • Lillovebug79Lillovebug79 member
    I'm so sorry you are going through that. IF really sucks the life right out of us sometimes!! Yay for a new cycle though! FX that this month will be your month :)



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    Me (35) no known issues DH (37) MFI. TTC 21 months (24 cycles)
    Dx MFI with low to normal count, low motility, morphology 3%
    HSG normal, ultrasound and labs on me all normal. 

    1 cycle of Clomid 50mg and TI, unmonitored by OBGYN= BFN
    1 cycle of Clomid 50mg and IUI, unmonitored by OBGYN= BFN
    Started seeing an RE!!
    2 more cycles of clomid 50mg (great response), with IUI and Pregnyl trigger (4.8-8 mil good ones after wash) = all BFN
    1 cycle of clomid 50mg (3-7) followed by Follistim 75iu (7-11) + IUI = BFN
    December 2013 DH saw urologist and is taking Anastrozole, CoQ10, and L-Carnitine
    IUI #5 natural cycle (needed a med break) = BFN
    IUI #6 Follistim 75iu (CD3-10) + Pregnyl (CD11) + IUI (final count after wash 300K) = BFN
    IUI #7 Follistim 75iu (CD3-9) + Pregnyl (CD11) + IUI on 2/20 (post wash count 12.5 million)= BFN
    IUI cancelled (DH OOT) Clomid 50mg (CD3-7) 1 follicle +(not well timed) TI = BFN
    IUI #8 and last one!! Clomid 100mg (CD3-7) +OPK before US + IUI 4/17 (post wash 8.5 mil)= BFN

    Pre-IVF testing complete! SHG great and measurements taken! Labs for infectious diseases completed, FSH (5.4), TSH (1.6), Prolactin (11), AMH (2.6), Estradiol (40).

    Started BCP 5/29 and Lupron 6/11 prep for IVF #1! Started follistim 225u/day on 6/28. Monitoring on 7/2 >15 follicles measuring 11-14, E2 758. Monitoring on 7/5 all ready to go!! Great follicle sizes and lining is at 9. Tigger 7/5, ER 7/7 16R 9M 3F. Stimmed too fast in just 7 days. 7/10 3dt of 2 8-cell grade 2 & 4. 7/14 P4 >60.
    Holy crap BFP!!!
    Beta #1 (14dpo) 7/21 112 Beta #2 (16dpo) 7/23 286 a Beta #3 (18dpo) 7/25 761 Beta #4 (21dpo) 2631!!! Hold on tight little embies!!      First Ultrasound 8/7- 1 perfect little bean with a beating heart 117bpm!! EDD 3/30.
    Second ultrasound 9/2 Little bean measuring a few days ahead with a heart rate of 161!


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  • Kam10Kam10 member
    (((HUGS))) Glad to hear you are able to go forward with this cycle. Good luck!

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    Me:28 DH:28
    TTC #1 since Nov '12
    DX: Non-IR PCOS & Hypothyroidism 
    BFP: 11/7/13 EDD: 7/18/14 Ectopic Tubal Surgery 12/18 
    2/5 HSG all clear!
    Femara 5mg + Trigger + IUI #1- 5 = BFN
    IVF #1 - 17R 15M 11F - Transferred 1 beautiful hatching blast on 9/26    4 Frosties
    Beta (10dp5dt) = 166  Beta #2 (12dp5dt) = 284  Beta #3 (14dp5dt) = 471  Beta #4 (18dp5dt) = 2032
    EDD: 6/14/15
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  • sundaybrunchsundaybrunch member
    ((HUGS))  So sorry you're dealing with so much.  That's great news on this cycle though!  FX!!
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    Me:36 DH:40
    Married since May, 2012; TTC since September, 2012
    DX: Blocked Fallopian Tube, Hashimoto's
    March 2014 - Clomid, Trigger, TI = BFN, April 2014 - Clomid, Trigger, TI = BFN, May 2014 - Clomid, estrogen, trigger, IUI = BFN, June & July 2014 - Natural cycles = BFN, August 2014 - Femara, estrogen, trigger, IUI = BFN, September 2014 - Femara, estrogen, trigger, IUI = BFN
    Prepping for IVF in with ER/ET slated for early February


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  • Von112Von112 member
    Thank you all ladies, Today I feel much better. I love this blog you all know exactly what I'm going thru and really help with my emotional break downs. I have my heart and fingers crossed for all of you!

    Me: 31 (2X Breast Cancer Survivor)

    DX: PCOS, Thin Uterine Lining

    DH: 38 Perfectly Fine

    Married: Since 08/2012

    TTC: Since 10/2012

    We have tried several cycles of Letrozole, 

    No Clomid and very limited to what I can take due to health history.

    Still Tryng...

     

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